A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
@Optimisticempath
🤗*Hugs if okie*
@amiableBunny4016 thankchu Bunwee🥺 huggie back 🤗 how's you? me thinking of you <3
@Optimisticempath
Me thinking of you too 💜 I'm getting there. Thanks for asking. I hope your doing well and even if things are going wrong I'm so proud of you for being here 💙🤗
@amiableBunny4016
🥺🥺 you bestt
bunn bunn me often worry about you because you always so kind to everyone but yourself and i hope you can try to be gentle with yourself also 🥺 keep trying your best ok? Me proud of you too. you're not alone 💕 sends luvvvvv
@Optimisticempath
Naa . Stop worrying mate. 💙 I'm fine. I just put others before myself . But heyyy, I'll be okay! 💜 *Sending hugs if okay* 🥺 you look after yourself okie? I'm right here.
@Optimisticempath
Okay maybe I'm being a bit harsh 🤪 sorry . Bunny just jumped over too much. Me understand why you worry, it's because your the kind caring and sweet Opti I and everyone else knows 💜 it's because you care and you understand 💕 it's because your being your best self and you shine! 💙🤗 okie? I know how worries stuck to our mind but I'm here for you and your here for me. We are here for each other. *Hugs* no need to be sowwy 💙 ily 🤗😔
@amiableBunny4016 no you no harsh 😮 you don't want me to worry for the same reasons 😭 because you are so kind, caring, loving and understanding and want best for people and because you're you and you are the best bunweee smh 🥺 me loves chu too💕 we here together hehe and we trying 💜 always proud of you too 🤗 hugs you tight
@Optimisticempath
Hehe. 🤗💙 You the bestest. *hugs if okay*
@amiableBunny4016
Sweet 🍪🧁 for sweet Bunwee 🥰🤗
@Optimisticempath
Hehehe. Bunny is just getting bored at 10pm 🤪 *lurks* 💙🤗
Sweet for sweet 🎂🍫🍧🍩🍪
ewww vulnerability ewww people eww trusting people ewww letting people ewww people get close and hurt and abandon and leave and be happy and move on and ewww life ....so frieckn tired of everything.... no such thing as peace huh???? 😭
if someone cares?? gift me the power to poof..... for this christmas please ... I'd be grateful! 😔
@Optimisticempath
ohhh lovely Opti! im not sure if you want to be alone right now. but you can poof this message if you want to by removing it . its your safe space buddy.
sounds like today is one of those dark days hey? 💜 i understand you want peace and you want all the hurt to go away 💜 i hear you about abandonment and people, its difficult to open up and talk to people and at some point we all get tired of getting hurt, we all get tired of life and it *** hurts 💜 *sits with you if okie* oh my.. 💜 well christmas wouldnt be the same without you on here lovely Opti. 💜 i know its hard to believe. I understand what you mean with absence and disappearing Opti 💜 we all hear you and see you. Continuing in life is so so hard and its so difficult to get through so much at one point. We want to cry and scream and want all of it to end 💜 and thats totally valid. your feelings matter right now. 💜 your allowed to feel that way. Meanwhile, i am going to sit beside you for a while if thats okay? alright? 💜 no pressure at all.
Bunny
You know what? ❤️
It's not your fault to trust people. It's their fault to break that trust of yours. I used to recite myself this line every now and then and hoping that it helps you in some way-
"Men may come and men may go but I go on forever."
If you love people then it's your superpower. Because you're one of those rarest people who treat others kindly. ❤️
I know it can be a struggle when people treat you in such a way. I can totally relate because I have had the exact feelings once. But now, I think there's some kind of disconnection between myself and them. Now I feel their actions are none of my concern. But my own are.
So, if they treat you wrong then try and not treat yourself the same way. It would be very very hard at first. I won't say I don't struggle at all some days but it's very important. 🌻🌸
We can control how other people treat us but we can try and think about what we should allow and how we should take care of ourselves.
We're all here for you 💕✨
can't control*
so annoying you canf even rant without thinking of consequences....whatever that means .... by poof I don't mean like legit poof or crisis 😭 im fine ... absense of the will to continue going because life is effed up and you are tired of trying doesn't mean the presence of ... yeah .. that! im safe! these are not crisis thoughts... I just need peace and disappearance from everything and everyone ...😔😔
Sending you a big hug❤️
Life can definitely be hard sometimes but it's totally okay to feel. Remember that these are thoughts. ❤️
And it's totally understandable how we feel like we're in a bubble and that is our world and everything seems scary out of it when we can't relate to a lot of people or they can't relate to us. Take as much time as you want because no one knows you better than yourself ✨🌻
Protect yourself till you gather enough energy to come out again. And we all believe in you💕
wow so crazy here xD slowly winters approaching and many people talking about the seasonal gloom and depression and and you know?? For crazy me ... the only positive thought I can come up with is that I dint need to worry about that I'm not gonna be seasonally depressed 😮 because it lasts the entire year for me... so it's like not even concerning right? the same every frcking dayyyy💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻
@Optimisticempath
awww 💛 *sends hugs to opti if okie* .
@Optimisticempath
@Optimisticempath
thinking of you Opti *hugs if okie* 💜
@amiableBunny4016
Bunwee 💕 me always happy to see chu 🤗 thinking of you too, how've you been? it's weekend here...how's you spending weekend?
@Optimisticempath
hi. nothing much. just sitting in my thoughts staring at the window. hope your having a good weekend. 💜
I could use a virtual hug, Empath. My beloved cat, Trouble, passed away yesterday. I always hated his name. He was the neighbor's cat, originally, but he insisted on moving in with me instead. He already knew his name, so I didn't want to change it. I used to say, "even though his name is Trouble, he is no trouble at all," and he really wasn't. He was such a good cat. Trouble was a gray and black tabby cat. I used to say, "he wore his very best tiger stripes just for you." I only had him for about a year. The neighbors didn't have him neutered or vaccinated, so he wound up with FIV and FeLV before I got him. In the end, it was the FeLV that did him in. The vet managed to turn things around for him many times, so I was hopeful. Still, Trouble seemed to be telling me that he was trying but that it was time. The vet checked him over good and said Trouble's heart was still strong. I wasn't surprised by that at all. Of course his heart was still strong, he always had a big, strong heart full of love for life, creatures, and people.
He was there for me when I lost Sable Cat and my mom. He's the only cat left who'd rush to me when I'd cry. He offer me comfort and love. My other two cats run when I cry as though they're scared. That's okay, we all have different needs and personalities, but it sure made me appreciate Trouble's steadfast love and support. I don't have a kind, loving family, so it really made a big difference to me. They've been awful over his passing, because that's just who they are. It hasn't helped.
I guess it just seems so unfair. The neighbors weren't good to him. He had to stay outdoors. I remember when he first came inside here, he slept and slept where he finally felt safe and could truly relax. He finally had enough food to fill his belly. And he was so grateful for it, too. He appreciated his food. Trouble had to adapt to being neutered. Then he had to give up the great outdoors totally. He couldn't even go on walks or out to the catio, out of fear that he could sick or could spread the disease. It was vet's orders, since Trouble had no immune system. Then, he had to have several teeth taken out. Naturally, the neglectful neighbors hadn't bothered to care for his teeth, so some were rotten. Poor Trouble even lost his fangs! Yet, time and time again, he handled these changes with good grace. He never complained! He always seemed so appreciative of the least little thing bestowed to him. He loved life. He loved being my cat. He was so, so, so happy. Simply elated - every single day. Trouble had such a strong spirit. He adapted and he thrived. Until he simply couldn't anymore.
Anyway, I guess I'm telling you because I know you'll understand.
@GoldenNest2727
You know what? I've read this whole diary from the beginning, and it has really helped change my perspective. There's lots of care and compassion shown within this thread and that is amazing to see. We have a fantastic community of supportive people at 7 Cups.
My gratitude list:
*So, I've lost my beloved cat, but boy was I fortunate to have him for as long as I did.! How lucky was I that he picked me!
*I was so blessed to be able to afford his medical care. Two years ago, I wouldn't have been able to do that! Not only that, but I could also get his special food and special cat litter. Plus, I could order his favorite toys and scratchers. How amazing that he popped into my life, just when things turned around for me financially. What a blessing!
*Because Trubs had good vet care and a safe home, I know he didn't suffer. He had a good life.
*I know in my heart that he was happy and felt loved. So did I. What more could be needed.
*I may not have a supportive family, but I have good friends, I have a steadfast, long-term listener; and, I have you guys to lean on. I am so lucky! 💗
@GoldenNest2727 Nest I'm so sorry to hear about your feline friend 😞 Losing a furry family member is so hard. They have such unique personalities and bring so much to our lives and leave gaping holes in them when they pass. I bet he loved the treats and toys you gave him. You gave him a much needed home and gave him love and he loved you back. ❤️ He sounds like he was a pretty cool cat *sending you strength and offering hugs* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Thank you for thinking of us, mytwistedsoul! It means a lot! 💜
@GoldenNest2727 ❤️❤️
@GoldenNest2727
Golden me is so sorry for coming to this so late 🥺 the fact you wanted to share with me and knew I'd care and I'd understand and want to do whatever it takes to support you means a lot to me. You've been a great friend to me and It is always a grateful feeling to be able to show you some kindness and support you too. You deserve it as well. i wish i could go back in time to sit with you when you needed most :( im really sorry about that and it is so heart breaking to hear about your cat :( wh y would your neighbour's name him trouble tho..maybe in light fun 😅either way, he sounds like just the bestest cat ever, who had faced so much difficulties yet kept his fighting spirit and love for life alive even till his last moments .... something to take inspiration from 🥰
Golden I'm so so sorry for your loss... having loved someone so much and with furry beans it's always unconditional love 🥺so its extra special ....I haven't been fortunate enough to experience of this love ... but from what I've heard and seen from others.. it's always such a special feeling 💕 im so glad you both had each other to comfort and love and look after... the many amazing memories you created and the pawprints trubs left on your heart... nothing can take it away 💕 take your time to grieve 🥺 you deserve all the time for it and for honoring your sweet kitty ... *hugs you 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 many hugs for you
It is so inspiring you counted so many blessings here .... like even in this low moment you remembered to take time to express and feel grateful ... that's something admirable Golden. Im v proud of youu 🥺🥺
@Optimisticempath
But you are sitting with me now, Empath. That's what counts. And your entire thread truly lifted me up when I needed it most. Your care for others really shines through. You are so genuine and earnest. Thank you for caring about me, Empath. It means more than you could ever know. 💕
It sounds like you're dealing with big emotions yourself at the moment. Can I do anything to help? You can lean on me, too.
@Optimisticempath
They named him Trouble because they claimed he fought a lot and was mean. He always seemed docile to me. The only thing that I can figure is that he was a tom cat fighting for mating rites. He was also underfed, which probably played a part in it as well. It's amazing that he never ever fought with my other cats. He never scratched or bit me. He was the sweetest cat from day one, even before I had him neutered (he remained the neighbor's cat at first, and they thought neutering was unnatural. They were ignorant). His name was Trouble, but he was no trouble at all. He noped out of their lives pretty quickly and demanded to move in here. He acted like he didn't know them. They finally gave up after about 6 months or so. I had him vaccinated and fixed after that. He already had FIV and FeLV, unfortunately.
@Optimisticempath You've been in my thoughts lately OptiBear ❤️ I hope you're doing ok
@mytwistedsoul Soul bear you the bestest best ❤ thankchu for being here to support goldennest 🥺 it means a lot to me Soul, you never miss any chance to show kindness to everyone ❤ *hugs you tight 🤗🤗🤗🤗
im alive ..breathing..here😅 thinking of you always 💕
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ I was hoping you didn't mind me doing that for Nest. I'm sorry if I overstepped
@mytwistedsoul no no Soul 😮 you is never overstepping and no need to apologize too ❤ it was vvv you-like to comfort our friend and be supportive as always when they needed, im really really glad you were here and said what you did 🤗 you are just the bestest Soul in the universe ❤
how's you holding up w everything Soul? me wants you to remember to be gentle with yourself even if it tuff sometimes 🥺 you deserve gentleness always okiii💕💕
@Optimisticempath When ever things are a mess I read your posts and replies to me. Idk maybe that makes me pathetic but your words mean alot to me and your gentle reminders help ❤️ You're such a sweet and wonderful friend OptiBear. I can't even begin to to tell you how much you mean to me 🥹 but I am so grateful for you and your friendship
Holding up? Scotch tape - bubble gum and I think there's a paper clip in there somewhere. Thank you for asking ❤️
How are you? *weaves some new charms to keep the bad thoughts at bay* ❤️❤️ Lots and lots of love to you OptiBear
How are you, Empath?
