A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! 😀
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime ❤️
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
@Optimisticempath
*sending a little glitter of appreciation to you to let you know I notice you and i care for you*💛
Love,
@amiableBunny4016 bunwee making me cry 🥺🥺🥺 this is vvv thoughtful of you bunwee thank you so much it means so much to me 😭🥺 saving the beary cute picture 💕 *hugs back tight and sends so much luvvv to you 🤗 me often thinking of you too and always wishing you better days 🥺 you are the best bunwee💕💕 here for you if you wanna talk or just sit or something 😅
just another sleep less night being spent on thoughts and tears .... at this point idk if i even care 💀
wonderong tho... randomly ... why is it so difficult with emotions 🤡 idk who taught me to hold back my emotions ... lately even worse .... there's no sense of it .... idk how did learn that its not nice to cry ... or who taught me to not cry ... or that it's always suposed to be under the blanket... or behind the doors or during showers .... and to instantly swallow the biggest lumps in my throat when my heart hurts ... idk who made me think it's not ok to cry ... not ok to cry in front of someone ... not ok to feel .. idk if it's a who or a what ... cant remember ... thinking its things people normally learn as children and idk if I missed any classes or attended the wrong ones lmao 🤡 because clearly... missed so much and it shows.. ... dont want to remember tbh but just wow ... how we learn things and allow it to become a part of us ... become us ... slowly 💀
it's just not fun tho ...remembering in parts but not fully ... trying to make sense of things but failing ... a wholw lot of blur and idk what to do 😖
it's difficult also talking to someone ...ifeel im scared of what might come out if i do? even i dont know what might and that's the scariest part .... there's so much inside..most of it buried so deep it doesn't come up often but there's flashes and traces and little sneak peak reminders of it being there still ... and it feels like being drowned all over again ... a constant fight between gasping for air.... remembering to gasp for air and staying afloat ... we try tho ..
mhmmm head hurts already... yay or whatever!
i can't typeee....💀 sorry for the errors and stuff ...
@Optimisticempath
Is okie ❤️ this is your space. We here for you
wtf happened here?????! what's up with all the posts 😳
this place is becoming more stressful every passing day fr😖
we cry cry till we ... you know?? what rhymes here 🤖
@Optimisticempath
*Sending Opti hugs if okay* ❤️
@amiableBunny4016 Bunwee hugs always okayyy🥺 hugs bunwee tightt🤗 hows you bunwee? me thinking of chu ❤
@amiableBunny4016 the reply button poof again 🥺
bunwee makes me cry being so kind and caring towards me and and vv luvving also and me can't tell how much me grateful for bunwee🥺
I've missed you too and I think I lost our thread :( ill find it but if you do can you tag me in it? me enjoys talking to you always and here for you 💕💕💕
yes ice cream time is fun time 🥰 bunwee likes ice cream? :0 me hopes bunwee has fun soonsiee also 🥺
your teacher's message is so beautiful 🥺 me luvsss it and it should be a quote 💕 thank you for sharing 🤗 huggles you❤
my depressed self being dragged over to the deeper, darker end by my friend depression 🙂👍🏼
do we at least have some tasty treats on the other side?? 😔
@Optimisticempath
Milky bear 🥛🧸 how are you feeling now? 😟
@VictoriaLove7
me feels same always victory 🥲 it just ranges from feeling really terrible to a little terrible to feeling numb lmao ... idk which one out of this is better D:
im ok, existing but how are you?? how was your weekend? 💕
@Optimisticempath
Milky bear 🥛🧸 what makes you feel terrible? 😟 If you'd like to talk about it? Sending hugs to milky 🥛🧸🤗🌈🧸
I read that banana can increase serotonin, also getting sunlight can boost serotonin level. 🤗
My weekend was okie, usual activities ☺ How's your weekend, Milky? 🥛🧸
(I was gonna say the woof woof gif is cute)☺
@VictoriaLove7
everything tbh 😔 idk what to say, i feel like a waste of space ... more depressed than usual or the same i dont know anymore ... surviving and taking one day at once i guess 🤗hugs back 🌈🧸
my weekend was ok also 😅
you always look up remedies and helpful things 🥺😂 thank you Victory 💕
woof woof doggo? yes me thinks its v cute also 🐶 victory likes doggies? do you have or had any pets?😮
@Optimisticempath
Milky 🥛🧸 you are a great person ( 🧸) and never a waste of space. 🥛🧸
Is it possible to get counseling irl or something like that? 😧 We can also talk about it too here 🤗
Yess, woof woof doggo 🐶 Me likes woof woof but I don't have pets. (when I was little I had guinea pigs ☺
Because I remember you once said about natural way to increase serotonin level, so I searched for the remedy ☺
@VictoriaLove7
victory 🌈🧸 how are you?
counseling or something um..idk victory.. it's no option 😔 im ok dont worry
You had guinea pigs??🥺 they so cute, me wants too 😄 but maybe too much responsibility of another living bean...im barelyy keeping me alive lmao 🤣 ... do not wanna disappoint another being mhm..
What were their names?😮 I think guinea pigs make for good pets 🥰
how is you doing? sends hugs
@Optimisticempath
Milky bear 🥛🧸 me 🌈🧸 is okie, sometimes there are okayish times, there are okie. ☺
If counseling is not an option, then you can talk here if you'd like or journaling 🥛🧸
How is you today, milky? 🥛🧸
Yes, me had guinea pigs, ☺ They are small and yes, they are good pets! 🐹 me did not have names for them ☺
I think you should try get one, milky bear 🥛🧸
hugs back milky 🧸🥛🤗
Me found a notebook with milky bear pic on its cover ☺
@Optimisticempath
Milky bear 🥛🧸 ☺🤗
@victorialove7
aw you always find the cutest pictures victory 🥰 thank you so much
im just alive... breathing...the drill 😅
how are you today? whatchu mean by okayish times? something troubles you? you can share anytime also 💕 hugs you please take care of yourself Rainbow bear 🌈🧸
@Optimisticempath
yes yes, me search for cute milky bear 🥛🧸 for you! 🤗
'Okayish sometimes' means when things do not go the way we planned, or 'it could have been better' stuff ☺
Rainbow bear 🌈🧸 is introverted, but will find ways to share with you, milky 🥛🧸☺
me is okie, and you are more than alive, more than just breathing, you are awesome and you will be happy, milky!🥛🧸 *hugs milky back*🥛🧸🌈🤗
When you said just alive.. breathing, me thought of this quote
'Just breath and be,
Breathe in faith, breathe out worry'
🥛🧸🌈🤗
@Optimisticempath
Hi opti bear… me has been thinking of you 💜 how has opti bear been doing? 💜
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ I came across This the other day. You popped into my mind and idk maybe it's totally stupid but I think it's something we should have heard growing up. Idk - no pressure to listen to it or anything
*Leaves buckets of hugs* in case you need some ❤️ Much love to you OptiBear ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
I... i don't know what to say Soul 🥺🥺 it made me cry ... this was such a beautiful audio and your right something that everyone deserves to hear ... you heard it too right? please listen to it again 🥺 you deserve the kindness too 💕
*hides in hugs bucket* me no coming out 🥺 tis my favorite hidey place now but you welcome to join also to hide with me and huggiee 🥺 🤗
sending so much luuvvvvv to you Soul ❤ your such a precious soul and im grateful for you everyday 😭 you are here and that's a beautiful reason for me to be here also 🧸 *tight squeeezieee* 🤗🤗
how've you been Soul? you feel like talking about your doggo or your father or anything at all on your mind? me can imagine it's a lot... our brain doesn't treat us kindly 😔 me here wichu always ❤
@Optimisticempath Hey you ❤️ I honestly don't know what to say. I listened to it a few times but brain blows a raspberry and says yeah right loser 😕
