A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
@Optimisticempath
*sending a little glitter of appreciation to you to let you know I notice you and i care for you*💛
Love,
@amiableBunny4016 bunwee making me cry 🥺🥺🥺 this is vvv thoughtful of you bunwee thank you so much it means so much to me 😭🥺 saving the beary cute picture 💕 *hugs back tight and sends so much luvvv to you 🤗 me often thinking of you too and always wishing you better days 🥺 you are the best bunwee💕💕 here for you if you wanna talk or just sit or something 😅
just another sleep less night being spent on thoughts and tears .... at this point idk if i even care 💀
wonderong tho... randomly ... why is it so difficult with emotions 🤡 idk who taught me to hold back my emotions ... lately even worse .... there's no sense of it .... idk how did learn that its not nice to cry ... or who taught me to not cry ... or that it's always suposed to be under the blanket... or behind the doors or during showers .... and to instantly swallow the biggest lumps in my throat when my heart hurts ... idk who made me think it's not ok to cry ... not ok to cry in front of someone ... not ok to feel .. idk if it's a who or a what ... cant remember ... thinking its things people normally learn as children and idk if I missed any classes or attended the wrong ones lmao 🤡 because clearly... missed so much and it shows.. ... dont want to remember tbh but just wow ... how we learn things and allow it to become a part of us ... become us ... slowly 💀
it's just not fun tho ...remembering in parts but not fully ... trying to make sense of things but failing ... a wholw lot of blur and idk what to do 😖
it's difficult also talking to someone ...ifeel im scared of what might come out if i do? even i dont know what might and that's the scariest part .... there's so much inside..most of it buried so deep it doesn't come up often but there's flashes and traces and little sneak peak reminders of it being there still ... and it feels like being drowned all over again ... a constant fight between gasping for air.... remembering to gasp for air and staying afloat ... we try tho ..
mhmmm head hurts already... yay or whatever!
i can't typeee....💀 sorry for the errors and stuff ...
@Optimisticempath
Is okie ❤️ this is your space. We here for you
wtf happened here?????! what's up with all the posts 😳
this place is becoming more stressful every passing day fr😖
we cry cry till we ... you know?? what rhymes here 🤖
@Optimisticempath
*Sending Opti hugs if okay* ❤️
@amiableBunny4016 Bunwee hugs always okayyy🥺 hugs bunwee tightt🤗 hows you bunwee? me thinking of chu ❤
@Optimisticempath
I'm fine :') how are you? ❤️ thinking of Chu too *hugs is always okay*
@amiableBunny4016
feels silly to say it aloud but who even cares right 😅 but me thinks im usually lying when i say im fine because it feels easier and safer than explaining the not fine stuff so sometimes i wonder if others also really fine fine when they say they fine... but i so hope you're actually fine bunwee but you also deserve being more than fine you deserve feeling awesome because you are awesome 💕
if you no really fine fine sometimes you still welcome and accepted and luvved here oki?🤗
idk what i just rambled here lol...im sorry your just too amazing and you deserve to know that you matter and you are luvved🥺💕💕
how am i? idk tbh i just am 😅 ok i think tho D: we went out today and i had some ice cream even tho it was a bit chilly outside but it was nice haha ☺ how was day for you? if you wanna share <3 hugs always okay yes yes 🤗
@Optimisticempath
I hear ya. Its easy to say we are fine. Its easy to pretend to be okay and it's okay to not have okay days and feel low ❤️ sometimes we all need a little cry or to be sad for a while and that's totally understandable. Things go up and down in life just like the waves in the sea... The way the waves overlap with the shore. We like to bury our thoughts in the sand ❤️
But anyways, like my teacher said, when your sitting in the dark look for those little sparkles of brightness. I know its not there right now, but it will show up one day ❤️
Aww im glad you got some ice cream! Sounds like a little fun hey? ❤️ I'm proud of you Opti and I really wish I could hug you right now. Things been up and down but you have always been there for me and I appreciate you and love *you* for you.
Me is okie.
*Sending hugs and good vibes* 🤗
P.s. I have missed you lots recently ❤️
@amiableBunny4016 the reply button poof again 🥺
bunwee makes me cry being so kind and caring towards me and and vv luvving also and me can't tell how much me grateful for bunwee🥺
I've missed you too and I think I lost our thread :( ill find it but if you do can you tag me in it? me enjoys talking to you always and here for you 💕💕💕
yes ice cream time is fun time 🥰 bunwee likes ice cream? :0 me hopes bunwee has fun soonsiee also 🥺
your teacher's message is so beautiful 🥺 me luvsss it and it should be a quote 💕 thank you for sharing 🤗 huggles you❤
my depressed self being dragged over to the deeper, darker end by my friend depression 🙂👍🏼
do we at least have some tasty treats on the other side?? 😔
@Optimisticempath
Milky bear 🥛🧸 how are you feeling now? 😟
@VictoriaLove7
me feels same always victory 🥲 it just ranges from feeling really terrible to a little terrible to feeling numb lmao ... idk which one out of this is better D:
im ok, existing but how are you?? how was your weekend? 💕
@Optimisticempath
Milky bear 🥛🧸 what makes you feel terrible? 😟 If you'd like to talk about it? Sending hugs to milky 🥛🧸🤗🌈🧸
I read that banana can increase serotonin, also getting sunlight can boost serotonin level. 🤗
My weekend was okie, usual activities ☺ How's your weekend, Milky? 🥛🧸
(I was gonna say the woof woof gif is cute)☺
@VictoriaLove7
everything tbh 😔 idk what to say, i feel like a waste of space ... more depressed than usual or the same i dont know anymore ... surviving and taking one day at once i guess 🤗hugs back 🌈🧸
my weekend was ok also 😅
you always look up remedies and helpful things 🥺😂 thank you Victory 💕
woof woof doggo? yes me thinks its v cute also 🐶 victory likes doggies? do you have or had any pets?😮
@Optimisticempath
Milky 🥛🧸 you are a great person ( 🧸) and never a waste of space. 🥛🧸
Is it possible to get counseling irl or something like that? 😧 We can also talk about it too here 🤗
Yess, woof woof doggo 🐶 Me likes woof woof but I don't have pets. (when I was little I had guinea pigs ☺
Because I remember you once said about natural way to increase serotonin level, so I searched for the remedy ☺
@VictoriaLove7
victory 🌈🧸 how are you?
counseling or something um..idk victory.. it's no option 😔 im ok dont worry
You had guinea pigs??🥺 they so cute, me wants too 😄 but maybe too much responsibility of another living bean...im barelyy keeping me alive lmao 🤣 ... do not wanna disappoint another being mhm..
What were their names?😮 I think guinea pigs make for good pets 🥰
how is you doing? sends hugs
@Optimisticempath
Hi opti bear… me has been thinking of you 💜 how has opti bear been doing? 💜
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ I came across This the other day. You popped into my mind and idk maybe it's totally stupid but I think it's something we should have heard growing up. Idk - no pressure to listen to it or anything
*Leaves buckets of hugs* in case you need some ❤️ Much love to you OptiBear ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
I... i don't know what to say Soul 🥺🥺 it made me cry ... this was such a beautiful audio and your right something that everyone deserves to hear ... you heard it too right? please listen to it again 🥺 you deserve the kindness too 💕
*hides in hugs bucket* me no coming out 🥺 tis my favorite hidey place now but you welcome to join also to hide with me and huggiee 🥺 🤗
sending so much luuvvvvv to you Soul ❤ your such a precious soul and im grateful for you everyday 😭 you are here and that's a beautiful reason for me to be here also 🧸 *tight squeeezieee* 🤗🤗
how've you been Soul? you feel like talking about your doggo or your father or anything at all on your mind? me can imagine it's a lot... our brain doesn't treat us kindly 😔 me here wichu always ❤
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ I honestly don't know what to say. I listened to it a few times but brain blows a raspberry and says yeah right loser 😕
