A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)

@Optimisticempath

Merry Christmas, Milky 🧸🤗

Merry Christmas to you, Empath!  I hope you have a wonderful day. 

Happy holidays opti! 😀 🤍 Hope you're doing alright as much as possible. Ik it's not easy, and it's hard time of year generaly, and im here to say we miss you around 🥺 and hope to talk again. Stay safe 💜

@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ You popped into my thoughts the past couple days ❤️ * sending hugs and lots of love ❤️😊❤️

@mytwistedsoul 🥺🥺🥺🥺 hugs you tightttttighttt and no let go...

doing absolutely not ok... can someone please hug....

@Optimisticempath hugs you very very tight ❤️ What's wrong OptiBear? 

@mytwistedsoul idk soul..i cannot stop crying.. eveurthi g just came off..ive not been ok in a long time...im not ok..idk how to be ok.. panickyy.. sorry

@Optimisticempath No sorries ok? I know you've been struggling 😞 How about some grounding? Would that help maybe? Maybe we can do it together? 

What 5 things can you see? 

I have a candle - the Xmas tree - the fireplace - the desk and a fan ❤️

@mytwistedsoul

yes together please..🥺 

me in the bathroom... floor... bucket.. mug, face wash.. mirror

@Optimisticempath ❤️ ok ❤️ we got this *hugs*

What four things can you touch?

For me - the table - my phone - the chair - and my jeans

@mytwistedsoul mhmm 🥺 *hugging❤

floor touch.. bucket touch..phone touch ... hair touch 

@Optimisticempath You're doing great ❤️

What 3 things can you hear? 

I can hear the TV - the fan and the pellets falling into the stove

@mytwistedsoul

i am? thanks for being here Soul ❤ feeling lil less shaky now .. idk how to describe tbh but its slowing down .. thank you ❤  

came out ... in bed rn ... hear.. me hear v faint taps on phone screen, the fan ... some honking from afar.. even tho it's so late night ..mostly the fan 

@Optimisticempath You are ❤️ you're able to reply back and things are calming alittle bit for you ❤️ I'm glad I could be here For you

What two things can you smell? 

I smell - tea and faint wood smoke

@mytwistedsoul

❤❤❤❤

smell .. nothing 😅 maybe because of cold or crying rn .. nose seems blocked..

@Optimisticempath aww that's ok *hugs* ❤️ We can still do something for taste - do you have something handy? Maybe a peppermint or a nice piece of chocolate? Even toothpaste can help in a pinch ❤️

I can taste - tea

@Optimisticempath I wish they would have never did the reply button the way they did. It's so frustrating 

@mytwistedsoul

only water... Soul 😅 ... this is gonna sound so embarrassing but when me was crying ... a tear dropped in me mouth because me trying to breathe through mouth stoopid nose is blocked smh ...saltyyyyy tear  taste 😬.. and a bit too eww to think of it ...💀 but me drinking water now...❤ it's a little sweet ... neutral sweet water taste ..

enjoy your tea Soul ❤ im such a trouble....😔 im feeling a little better... crying slow down.. trying to  breathe better and also not shaky like before...so sorry for worrying you 🥺 i just didn't know what to do... but don't worry now.... *hugs tightly* ❤

@Optimisticempath Just alittle ewww but it's happened to all of us at some point I think ❤️ um - better than a bubble booger lol 😝

@mytwistedsoul 

reply button got tired of me too I think😅 

bubble booger :0 😬😭😂 yes anything better than that lmaoo😭

ah idk what to say Soul... you're just the most brightest light in my life always ... thank you for shining your light when it gets so dark in my world.... im used to it but times when dark gets darker.. even a little light is enough and really means the world to me 🥺 you bring lots of it and me doesn't know how to thank you for it... just so grateful for you always ❤

you are vv special you'll remember that mhm? me will remind you often 🥺 so soul's brain slowly starts agreeing more with me 😄 and creating less trouble for Soul 🤗

you doing a lot already ... you being here is vv enough to keep hurts away from hurting too much ... 😅 * big squeeeszieeeee 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 and lots of luvvv back ❤❤ ....

me getting a headache now 😅... who said crying is helpful?????! smh 💀 trying to lay down and wrap in blankiee... if im not responsive soon, im maybe sleepy... so don't let it worry you too much Soul ❤ you've been here with me when I needed it most, you've done more than enough 🥺  ... please get some rest you too ok? me luvs you lots and really grateful for you always ❤  thankchu for being here and being you 

you want to join blankiee fort safe for us?  and comfy comfy also 🥺 

@Optimisticempath I missed this reply button 😕 my other reply is above this *grumbles about buttons* 

@Optimisticempath

Deep breaths Opti. You can do this. *Hugs if okay* 

@amiableBunny4016 hugs .. yes breathe.. me trying ..

@Optimisticempath

😟*huggss Milky 🧸*  & *sits with you*🥛🧸

How's you feeling now, 🥛🧸? Have you been able to get some sleep, milky? 🌈🧸

@VictoriaLove7 thank you rainbow bear 🥺🌈🧸 i cannot tell if im really ok or back to the not feeling anything situation but now feels more stable and better than how me felt then ... so I guess better 😅 

yes got rest, me got a headache then from all the crying and panicking ... and ended up falling asleep .. thankfully. 

how've you been Victory?🌈 sends huggieeeee back 🤗

@Optimisticempath

Milky 🥛🧸 😟, 🌈🧸 me first response was late because me wasn't on when you first wrote it. Rainbow bear is glad you feel better, crying usually will relieve stress. Try not to worry, Milky 🥛🧸

(me also had headache last night. But it was nothing compared to something that made me terribly anxious). 

Have you nom nom, Milky? 🥛🧸

@Optimisticempath

*big huggle wuggles for milky bear* <3 me so sorry for seeing this late. 💙 how are you feeling now buddy? 🥺

@LoveMyMoonflowers

huggle wuggles made me smile 😄 *huggle wuggles back Flower buddy* you no need to say sorry 💕 thankiees for caring 🥺 im doing better today ... getting back to the blur... but better me thinks😅 

how's you?🥺 *morehuggle wuggles🤗

@Optimisticempath

*squeezes for milky bear* 💜 glad your doing better opti buddy. it’s okay not to be okay, too (': we are here with you. 💙 sending loads of love. 

me doing fine (': thank you for caring sweet milky bear 💕 

Squeezies* hehe 

@Optimisticempath

Wolf paw hugs all the way opti 🤗🐺

@ArtemisStormWolf wolf paw hugs back Artee 💜 thanks so much 🥺

@Optimisticempath

hugs hugs 🥺 till you feel better 

hello @RachelListener 💕 thank you very much for the hugs 🥺 till I feel better tho? don't hold your breath lmao... could take forever 🤣 😭

hugs hugs back 🤗🤗

@Optimisticempath

🤗💕*hugs hugs forever till you feel better*🤗

@RachelListener 🥺 thank youu hugs hugs back till forever 🤗

@Optimisticempath

🤗*keeps hugging tightt*🥺💕🤗

@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ Hoping today is a better day 

@mytwistedsoul

Better than whatever that was yes Soul 🥺 thankyou for being here ❤ *huggieeeeee tighttt