A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
@Optimisticempath Milky bear 💙🥛🧸
@LoveMyMoonflowers flower buddy you are so awesome 🥺 hugs you v tight 🤗🤗
@Optimisticempath
*hugggs youuu* <3
I hope you're feeling a bit better this evening
@slowdecline48 aw thanks for replying here 💕 im ok mostly i guess...
how are you doing today?
Eh...could be worse, could be better. Life is a mixed bag, is it not?
im sorry for all the sad things i post here 😅 me just wants to take a moment to appreciate you all for being here and putting up with me .... me appreciates you so so very much and vv grateful for your presence in me life 💕💕💕 sends lots of luvvsssss and huggieees🤗🤗🤗
ill only ever be grateful to support you or do something for you too...like even if it's just sitting with you..ik it gets lonely and sad sometimes and you no need to go through it alone either 🥺 me no do much but me cares vv much and here for you too 💕💕💕💕
be kind to you too ok... tryyyy😤 hehe sorry sometimes brain needs that extra kick to be a lil decent ...😅 ...so yes try to be kind to you 💕💕
@Optimisticempath
awwe milky bear 🥺 your so so sweet as owlways. there’s absolutely no need to be sorry 💕 it’s okie to post sad things sometimes 🥲 your allowed to feel what you feel buddy 💜
thank you for taking the time to post this lovely appreciation 🥺 sending much love your way 💜
You know what? You're a sweetheart. ❤️🥰
Don't be sorry for sharing your thoughts and feelings. They matter. You matter to us. 💕🤍
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Luvsssss and huggieeees back to youuuuu!!! Hehe 💕💕
@Yougotmyback 🥺🥺 *keeps hugging youu 💕💕💕💕💕
Awww moreeee hugsssss for the sweeetestttt🥹🫶🏻💕
Hello, howdy, hi, what'cha up to, Empath? I was just thinking about you today and wanted to stop by for a visit.
@GoldenNest2727
goldennn your so kind to think of me 🥺 thanks vvv much, it means a lot to me 💕 and for the very needed reminder too 😭
idk how i have been or i am doing tbh, its just so blurry and weird...i wanna say im ok but my ok would mean im not aware of reality or that im just not allowing me to feel anything ... vv detached and isolated lately 😅 so most days I'm ok because im not thinking or feeling lol.. idk what's worse tho... not ok or not feeling anything at all...mhmmm 😮
sorry for the ramble...😅
im ok mostly.. existing 💕
how have you been? how you holding up since Trouble (let's call him Bubble🥺)
Sending big hugs 🤗 hope you being kind to yourself dear friend!!
ever felt so weird about everything you just don't know anymore?
how are you? idk
what you been upto? idk
ate? idk
slept? idk
who are you? idk
idk really what am i even doing 🤡 life's a whole lot blur lately and i just dont know anything any more...
@Optimisticempath
awwe i get that completely milky bear. 🥺 you definitely not alone in that buddy 💜 questions like how are you and who are you and what have you been up to can defo be confusing (': i hear that. 💙 me understand that feeling 💜
@Optimisticempath hmmm... Idk JK
too much that it's all the time. At this point I'm not even an active participant in my own life anymore
*Squeezies OptiBear* ❤️😊
Totally understandable. I actually don't like the question 'how are you' haha. Never having a response. xD
Probably we should start asking - Choose the correct option ❤️😂 (list of emotions)
Now my brain is trying to convert other questions in the same way! Seems like my creativity is hidden. (As it should be) 😂
I understand the feeling of not knowing anything anymore and I can relate to it. But hey, who knows life anyways? So unpredictable, isn't it? xD
None of my plans ever worked but maybe sometimes we should just keep floating. ❤️🐾
(And hug people! *Hugs*) 🤍🌸
@Optimisticempath
🥛🧸, me can relate to that, a lot of times the answer is 'i don't know'. But 🌈🧸 hopes that you keep going. First things first, eat well & sleep well,🥛🧸. Me thinks you are a great person! 🥛🧸🤗
@Optimisticempath
No, never. I always know. I don't understand not knowing. It's you. Surely you know yourself. Do you really not know, or do you just feel uncomfortable with sharing? Maybe you've been told that your answers were wrong in the past, so you avoid giving an answer at all, even to yourself. Huh, that's something to chew on. I've never thought about it before. I've always known.
@Optimisticempath
Merry Christmas, Milky 🧸🤗
Merry Christmas to you, Empath! I hope you have a wonderful day.
Happy holidays opti! 😀 🤍 Hope you're doing alright as much as possible. Ik it's not easy, and it's hard time of year generaly, and im here to say we miss you around 🥺 and hope to talk again. Stay safe 💜
doing absolutely not ok... can someone please hug....
@Optimisticempath hugs you very very tight ❤️ What's wrong OptiBear?
@mytwistedsoul idk soul..i cannot stop crying.. eveurthi g just came off..ive not been ok in a long time...im not ok..idk how to be ok.. panickyy.. sorry
@Optimisticempath No sorries ok? I know you've been struggling 😞 How about some grounding? Would that help maybe? Maybe we can do it together?
What 5 things can you see?
I have a candle - the Xmas tree - the fireplace - the desk and a fan ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
yes together please..🥺
me in the bathroom... floor... bucket.. mug, face wash.. mirror
@Optimisticempath ❤️ ok ❤️ we got this *hugs*
What four things can you touch?
For me - the table - my phone - the chair - and my jeans
@mytwistedsoul mhmm 🥺 *hugging❤
floor touch.. bucket touch..phone touch ... hair touch
@Optimisticempath You're doing great ❤️
What 3 things can you hear?
I can hear the TV - the fan and the pellets falling into the stove
@mytwistedsoul
i am? thanks for being here Soul ❤ feeling lil less shaky now .. idk how to describe tbh but its slowing down .. thank you ❤
came out ... in bed rn ... hear.. me hear v faint taps on phone screen, the fan ... some honking from afar.. even tho it's so late night ..mostly the fan
@Optimisticempath You are ❤️ you're able to reply back and things are calming alittle bit for you ❤️ I'm glad I could be here For you
What two things can you smell?
I smell - tea and faint wood smoke
@mytwistedsoul
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smell .. nothing 😅 maybe because of cold or crying rn .. nose seems blocked..
@Optimisticempath aww that's ok *hugs* ❤️ We can still do something for taste - do you have something handy? Maybe a peppermint or a nice piece of chocolate? Even toothpaste can help in a pinch ❤️
I can taste - tea
@Optimisticempath I wish they would have never did the reply button the way they did. It's so frustrating
@mytwistedsoul
only water... Soul 😅 ... this is gonna sound so embarrassing but when me was crying ... a tear dropped in me mouth because me trying to breathe through mouth stoopid nose is blocked smh ...saltyyyyy tear taste 😬.. and a bit too eww to think of it ...💀 but me drinking water now...❤ it's a little sweet ... neutral sweet water taste ..
enjoy your tea Soul ❤ im such a trouble....😔 im feeling a little better... crying slow down.. trying to breathe better and also not shaky like before...so sorry for worrying you 🥺 i just didn't know what to do... but don't worry now.... *hugs tightly* ❤
@Optimisticempath Just alittle ewww but it's happened to all of us at some point I think ❤️ um - better than a bubble booger lol 😝
@mytwistedsoul
reply button got tired of me too I think😅
bubble booger :0 😬😭😂 yes anything better than that lmaoo😭
ah idk what to say Soul... you're just the most brightest light in my life always ... thank you for shining your light when it gets so dark in my world.... im used to it but times when dark gets darker.. even a little light is enough and really means the world to me 🥺 you bring lots of it and me doesn't know how to thank you for it... just so grateful for you always ❤
you are vv special you'll remember that mhm? me will remind you often 🥺 so soul's brain slowly starts agreeing more with me 😄 and creating less trouble for Soul 🤗
you doing a lot already ... you being here is vv enough to keep hurts away from hurting too much ... 😅 * big squeeeszieeeee 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 and lots of luvvv back ❤❤ ....
me getting a headache now 😅... who said crying is helpful?????! smh 💀 trying to lay down and wrap in blankiee... if im not responsive soon, im maybe sleepy... so don't let it worry you too much Soul ❤ you've been here with me when I needed it most, you've done more than enough 🥺 ... please get some rest you too ok? me luvs you lots and really grateful for you always ❤ thankchu for being here and being you
you want to join blankiee fort safe for us? and comfy comfy also 🥺
@Optimisticempath I missed this reply button 😕 my other reply is above this *grumbles about buttons*
@Optimisticempath
😟*huggss Milky 🧸* & *sits with you*🥛🧸
How's you feeling now, 🥛🧸? Have you been able to get some sleep, milky? 🌈🧸
@VictoriaLove7 thank you rainbow bear 🥺🌈🧸 i cannot tell if im really ok or back to the not feeling anything situation but now feels more stable and better than how me felt then ... so I guess better 😅
yes got rest, me got a headache then from all the crying and panicking ... and ended up falling asleep .. thankfully.
how've you been Victory?🌈 sends huggieeeee back 🤗
@Optimisticempath
Milky 🥛🧸 😟, 🌈🧸 me first response was late because me wasn't on when you first wrote it. Rainbow bear is glad you feel better, crying usually will relieve stress. Try not to worry, Milky 🥛🧸
(me also had headache last night. But it was nothing compared to something that made me terribly anxious).
Have you nom nom, Milky? 🥛🧸
@Optimisticempath
*big huggle wuggles for milky bear* <3 me so sorry for seeing this late. 💙 how are you feeling now buddy? 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
huggle wuggles made me smile 😄 *huggle wuggles back Flower buddy* you no need to say sorry 💕 thankiees for caring 🥺 im doing better today ... getting back to the blur... but better me thinks😅
how's you?🥺 *morehuggle wuggles🤗
@Optimisticempath
*squeezes for milky bear* 💜 glad your doing better opti buddy. it’s okay not to be okay, too (': we are here with you. 💙 sending loads of love.
me doing fine (': thank you for caring sweet milky bear 💕
Squeezies* hehe
@Optimisticempath
hugs hugs 🥺 till you feel better
hello @RachelListener 💕 thank you very much for the hugs 🥺 till I feel better tho? don't hold your breath lmao... could take forever 🤣 😭
hugs hugs back 🤗🤗
@Optimisticempath
🤗💕*hugs hugs forever till you feel better*🤗
@RachelListener 🥺 thank youu hugs hugs back till forever 🤗
@Optimisticempath
🤗*keeps hugging tightt*🥺💕🤗
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ Hoping today is a better day
@mytwistedsoul
Better than whatever that was yes Soul 🥺 thankyou for being here ❤ *huggieeeeee tighttt
@Optimisticempath I'm glad it's better than it was ❤️ One day at a time ok?
@mytwistedsoul yes Soul 🥺 one day at a time ❤
@Optimisticempath
Hey you ❤️ How are you OptiBear?
@mytwistedsoul it's so hard to say Soul 😔 idk how I am or how I've been tbh .. im really just existing ... every day just feels like a chore.. wake up.. stuff happens... night time... ive lost sense of time and anything at all happening around ... it's like most times im not present in the present .. idk if that makes any sense ..🥴 just idk lol ... been so weird.... ive been struggling with eh.. um.. not nice thoughts... Soul.....scary thought 😔 they keep coming and going ... im safe but idk where do they randomly pop from and why .. it doesn't feel nice 🥺 so me trying not to feel or think ... it gets easier that way I guess ... being detached from reality ..💀 for whatever little time it lasts tho.. its peaceful ...
lots of ramble from me :/ but me missed talking to youu and hearing from you 🥺hows you and how do things look like in Soul's world lately? *bigg squeeziee hugss🤗🤗 ❤❤
@Optimisticempath It makes alot of sense. Time passes and we have no idea when it went. We're tired but don't feel like we've done anything to make us this tired. Just existing is exhausting. Survival is exhausting
