A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)

@LoveMyMoonflowers huggies you back 💕💕

@Optimisticempath

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@Optimisticempath

*🌈🧸 huggss Milky 🥛🧸💕 tightttt 🥺💕*

a loss reminder day .....

idk how to get through this.... been so many years but it's all so fresh still....i can chronologically assign the events of this day many years back.... even now... 

but no wanna think or remember....😖

hidey...

@Optimisticempath

*me sits & hide with Milky 🌈🧸🥛🧸💕🥺 if okie*

do you wanna talkie about it, Milky? 🥛🧸💕🥺

@VictoriaLove7

no talkie 🥺

*hugs and hidey with 🌈🧸 

🍪🍪 for 🌈🧸 because 🌈🧸 is the sweetest bear everr

@Optimisticempath

*nom nom 🍪 🍪 🥠, 🌈🧸 huggiess Milky 🥛🧸💕, & hidey with Milky 🥛🧸💕🥺*

me 🌈🧸 will keep you safe, Milky 🥛🧸💕🥺

@Optimisticempath

Hugss till you feel better 🥺

Perhaps therapy for those hurty memories?🥺

@RachelListener

nu therapy ... therapy is not an option...😔

*hugs you tight 💕

Heyy I just wanted to ask you what is your personality type? I absolutely love asking these types of things cuz there just so fun!

@Katapilar

hi it's nice to meet you and that's a cool ice breaker for a change 💕

mhm i think it was infj or isfj...need to check again 😅

what about you? 

how does hunger work....does something tell you to ...eat? or uh? when to eat...

appetite so low these days...i don't remember to eat till there's people around ... and its embarrassing to lie about this...i don't want to..but idk..

urgh 😣 

@Optimisticempath

Sometimes we don't feel like eating because we feel stressy or something. But perhaps setting an alarm to remind us when it is eating time would help? 🥺

@RachelListener mhm can try alarms ...maybe🥺

@Optimisticempath

There is also an eating reminder app that perhaps you can use 🥺💕 *hugs till you feel better*🥺

what.am.i.even.doing.bruh😭 

life looks a lot like just urgh 💀

but that's totally coooooooooolllllllll 🤡 we are totallyyyy fiiineeeeee🥳

@Optimisticempath

me will sit with Milky 🥛🧸 through it all if okie 🥺

@VictoriaLove7 hugs rainbow bear tight 🥺🌈🧸🤗

@Optimisticempath

*Hugsss Milky 🥛🧸💕 tightttt 🥺🥛🌈🧸🤗💕🥛🧸*

"everything happens for a reason"

"you cannot control somethings"

"you shouldn't think or feel sad about it because you can't do anything about it"

"your wasting time thinking about it"

"for how long will you hold on to it?"

.... uh..ik...im sad and hurting not dumb (i might be dumb too smh but like that much im sure ik😔)

idk how long tho...there is no timeline to it.. :( 

@Optimisticempath

It is not dumb to feel that way, Milky 🥛🧸🥺 it is vv human, & it is okie to take our time to process things 🥺💕

*sits & huggiess Milky tightttt 🥛🧸💕🥺🤗🌈🧸*

@VictoriaLove7 thank you 🌈🧸 *hugs back tightly 💕

@Optimisticempath *offers safe hugs* I'm sorry you're hurting and sad OptiBear 😞

@mytwistedsoul

Not Soul being so thoughtful as always 🥺 you actually took time to invalidate all those unsupportive and invalidating comments Soul???😭😭😭 im crying now...you are too kind to me 🥺... thank you for being you ❤ 

yes apparently some do😔 some of these v recently came from someone who said they like me and who i kinda started to like too.... they seem more logical to things...and then i end up feeling really stupid for even saying something 😔 it's v complicated on top of other things... but it's been hitting me really hard ... so you saying all this and reminding me really does mean a lot to me 🥺 vv grateful for you ❤❤

i don't have a lot of words rn but i really really appreciate this and you 🥺 bless you Soul ❤❤❤ hugs back tightly and doesn't let go 

@Optimisticempath *squeezies you tight* ❤️ I guess I did lol

@Optimisticempath

this is so true :( i hate it when people tell us there are some things that are or aren't in our control! thats the one that hit the most <3 I had a teacher who used to tell me that about things that were going on at home and its so frustrating :/ there are some phrases people use that are just so.... strangely discouraging and just not comforting at that moment. 

i hear you opti <3 

@amiableBunny4016

bunwee 💕 yes exactly ... its so discouraging and invalidating and not comforting at all... because everyone knows things happen and happened and there isn't anything they can do to change it but we don't need that reminder when we are struggling already 🥺 wish people could just be silent if they don't have good things to say 😔 

it makes me wonder tho if they'd like to hear that if they were going through similar situation? or if there's something wrong with me to find it unsupportive 😅 im stuck too many times...about what to say to support but i do try my best to not say anything that I wouldn't want to hear either ...🥺

wow this got long...i didn't mean to blabber 😅 just appreciate your support and kindness bunwee 💕 

hugs you and sends luvvv back to you 💕💕

happy birthday again buddy 💕

lol thanks for reading the title anyway xD im never sure what to put there so funny braincells helped a little 💀now that my awkward self has brought some humor here we can dig deeperrr xD 

umm idk where to begin tho...im kinda reallly not sure what is it that i want or am wanting to hear ...but some insight or opinions or experiences etc if relatable might be nice ... we can try at least 😅

im not sure if i wanna let this person in... they like me..even said they luv me...💀 like romantically.. but im so scared 💀

my emotions are all over the place...and most of the time im not even sure im real or anything around me is...so imagine 

incomplete 

.... dont know if i should share this in another thread or...idk...later maybe 

@Optimisticempath

Milky 🥛🧸🤗💕🌈🧸

me read, follow your heart but bring brain too 🤗💕

uh...i just...i feel 😔 ... im sorry ...for being me..🤡 ... and sorry to everyone for tolerating me or like trying to keep up with me.....ive never meant to cause hurt to anyone ... but if ive ever had...im really really sorry ...just a pile of stupidity here...😖...

sometimes being alone is really it ..that way no one gets annoyed or hurt.. 

just gonna go back to hidey...

@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ Can I say that we talk with you and try to support and encourage you because we like you and care about you? I've never felt that I had to tolerate you in any way - shape - or form. I'm sure the others that visit your thread feel the same way. You're our friend and we love you as you are 

*adds cushions and blankets to Opti's hidey space* ❤️

this was supposed to be white too but glad cups didn't like me either and decided to collapse the text anyway ... great!!🥰🥰🥰🥰

ok braincells jumping weirdly now smh .... does anyone know why some are collapsed and others aren't??👀 

@Optimisticempath

This might not be related, but 🥺 hope this will be something to help to distract from meanie thoughts

I recently learned that humans can grow braincells everyday 🧠 

*hugs till you feel better*🥺

spamming your own forum is ✨fun✨ 

as you should have ... thank you ...if not too much to ask from you... lock the door on your way out please :) 

cozy down here 😇

did pay with my mental health tho. . so its compensated  :)

@Optimisticempath

*Huggss Milky 🥛🧸💕 🌈🧸 tightttt 🥺*

i feel like crying ... a lot... you know one of those times you just know you've got so much in your heart.... it's heavy ...gets heavier and there seems no escape or relief .... idk tho i don't really have a very recent or current valid reason to cry... but it's just so heavy inside....

i feel like a horrible person 😔 either im not saying, doing anything... being life less and with 0 expression on face... or im snappy and irritated at literally everything and everyone .... specially when someone tries talking to me or asking me something .... there's a ton of loneliness im stuck in but at the same time .... i really am fine till anyone's around or tries talking .... just wanna be left alone to keep my silence... at least on the outside..... inner world is pure chaos...nd i dont even know what to think of it..... and then it hurts so much ... later...snapping at someone...being so moody and rude for no good reason or good reason known to them ... should just hide😔

@Optimisticempath

Milky 🥛🧸🥺💕 it is alright to cry, it might help to release our stress or any feelings that have overwhelmed us 🥺💗

chu is not a horrible person, because me sure there are circumstances or situations that make chu feel stressful & feel irritated at everything or everyone. Milky 🥛🧸💕 has been doing the best you could, everyday, even if chu might feel it is not enough 🥺💗

Know that me is vvvv glad that chu exist, Milky🥛🧸💕🌈🧸🥺

Rainbow bear 🌈 🧸 hopes that Milky 🥛🧸💕 try to be patient with chuself, just the way chu is being gentle to rainbow bear 🌈🧸🥺💗

*Huggsss Milky 🥛💕🧸🥺 tightttt*