In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
Theres a wild kind of acceptance in me rn
i think if i was to di.e id just say okay rn
u ever feel cursed? Like u cnt be okay?
A human can get used to anything
@unassumingEyes
I hate seeing you so hurt eyes >: I hate it so much. I wish I could make it easier for you- or take away all your pain. I’m sorry I’m not much help atm. I’m sorry >: I care about you friend. I want you to be oki and for everyone else to be oki- more than anything :'3 I’m sorry I haven’t exactly been here for you- but I was always *here* for you frend :'3 I always am.. I’m just not that good at providing support right now. and nu this isn’t me prioritizing myself :'3 it’s just me- idek. o would you look at that :D lmao :'3 well I gtg. ily./p💖🥺 please take care..stay strong.🤍 don’t let your head get to you please- it’ll be oki..🤍 yup gtg- ;-; I’m sorry.💜
@iloveyouxx
everyone hurts, i think. I get wanting to take it all away, i want the same for all of you.- but everyone hurts. Thats one way life is fair, i guess, it doesnt leave anyone without the hurt xD
im lonely irl. And, okay, sometimes when i wake up and know that barely anyone else on cups is awake, im lonely here, too. Sometimes i get mad. How can u say ur here, when i spend every morning alone?
but i cn never be here at night. Thats not my fault. This is not ur fault. sometimes i just need someone to blame, i guess, but its always half hearted.
id be lying if i said uve ever hurt me.
Idk nadia. Idk. Just, i dont need yall to have a magic solution to all my pain, or-even to be here everytime i am… i just need yall to be i guess. Eva is- idk. Idk where eva is. Nd that makes me feel kinda alone. Cuz…idk
everything im saying is probably making u feel worse, or useless, or smth. But thats not what i mean.
i think what i mean is, when i opened cups just now and saw “iloveyouxx” i felt… not better, but safer? Idk. Im making things worse xD
i hope ur safe ❤️ thank you ❤️ ily frnd <3
@unassumingEyes
ok.. it’s ok. I’m gonna go for now.(not cos of you🤍) ilyt <33❤️
Tw What? So it wldnt be okay if they were frm the UK? Im pretty sure i just detected slightly hidden racism 🤨
Headache again
Earlier i was unofficially worried. Rn i am officially worried.
@justmeeva...?
@unassumingEyes
@iloveyouxx its oki to reply :0
@justmeeva atp im gonna hv tagged u a million times before u show up
(And u are most definitely showing up-)
@unassumingEyes
i mean- yeah- they have to..they will- right :'3
and yus- I hope when they do come back they see all these and it reminds them how much we all really really care-🩷
@justmeeva
@iloveyouxx eva will come back
@unassumingEyes
i know..💙
@iloveyouxx
ee big letter D: /lh
Tw i think i hv that anxiety shaking thing. Idk everytime im nervous, stressed or excited my legs start shaking.
Last night my sis, 2 of my cousins and me played a native language reading game. The goal was to see who can read a para the fastest. My turn, my leg started moving up and down slightly so i put my hand on it. But the more, faster i read the faster my leg moved up and down. I focused on the reading and ignored it but it moved so fast, out of my control. I thought my cousin wld notice, say smth, but noone seemed to notice- but how? It was moving so fast-
Idek-
@unassumingEyes i asked my sis if she noticed and she said yes. That surprises me even more- that she didnt make fun of it :p
I said i cldnt control it and she was surprised. But that was literally it. Like she wasnt interested in the topic lol :p atleast no judgement :p
@justmeeva @iloveyouxx @unassumingEyes
hey everyone…
@LoveMyMoonflowers hey love ❤️
@unassumingEyes
hey eyes <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers u oki frnd?/nfta
@unassumingEyes
nope. you?
@LoveMyMoonflowers mmm maybe, maybe not. Floating, i think.
@unassumingEyes
awwe i hear you friend ): that’s okie though buddy. it’s ok not to know, to be somewhere in the maybe’s 💜 it’s okie buddy. :') we’re here if you need okie? 💜 love you eyes buddy. *huggie wuggies*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hi ❤️
@justmeeva
hi evabuddybeanie <3
I cnt type but everyone seems to have had…a night :/ (is it weird that i like the night despite how scary it gets-)
sooo imma just hug everyone ❤️
(and @justmeeva i saw one of ur posts in ur thread bout like…tw war possibility and i hv no idea bout ur country but its like, same 😔 hope nothing happens ❤️)
@unassumingEyes
*a tight hug for eyes friend* 🩷
@unassumingEyes @justmeeva
*hugs eyes and evabuddybean tight* <3 yeah me saw that too eva friend… 😞 understandable and valid to feel scared, overwhelmed, whatever you’re feeling right now… 😞💜 love you friend 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs nibuddy tooo* 🩷 yeah. it wasn’t exactly what you’d expect to find out just like that. but rn we just have to wait and see what’ll happen, if anything.
@justmeeva
i hope nothing happens buddy. 😞💜 *keeps hugging*
@LoveMyMoonflowers @justmeeva *hugss*
Tw its just news eva buddy?/nfta. We had an incident in jan but they say it wont get worse. Countries are holding back and trynna solve conflicts to prevent world war 3 i think
adults rlly hv smth against letting kids be huh 😔 lots of love ❤️
@unassumingEyes
lots of love right back. 💜 :') and yeah, i agree… 😞
@unassumingEyes
idk, i hadn’t heard anything at all about it before yesterday, but it somehow came up in a class and the teacher told us that she’s been keeping up with the news and.. that it’s possible. idk.
@justmeeva
i’m sorry friend that’s still vv scary ☹️💜 *huggles you and never lets go ever* 🥺😞💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*stays in the hug forever* 🩷
@justmeeva i dont know ofcourse…but weve had incidents and i think…itll be nothing. I cnt say for sure- and ofcourse its absolutely normal to feel anxious (and kinda awful i hv experience like what.) but idk, i think itll be okay. Hopefully ❤️
@unassumingEyes
yeah. 🩷
Here for u too flowers <3 hugss love ya ❤️
(myt poof- mom doesnt think i shld be using my eyes so much already i had a tw massssive headache in the morning)
