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iloveyouxx March 17th

hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnā€™t look like mešŸ§makes sense doesnā€™t itšŸ˜›since there can only be one *me*āœØone of a kind now arent IšŸ˜/sar. one out of 8118835999āœØšŸŒ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youā€™re also one of a kindšŸ’– sorrysorry haha :PšŸ¤im just messing around xDšŸ’žalso itā€™s 2am- but shush no snitchingšŸ¤«Iā€™ll sleep in a whilešŸ˜when Iā€™m feeling a bit more sane :>šŸ˜›šŸ©·

wanted to have my own space.šŸ’œ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.šŸ’™

to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šŸ’œplease dont lurk here.šŸ©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šŸ’™but please be respectfulšŸ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :PšŸ’› yā€™all get crazy nosy haha- itā€™s alright.šŸ’›nothing too interesting will be here anywayšŸ’›if you would like to come in and be supportive itā€™s completely okiešŸ’›but please donā€™t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšŸ’›because Iā€™d still like this to be just my space ^-^šŸ’›)

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iloveyouxx OP June 2nd

there were so many times today where I couldā€™ve been on cups :p like. I had so much free time. and so much happened. and I know on another day I wouldā€™ve just came here and talked all about it- improvement? :p i know it sounds dumb but to me cups is such a serious and valid addiction. if I tried to stop it I wouldnā€™t. Iā€™ve never even set my account on break or deactivated it once(just cos idk. Itā€™s kinda unnecessary unless you just- nvm Iā€™m not gonna rant about this again) and I always come back. I always come back. cups is always in my incognito tabs- itā€™s never not there. but I just came here like twice to refresh the page and see notifications and thatā€™s it :ā€™) Iā€™m honestly not that addicted to cups anymore. it used to affect me so much but itā€™s just a site. okay well yeah Iā€™m sorry it is alot more than a site. it means so much to so many people and itā€™s helped millions- but I just feel like the way it affected me(atleast the negative part)isnā€™t worth it at all- when I see it just from that it is just a site. from the creeps to the attention seekers and liars and conflicts itā€™s just a site. there was that one person on here. I donā€™t really wanna think about them but theyā€™re the reason I actually havenā€™t talked in rooms for months. and I cried a bunch and they just took so much thought in my head. "keeping you in my thoughts" literally never means anything if you say it all the time. sorry. but what the person did to the way I thought is something itā€™s just- no oneā€™s ever changed my mindset and feelings and way of thinking and- myself- so much even irl. even my dad when he (/) and it leaves me numb and literally sui or my mom showing up 10 years later when I thought she was dead or my best friend going "you do you" when I was talking about wanting to *** km.s. yeah I ruined my mood. but not even they changed me like that person did. and I still think about them. I realize what it sounds like so no we werenā€™t dating and no I didnā€™t like them. they were only tagged in a couple of things. but one forum they replied to and I check that so often and go on their account and still. permanently banned. I know that code and my listener friend does too and even a commod. ā€¦ā€¦..why- I swear I was actually kinda okay before this :ā€™) I *** myself up sm I swear-ā€¦. :ā€™)

iloveyouxx OP June 2nd

I found out the *perfect* excuse for history :D

iloveyouxx OP June 2nd

just listen just listen okayā€¦./lh

iloveyouxx OP June 2nd

so Iā€™m gonna bring one of my empty planners right :D? (youā€™re not allowed btw and itā€™s not really meant to be possible but :p doesnā€™t matter :p I found them in my bag :p/ididnt) and Iā€™m gonna tell him that I forgot my device for that day :D and how my other teachers didnā€™t care or we just didnā€™t need our devices(heā€™s not the person to really bother you about a dumb excuse)(oh and btw he likes me lol or atleast heā€™s much nicer to me :p cos he notices how depressed I always am. lol. Iā€™m not even joking at school my skin actually looks grey. I can barely open my eyes and I just look so exhausted and dead :ā€™) he keeps asking me if Iā€™m okay but anyway) and then :D heā€™s gonna sign my planner :D my empty planner :D and that oneā€™s gonna have 1 signature and honestly Iā€™m never gonna need it for history again but if I do then thatā€™s officially the history teacher planner :p heā€™s very likely gonna forget about it anyway. then heā€™s gonna remove my name :D and Iā€™ll have to do it on thursday :D and then Iā€™ll figure it out from there :D

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iloveyouxx OP June 2nd

Iā€™m not gonna have the confidence to do that :D.. ki.ll me :D

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iloveyouxx OP June 2nd
i need to have something ready atleast.Ā 
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iloveyouxx OP June 2nd
nvm i donā€™t wanna think about it.Ā 
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iloveyouxx OP June 2nd

btw this is sarcastic :D but I like it :D

iloveyouxx OP June 2nd

I hate mondays.Ā 

I hate everyday-

iloveyouxx OP June 2nd

brb.-Ā 

also Iā€™m gonna have to go soon anyway cos my dad- and :ā€™) my dad :D

iloveyouxx OP June 3rd

4:44 am :0

iloveyouxx OP June 3rd

guess what :DĀ 

iloveyouxx OP June 3rd

noooooo no Iā€™ll let you guess :D../lh