in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
what too much information looks like- and yeah I had to crop my name out :p donāt try anything.
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i mean :0 itās fine :0 but a couple of hours before I cleared out all my notifications then this :0
@iloveyouxx heh i hvnt had less than 99 notifs in so long...Ā
@unassumingEyes
do you still not cross any of them out :0 do they just..sit there :pTvTš©·?
36 of them were upvotes from this forum :p and I was wondering how that was even possible but one forum page is 40 posts- and I didnāt really check all of the notifications but I just still know it just by looking over them.
Iām so tired. so much happened today. again :P. idk. I didnāt do the history presentation and I didnāt get a standards card. he just didnāt care. not even a little. tomorrow is my math pt but thatās okay cos i know itās easy. eid break after next week and alot of people are traveling because after that thereāre no tests and itās like thereās no point in being in school anymore. I feel like so much changed. and you know it changed because i donāt even think I have the time to talk about it :ā) the girls birthday is in 2 weeks. she agreed to switching classes and idrk why I thought she wouldnāt- so weāre both switching next year. summer breakās 2 months and I kinda wanna spend that (very-very-very :ā)) little time fixing my hair. lol fixing- my hairs fine. on the outside. I mean it looks fine or healthy or whatever but itās not even natural and Iāve been treating my 3a-3c curly hair like silk straight hair and itās just messing it up when itās in itās natural state the curls arenāt defined anymore and. Iāll stop talking about my hair :p. Iām not excited for year 9. year10 is mock exams and gcses but Iād honestly prefer going to year 10. idk. R almost asked the girl what happened with her and our classmates andā ļøI mean she just ignored it the same way she does when anyone else asks since heās not the only one but like whyā ļøthe class were moving to isnāt dramatically far :p itās just from 9A to 9B :p but trust me thereās a big difference :p we have lead classes until N so thereās 9A-9N and thats I think like 600(/ish from something they said in an assembly) students. I know all of them ;-; all around 600. you canāt really not honestly. like you canāt be in this school and not know at least your own yeargroup :p I have to go look at something-Iāll be back later-
@iloveyouxx i didnt know where to post this so im posting it here. I made this for u š©· it didnt turn out as well as i wanted it to...i had a dark day š« hope this cn brighten yours a little <3Ā
The pic is so bad šš ill send a brighter pic when mom isnt glaring at me promise š©·
@unassumingEyesĀ okok text reads cosmos "peace"Ā
Rose "love"
Potato flower "potato"
Baby's breath "kindness"Ā
Bluebell "resilience"Ā
@unassumingEyes
this is so sweet š„ŗš you two are such sweet friends š nadseyloaf and eyes bean šĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
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@iloveyouxx
*hugs if okay* ššš ni friend loves you nadseyloaf ššš
@unassumingEyes @iloveyouxx ok i dont even know if u saw this yet altho there are...4 upvotes so one cld be u but i wanted to tell u a lil incident around this for whenever u see it ššĀ
So i started this with the rose in the center and then my aunt + family came to visit...including my 4yr old female cousin...who drew over the rose when i wasnt looking š and proudly showed it off to everyone šš thankfully she just outlined the rose but she did it very darkly so it wasnt erasing š but i made it work...i think xD just erased the very weird and very pointy parts xD so this is frm me and my 4yr old cousin xDĀ
@unassumingEyes
why is that so cute and funnyā¦ šššš„ŗš
@LoveMyMoonflowers dont miss frustrating xD i had such a fright till i realized it was salvageable xDĀ
@unassumingEyes
omg thatās so cutešššI remember I used to ask my brother (that was really really good at hyper realistic art) to draw stuff for me then Iād show it to people and be like "tadaaaaaaaa!"ā ļøšI swear I did say that tho I was so stupid xDšIām sorry for the really really really late replyĀ :') I feel better now btw- I replied to everything in the other forum and then tagged you and said a bunch of other stuff. but then when I was typing "byyeee" I went back to remove the second y I think then the screen paused :D and I couldnāt click anything at all. not even tabs or zoom in or scroll or close or anything- then my device just got possessed and started idek then the screen turned black then it opened again but I was in incognito but when it opened it was in normal tabs and it was grey(refreshing) and cups tabs were all on that therapy login page thingĀ :')š©·at the time I had to come back because my friend that I havenāt seen in probably 4 months just came back like literally at that moment TvTš¤and then side affects from sumthing that happened earlier started causing alot of physical pain :p so I ended up forgetting everything about yk whatever I said and all that(I still honestly donāt remember anything xD) and then I was really overwhelmingly happy for no reason so thatās when I wrote that really long thing and it got deleted then the feeling went away and I got sleepy so I fell asleep :Pš:ppp I hope you liked my very long explanation :pppšIām gonna save the drawing btwšI love it so much. btw if you want better quality you can use links but itās just so you knowšbecause and this applies to everything but if you use the button the quality is usually pretty :p idk itās just kinda :p xDš¤Iām also sorry if Iām like switching alot. I remember that night I was like crying breaking down shaking panicking hating everything and having a tic attach and minutes later I was so happy and now I just kinda donāt care but itās just like, now my emotions are really extremeĀ :') If Iām sad Iām really really sad and if Iām happy Iām really really happy ykš©·Iām trying tho. also my brothers mad at me cos Iām not doing smth I was meant to :Pš¤also Iām at 4% and I was meant to do it on my device xD and where Iām working thereās no space for chargers xD and I canāt use another device rn xD yeah idk why I chose now out of all times to reply :pšsorryš©·tcšwait thereās too much pink here xDšš** better :D take caree ā¤ļø ily<3
(gifs arenāt working again but- ilyā¤ļøI just searched "you mean alot to me" xD then I searched "im sorry" and idk why I expected it to work the second time xDā¤ļø?)
@iloveyouxx
Cups nommed my tag which, rude xDĀ
It was rlly nice to see ur reply š i totally get asking ur brither to draw stuff and showing it to others xD
my net is like trash as always but anywaysĀ
**sends healing beams for whatever caused you pain**Ā
Sbshjdh what was the sorry gif supposed to be for- :0Ā
I love you too š very very much/gen
@unassumingEyes
xD predictable xDšIām done with the thing I was working on I just need to like āØ*āØ*āØyknow :pš?? this is really random but Iām going to a hotel tmrw for eid al adha š are you doing anything :0 btw idk the confirmed day I just know weāre staying there for like 5 6 days :pš¤I really love that hotel hehe :3 I wish I could stop feeling so bad about talking about myself. no matter what it was. howāre youš©·? I have to go soonish but I think you already left since itās later for youš
oop 1% again gonna be fastš yeah he wouldnāt do that now xD but I just loved all the attention xDš
my net is full bars. as always :p dang that has no complaint to it xD I canāt last without internet. yours needs to behave D:
oh it was kinda on purpose but not like that like- I knew I wasnāt meant to do it but like I didnāt do it to hurt myself or anything xD I knew it was most likely gonna affect me later but :p btw itās more of curiosity and boredom than anything yk mental health related just incaseš©·
:0 eyes :0 okay Iām definitely gonna run out of charge idk how Iām still at 1% but I have so many things to apologize for :0 also I have a qs and a bunch of other things to say but maybe later XD my batteryš
i love you more thošnew heart emoji :0 I knew it existed but never seen anyone use it butššI love youš
hows my charge still going- gotta go tho seriously XD byyyeeeeeeššššš©·š
@iloveyouxx we're going out for eid gonna hv sm ice cream it's tmrrw for us :pĀ
Im...alive xDĀ
**confused eyes noises about what you did out of boredom that caused pain**Ā Ā
Im curious about all the things u hv to say š but ur battery was against me dhdbhdd
My net is a little better (did anyone notice? xD/jk)
Idk what to say now :p so I love you ā¤ļø
(I knowwww no-one uses those hearts xD)Ā
@unassumingEyes
ice cream :00šš¦šāØyeah its today :0 which was tmrw when that was posted so xD I hope youāre having a good day <3ššš
š©·you seem so down these daysšI hope youāre at least okay todayĀ :') on eidĀ :')šI wanna listen if you want to talk about itš
xD I just realized how bad that sounded xD
my battery is 28% now :0 and I forgot what I wanted to sayšš
ouh :0 I didnāt xD btw eyes :0 do you remember on June 3rd you said "ill send a brighter pic when mom isnt glaring at me". your mom has been glaring at you for a long time :0/j/j/j/j sorry xDšI sound so mean xDšI love the pic tho you never had to do anything to itš
I love you more ā¤ļøā¤ļø
(oop I forgot- I love you moreššš***xD)
@iloveyouxx nadiaa the timezones are confusing me :p eid is tmrrw fr us :p i posted that at like 12 today :p todays eid for u? Eid mubarak š
Im a mess nowadays lol but its fine xD
XD my mom likes to do two things:Ā
Play candy crush
Glare at me
:pĀ
I love you...most! :p šš
@unassumingEyes
what :0 wait but eyes youāre only an hour ahead of me :0 and itās saturday for both of us right? Iām very confused :pš12pm? awwešeid mubarakšbut likeā¦the early versionāØ
Itās not fine tho. >:šive said it like 3 times butš©·if you ever wanna talk about anything at all Iād love to listenšno matter what it wasš
XD š I just thought..eyes mom had been glaring at eyes for a long timeš§šš©·it wasnāt anything targeted at you itās just I have so much free time xD and I know you donāt. also omg agjinyabgauyinauyagna eyes why do they all love candy crush omgā ļømy grandma plays candy crush xD and so many like middle aged to old women I know xD itās likeā ļøwabnabngggyuavbgabvuaybgaa theyāre so xD theyāre just built so similar Iām like xD/lh
D:Ā
ššš
@iloveyouxx
Im travelliiiing remember our timezones are more different :p (ew)Ā
Eid mubarak (late version?) Frndo <3
Thank you frnd ā¤ļø eyes is just being dumb :p
We made the very big mistake to introduce mom to candy crush xDĀ
Aw love you forever too potato frnd š
@unassumingEyes
youre travelllliiinngggg :0šoh wait :0 ohhhhhh :0 so what time would it be there nowš¤?
:0 itās still eid xD thankyou <3 eid mubarak š
i donāt think soā¤ļøbut nu pressure.ā¤ļø
XD typical xD they spend so much time on it too xD
ššš
that emoji is actually cute idk why no one ever uses it :pšIām gonna use it morešI donāt like some of the heart emojis xD likeā£ļø that especially xD idk why itās just like what does that even mean xD and why not just use any other heart emoji :p? XD maybe Iām being judgy xD:pššš©·
@iloveyouxx
Its 1pm :pĀ
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My moms playing candy crush rn š
Pfft that ones a weird one yeah and I like the design of this: ā¤ļøāš„ but I dont get it xDĀ
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@unassumingEyes
oof now I have to calculate from what time it was when I posted that TvT umm hold on..10 hours ago. itās 10:50. ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦6? thatās 4 hours ago..wait is it 2. 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10..I donāt know how to count. sorry Iām tired hehe sorry :pš1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9- idk where I am nvm. Iām gonna ask chatgpt :p okie it wouldāve been 1 because itās basically 11 :p and it says 10 hours ago so yk. Iām so tired sorry xD oh wait :0 you said it was 1 :0 Iām gonna leave this math aside until I can thinkš©·
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ā ļøā ļøtheyāre so dedicated in it like I swear idek where my grandma is in it anymore xD idk how she does it xD
oh I always thought it was like meant to show deep dramatic love xD romantic Iām pretty sure but just a guess hold on lemme google it :D "A heart shown on fire, for extreme or passionate forms of love or lust. Most representative ofĀ desire or lust, this emojiĀ may also indicateĀ a sense of burning a past love and moving on."Ā Ā I didnāt read it until the end but same same :pšI found it on emojipedia XDš
šš(its genuinely so cute hehe I love it <3šš)
@iloveyouxx the counting š i wld do it but im too tired aswell xD
Yeahhh we gave it to mom at like level 170 i think shes in 2000 smthing š
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh yeah that makes sense "burning passion" because its on fire xDĀ
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@justmeeva
evaš©·so obviously Iām about to run out of charge but I was working on sumthing and I know you might not be idk- at the best state to see it right now?šim not sure. itās good tho dwš©·itās like, quality Iād say xD yeah idk xD but if it was effort Iād say it is good :Pšbtw itās more like. you know when you study until like 3am for that one math test you completely procrastinated studying for all month. or maybe thatās just me. but yeah my point is itās more like something I felt like I needed to do rather than mm idk. do you get it :0š©·Iām definitely gonna run out of charge and I want this to post so Iām gonna leave it at thatšif you donāt want to reply btw you really donāt have to.šI just wanted to make sure but if you donāt reply Iāll just wait until I get your consent or like agreement but dw I wonāt be like *waiting* waiting :Pšitās just that itās for you and if you donāt feel like it or you donāt want to see it yet then thatād have to be your choicešI know you said itās rare but I really hope youāre at least okay :ā)š©·š©·.
@iloveyouxxĀ
oh wow, iāmĀ late. :ā) you made me smile with this nadia friend š©· i think itās only right to give you my permission, knowing you probably put a lot of effort into it, whatever it is <3 genuinely though, i couldnāt decline such an offer. š©· now iām curious heheĀ
*meanwhile, sends you optional warm hugs* š
@justmeeva
youāre not lateš©·whatās 12-7 hehe :p<33 uhhhhhmmmmā¦ā¦7..8..9..10..11..12 so thatāsā¦5? 5+7..oh yeah that is 12 :0 you were only 5 hours late thatās nothing plus I posted really really late at night for both of usšand now Iām 7 hours late lol :pš
yaaaayyyyyyyš©·š©·okay so Iām traveling in like an hour so I just need to record and try and get it right :ā) Iām sorry if itās bad xD and if i post later Iām sorry too because my dads gonna wake up like right now and heās gonna get mad at me because Iām not ready at all :pšIāll try to be quickš©·
:0 crosses out optional :0ševahugs are the bestš
*meanwhile, sends youĀ optional warm hugs* šĀ
@iloveyouxxĀ
same, nadia, same xD the struggle with the math is real xD /lh
<3 record? you really have my interest now :0 but tyt tyt iāll try to be patient :pĀ
*hugssss* š©·š©·
i see what you did there, copying my kindness huh /lh /j <3
love you nadia friend šš
@justmeeva
xD I canāt calculate 5 + 7 and Iām expected to do mock exams and gcse one day ;-; and to pass ? and graduate ? and get a good job ? xD ?
yus yus record hehe<3 whatād you think it was xD a picture xD a link to a reminder xD lmao I stayed up for hours- itās not like amazing amazing but considering especially rn my memory and attention span is- horrible :D it took a while and Iām happy I did it <3 itās gonna be 3/4 minutes long. oh btw :ā) you might have to try to be patient like :p more :p:D bcos I tried to do it then the first couple of times I was remembering from last night, then I was getting the last part, then I was recording then I got mad and slammed the thing cos I kept messing upā ļøthen I really really really got it- then my dad woke up and I had to go get ready and bags and stuff, then after all that I still knew everything so I was recording and I got so much done and I was almost done and it was going so well then my brother came and started annoying me but idk why he woke up so mean like he was really really annoying me :ā) then I got really upset then my dad got mad that we were "fighting" now and started yelling at my brother, then I kept trying to record and my dad would keep yelling, then I got one really really good but this guy decided to come in in the last part and ring the doorbell then my dad was talking so loud, then they went outside so I could record again, and now ofc I was at the vv end when they went back inside and my dad was just going "yeah, yeah, thankyou, thankyou, yeah, thankyou" ššwas that necessaryšššwghahsuygit hugsyit š but yeah I really have it planted in my head now :D and I just need to wait until I go back there and have it be the first thing I do before anything else :Dš
š©·*hugs you so tight that you wish you never offered a hug in the first place*š©·/j/j/lh
šyk that button that has an S and it has a line in the middle? I did that for the word optional but every time I post anything with that it goes like off when I postš XD ?? since when were you this fun XD /lh sorry xD I just mean like xDšyou are funšand sweet and kind and lovely and you have beautiful energyšbut like xDš
I love you more eva beanš©·šš
@justmeeva
btw friend. I know you havenāt asked for this or anything but I just wanted to say that I know youāre hurting. and you donāt have to say anything at all to me. Iāll just try to be here and understand. so apparently Iām traveling back on tuesday and Iāll make sure the things posted by then :0 thankyou for trying to be patient lolš©·I love youš©·/gen.Ā
@kiyoluv nfta but I really really did miss youš©·and I was so worried about you. I tried checking forums and rooms but you only had one and nothing there(recently at least or to know youāre okay)and I never saw you in rooms. I just really hope youāre okayš©·I love youš©·/sovvvvgenš
I just wanted it to be over. I just want it to be over.Ā
