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A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)

Optimisticempath April 10th, 2022

Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀

I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha

I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️

Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.

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Optimisticempath OP May 1st

how does hunger work....does something tell you to ...eat? or uh? when to eat...

appetite so low these days...i don't remember to eat till there's people around ... and its embarrassing to lie about this...i don't want to..but idk..

urgh 😣 


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@Optimisticempath

Sometimes we don't feel like eating because we feel stressy or something. But perhaps setting an alarm to remind us when it is eating time would help? 🥺

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Optimisticempath OP May 4th

@RachelListener mhm can try alarms ...maybe🥺

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@Optimisticempath

There is also an eating reminder app that perhaps you can use 🥺💕 *hugs till you feel better*🥺

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Optimisticempath OP May 1st

what.am.i.even.doing.bruh😭 

Optimisticempath OP May 1st

life looks a lot like just urgh 💀

but that's totally coooooooooolllllllll 🤡 we are totallyyyy fiiineeeeee🥳

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@Optimisticempath

me will sit with Milky 🥛🧸 through it all if okie 🥺

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Optimisticempath OP May 4th

@VictoriaLove7 hugs rainbow bear tight 🥺🌈🧸🤗

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@Optimisticempath

*Hugsss Milky 🥛🧸💕 tightttt 🥺🥛🌈🧸🤗💕🥛🧸*

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Optimisticempath OP May 4th

"everything happens for a reason"

"you cannot control somethings"

"you shouldn't think or feel sad about it because you can't do anything about it"

"your wasting time thinking about it"

"for how long will you hold on to it?"

.... uh..ik...im sad and hurting not dumb (i might be dumb too smh but like that much im sure ik😔)

idk how long tho...there is no timeline to it.. :( 

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@Optimisticempath *offers safe hugs* I'm sorry you're hurting and sad OptiBear 😞


You're definitely not dumb 💙❤️💙

"everything happens for a reason" unhelpful - some things there is no good reason or at least nothing that makes sense to us

"you cannot control somethings" true but also unhelpful 

"you shouldn't think or feel sad about it because you can't do anything about it" It amazes me that people think this way 

"your wasting time thinking about it" If it's something/someone that was important you're going to think about it. It's not wasted time. Some things we can't help but think about because there was no resolution or closure 

"for how long will you hold on to it" 

You're absolutely right. There isn't a timeline or time limit. We go through everything at our own pace and if people can't understand or accept that then that's on them 💙
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Optimisticempath OP May 7th

@mytwistedsoul

Not Soul being so thoughtful as always 🥺 you actually took time to invalidate all those unsupportive and invalidating comments Soul???😭😭😭 im crying now...you are too kind to me 🥺... thank you for being you ❤ 

yes apparently some do😔 some of these v recently came from someone who said they like me and who i kinda started to like too.... they seem more logical to things...and then i end up feeling really stupid for even saying something 😔 it's v complicated on top of other things... but it's been hitting me really hard ... so you saying all this and reminding me really does mean a lot to me 🥺 vv grateful for you ❤❤

i don't have a lot of words rn but i really really appreciate this and you 🥺 bless you Soul ❤❤❤ hugs back tightly and doesn't let go 

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@Optimisticempath *squeezies you tight* ❤️ I guess I did lol

It sounds really complicated 😕 It's really hard when we like and care someone and think they'll understand where we're coming from and then they say things that hit so hard 😞 And our brains being the bullies that they are - they latch on to these things and it gets stuck in our heads. I know it just ends up causing trouble because we think about it over and over 😕 and then maybe we start to question ourselves - whether what we feel and think is right. We maybe try to convince ourselves that we're wrong but the thoughts and feelings are still there - so there must be something wrong with us because other people don't seem to think this way 😞 The thing is they might have never been in this situation or they might not have gone through anything close to what we have.  So it's easy for them to say things like that
Idk maybe that doesn't make sense 😅 

I hope things work out to something good for you ❤️ 
Lots of love to you OptiBear ❤️ ❤️


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@Optimisticempath

It is not dumb to feel that way, Milky 🥛🧸🥺 it is vv human, & it is okie to take our time to process things 🥺💕

*sits & huggiess Milky tightttt 🥛🧸💕🥺🤗🌈🧸*

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Optimisticempath OP May 7th

@VictoriaLove7 thank you 🌈🧸 *hugs back tightly 💕

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@Optimisticempath

this is so true :( i hate it when people tell us there are some things that are or aren't in our control! thats the one that hit the most <3 I had a teacher who used to tell me that about things that were going on at home and its so frustrating :/ there are some phrases people use that are just so.... strangely discouraging and just not comforting at that moment. 

i hear you opti <3 

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Optimisticempath OP May 7th

@amiableBunny4016

bunwee 💕 yes exactly ... its so discouraging and invalidating and not comforting at all... because everyone knows things happen and happened and there isn't anything they can do to change it but we don't need that reminder when we are struggling already 🥺 wish people could just be silent if they don't have good things to say 😔 

it makes me wonder tho if they'd like to hear that if they were going through similar situation? or if there's something wrong with me to find it unsupportive 😅 im stuck too many times...about what to say to support but i do try my best to not say anything that I wouldn't want to hear either ...🥺

wow this got long...i didn't mean to blabber 😅 just appreciate your support and kindness bunwee 💕 

hugs you and sends luvvv back to you 💕💕

happy birthday again buddy 💕

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Optimisticempath OP May 7th

lol thanks for reading the title anyway xD im never sure what to put there so funny braincells helped a little 💀now that my awkward self has brought some humor here we can dig deeperrr xD 


umm idk where to begin tho...im kinda reallly not sure what is it that i want or am wanting to hear ...but some insight or opinions or experiences etc if relatable might be nice ... we can try at least 😅


im not sure if i wanna let this person in... they like me..even said they luv me...💀 like romantically.. but im so scared 💀

my emotions are all over the place...and most of the time im not even sure im real or anything around me is...so imagine 


incomplete 

.... dont know if i should share this in another thread or...idk...later maybe 

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@Optimisticempath

Milky 🥛🧸🤗💕🌈🧸

me read, follow your heart but bring brain too 🤗💕

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Optimisticempath OP May 7th

uh...i just...i feel 😔 ... im sorry ...for being me..🤡 ... and sorry to everyone for tolerating me or like trying to keep up with me.....ive never meant to cause hurt to anyone ... but if ive ever had...im really really sorry ...just a pile of stupidity here...😖...

sometimes being alone is really it ..that way no one gets annoyed or hurt.. 

just gonna go back to hidey...

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@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ Can I say that we talk with you and try to support and encourage you because we like you and care about you? I've never felt that I had to tolerate you in any way - shape - or form. I'm sure the others that visit your thread feel the same way. You're our friend and we love you as you are 

*adds cushions and blankets to Opti's hidey space* ❤️

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Optimisticempath OP May 7th

this was supposed to be white too but glad cups didn't like me either and decided to collapse the text anyway ... great!!🥰🥰🥰🥰

Optimisticempath OP May 7th

ok braincells jumping weirdly now smh .... does anyone know why some are collapsed and others aren't??👀 

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RachelListener May 12th

@Optimisticempath

This might not be related, but 🥺 hope this will be something to help to distract from meanie thoughts

I recently learned that humans can grow braincells everyday 🧠 

*hugs till you feel better*🥺

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Optimisticempath OP May 7th

spamming your own forum is ✨fun✨ 


Optimisticempath OP May 7th

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as you should have ... thank you ...if not too much to ask from you... lock the door on your way out please :) 


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cozy down here 😇

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did pay with my mental health tho. . so its compensated  :)

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@Optimisticempath

*Huggss Milky 🥛🧸💕 🌈🧸 tightttt 🥺*


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