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The only thing left is memories (Ape's diary, no peaking)

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Bearainy July 17th, 2024

Tw; domestic, sexual abuse, PTSD,  (possible Schizophrenia, DID) social anxiety, family stress.


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Hi buddies. Hugs for you all. This is my diary. No reply please. Love you.


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"When I stand before thee at the end of the day'thou shalt see my scars and know that I had my wounds and also my healings."

—Tagore's 《Stray Birds》


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Bearainy OP September 28th, 2024

24/9/28

@Apeatrice

Hey honey, I know things hadn't been great lately. But please keep in mind you are not allowed to hurt yourself. You worth more than the harm you do to yourself.

Lots of love.

Apeatrice




I'm grateful for my earphone not dead completely.

I'm grateful for this month's ending.

I'm happy to have audio books.

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Bearainy OP September 30th, 2024

@Apeatrice

Hey morning, Honey. You have punished yourself enough, please, be gentle with yourself for the rest of the day.

You deserves more from the harm you do to yourself.

Apeatrice

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Bearainy OP October 3rd, 2024

@Apeatrice

Morning sweetheart! I know how you are fregitin about how you are behind and all. I know its tough to fight the urge to punish yourself. Could you keep in mind, Honey, that beat yourself up will not change a single thing or make anything easier?

Warm hugs your way.

Love, Apeatrice

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Bearainy OP October 3rd, 2024

i m grateful to cup and all my friends and family.

I'm happy for the strings dad bought me.

I'm grateful to try to start new

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Bearainy OP October 3rd, 2024

@Apeatrice

Honey, please remember that you are only human and striving to achieve magic is not in your or anyone's ability.

Please be gentle with self, love.

Apeatrice

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Bearainy OP October 3rd, 2024

I'm grateful for the quiet night.

I 'm happy to be alive (ironically)

I'm grateful to have my best friends

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Bearainy OP October 5th, 2024

@Apeatrice

Morning, honey. Congratulations on finish hosting. I know you may not feel like it, but you are amazing in your first session. 

It takes time to be adopted, be patient.

Apeatrice

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Bearainy OP October 5th, 2024

I'm grateful for the bright sun.

I 'm happy to be awake.

I'm happy for the bundle of "joy" besides me (again, ironic)

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Bearainy OP October 8th, 2024

I m grateful for the morning rain.

Im grateful for the people who helped me getting through

Im happy that winter is approaching

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Bearainy OP October 8th, 2024

@Apetarice

Morning sweetheart.

It will turns out soon, honey. Don't give up.

Love you always