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A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! ๐
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime โค๏ธ
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
@LoveMyMoonflowers huggies you back ๐๐
@Optimisticempath
*๐๐งธ huggss Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ tightttt ๐ฅบ๐*
a loss reminder day .....
idk how to get through this.... been so many years but it's all so fresh still....i can chronologically assign the events of this day many years back.... even now...ย
but no wanna think or remember....๐
hidey...
@Optimisticempath
*me sits & hide with Milky ๐๐งธ๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐ฅบ if okie*
do you wanna talkie about it, Milky? ๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐ฅบ
@VictoriaLove7
no talkie ๐ฅบ
*hugs and hidey with ๐๐งธย
๐ช๐ช for ๐๐งธ because ๐๐งธ is the sweetest bear everr
@Optimisticempath
*nom nom ๐ช ๐ช ๐ฅ , ๐๐งธ huggiess Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐, & hidey with Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐ฅบ*
me ๐๐งธ will keep you safe, Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐ฅบ
@Optimisticempath
Hugss till you feel better ๐ฅบ
Perhaps therapy for those hurty memories?๐ฅบ
@RachelListener
nu therapy ... therapy is not an option...๐
*hugs you tight ๐
Heyy I just wanted to ask you what is your personality type? I absolutely love asking these types of things cuz there just so fun!
@Katapilar
hi it's nice to meet you and that's a cool ice breaker for a change ๐
mhm i think it was infj or isfj...need to check again ๐
what about you?ย
how does hunger work....does something tell you to ...eat? or uh? when to eat...
appetite so low these days...i don't remember to eat till there's people around ... and its embarrassing to lie about this...i don't want to..but idk..
urgh ๐ฃย
@Optimisticempath
Sometimes we don't feel like eating because we feel stressy or something. But perhaps setting an alarm to remind us when it is eating time would help? ๐ฅบ
@RachelListener mhm can try alarms ...maybe๐ฅบ
@Optimisticempath
There is also an eating reminder app that perhaps you can use ๐ฅบ๐ *hugs till you feel better*๐ฅบ
life looks a lot like just urgh ๐
but that's totally coooooooooolllllllll ๐คก we are totallyyyy fiiineeeeee๐ฅณ
@Optimisticempath
me will sit with Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ through it all if okie ๐ฅบ
@VictoriaLove7 hugs rainbow bear tight ๐ฅบ๐๐งธ๐ค
@Optimisticempath
*Hugsss Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ tightttt ๐ฅบ๐ฅ๐๐งธ๐ค๐๐ฅ๐งธ*
"everything happens for a reason"
"you cannot control somethings"
"you shouldn't think or feel sad about it because you can't do anything about it"
"your wasting time thinking about it"
"for how long will you hold on to it?"
.... uh..ik...im sad and hurting not dumb (i might be dumb too smh but like that much im sure ik๐)
idk how long tho...there is no timeline to it.. :(ย
@Optimisticempath
It is not dumb to feel that way, Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ฅบ it is vv human, & it is okie to take our time to process things ๐ฅบ๐
*sits & huggiess Milky tightttt ๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐ฅบ๐ค๐๐งธ*
@VictoriaLove7 thank you ๐๐งธ *hugs back tightly ๐
@Optimisticempath *offers safe hugs* I'm sorry you're hurting and sad OptiBear ๐
@mytwistedsoul
Not Soul being so thoughtful as always ๐ฅบ you actually took time to invalidate all those unsupportive and invalidating comments Soul???๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ im crying now...you are too kind to me ๐ฅบ... thank you for being you โคย
yes apparently some do๐ some of these v recently came from someone who said they like me and who i kinda started to like too.... they seem more logical to things...and then i end up feeling really stupid for even saying something ๐ it's v complicated on top of other things... but it's been hitting me really hard ... so you saying all this and reminding me really does mean a lot to me ๐ฅบ vv grateful for you โคโค
i don't have a lot of words rn but i really really appreciate this and you ๐ฅบ bless you Soul โคโคโค hugs back tightly and doesn't let goย
@Optimisticempath *squeezies you tight* โค๏ธ I guess I did lol
@Optimisticempath
this is so true :( i hate it when people tell us there are some things that are or aren't in our control! thats the one that hit the most <3 I had a teacher who used to tell me that about things that were going on at home and its so frustrating :/ there are some phrases people use that are just so.... strangely discouraging and just not comforting at that moment.ย
i hear you opti <3ย
@amiableBunny4016
bunwee ๐ yes exactly ... its so discouraging and invalidating and not comforting at all... because everyone knows things happen and happened and there isn't anything they can do to change it but we don't need that reminder when we are struggling already ๐ฅบ wish people could just be silent if they don't have good things to say ๐ย
it makes me wonder tho if they'd like to hear that if they were going through similar situation? or if there's something wrong with me to find it unsupportive ๐ im stuck too many times...about what to say to support but i do try my best to not say anything that I wouldn't want to hear either ...๐ฅบ
wow this got long...i didn't mean to blabber ๐ just appreciate your support and kindness bunwee ๐ย
hugs you and sends luvvv back to you ๐๐
happy birthday again buddy ๐
lol thanks for reading the title anyway xD im never sure what to put there so funny braincells helped a little ๐now that my awkward self has brought some humor here we can dig deeperrr xDย
umm idk where to begin tho...im kinda reallly not sure what is it that i want or am wanting to hear ...but some insight or opinions or experiences etc if relatable might be nice ... we can try at least ๐
im not sure if i wanna let this person in... they like me..even said they luv me...๐ like romantically.. but im so scared ๐
my emotions are all over the place...and most of the time im not even sure im real or anything around me is...so imagineย
incompleteย
.... dont know if i should share this in another thread or...idk...later maybeย
@Optimisticempath
Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ค๐๐๐งธ
me read, follow your heart but bring brain too ๐ค๐
uh...i just...i feel ๐ ... im sorry ...for being me..๐คก ... and sorry to everyone for tolerating me or like trying to keep up with me.....ive never meant to cause hurt to anyone ... but if ive ever had...im really really sorry ...just a pile of stupidity here...๐...
sometimes being alone is really it ..that way no one gets annoyed or hurt..ย
just gonna go back to hidey...
@Optimisticempath Hey you โค๏ธ Can I say that we talk with you and try to support and encourage you because we like you and care about you? I've never felt that I had to tolerate you in any way - shape - or form. I'm sure the others that visit your thread feel the same way. You're our friend and we love you as you areย
*adds cushions and blankets to Opti's hidey space* โค๏ธ
this was supposed to be white too but glad cups didn't like me either and decided to collapse the text anyway ... great!!๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
ok braincells jumping weirdly now smh .... does anyone know why some are collapsed and others aren't??๐ย
@Optimisticempath
This might not be related, but ๐ฅบ hope this will be something to help to distract from meanie thoughts
I recently learned that humans can grow braincells everyday ๐ง ย
*hugs till you feel better*๐ฅบ
as you should have ... thank you ...if not too much to ask from you... lock the door on your way out please :)ย
cozy down here ๐
did pay with my mental health tho. . so its compensatedย :)
@Optimisticempath
*Huggss Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ ๐๐งธ tightttt ๐ฅบ*
i feel like crying ... a lot... you know one of those times you just know you've got so much in your heart.... it's heavy ...gets heavier and there seems no escape or relief .... idk tho i don't really have a very recent or current valid reason to cry... but it's just so heavy inside....
i feel like a horrible person ๐ either im not saying, doing anything... being life less and with 0 expression on face... or im snappy and irritated at literally everything and everyone .... specially when someone tries talking to me or asking me something .... there's a ton of loneliness im stuck in but at the same time .... i really am fine till anyone's around or tries talking .... just wanna be left alone to keep my silence... at least on the outside..... inner world is pure chaos...nd i dont even know what to think of it..... and then it hurts so much ... later...snapping at someone...being so moody and rude for no good reason or good reason known to them ... should just hide๐
@Optimisticempath
Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ฅบ๐ it is alright to cry, it might help to release our stress or any feelings that have overwhelmed us ๐ฅบ๐
chu is not a horrible person, because me sure there are circumstances or situations that make chu feel stressful & feel irritated at everything or everyone. Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ has been doing the best you could, everyday, even if chu might feel it is not enough ๐ฅบ๐
Know that me is vvvv glad that chu exist, Milky๐ฅ๐งธ๐๐๐งธ๐ฅบ
Rainbow bear ๐ ๐งธ hopes that Milky ๐ฅ๐งธ๐ try to be patient with chuself, just the way chu is being gentle to rainbow bear ๐๐งธ๐ฅบ๐
*Huggsss Milky ๐ฅ๐๐งธ๐ฅบ tightttt*