Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
When your finally to the point you can no longer take care of things because your illness although it be in your head, has crippled you . Then you realize you just handed over your right to feel your right to cry, your right to process what's going on the way you need to, to the one person who should care about u the most is the one who caused most of the damage to you in the first place.. The hope you thought you had, smeared in your face like a failure. To which u are now openly reminded every minute your awake.
Focus on finding more positive people. They are out there waiting to help you find a path to a better future.@Ckennedy04
Focus on finding more positive people. They are out there waiting to help you find a path to a better future.@Ckennedy04
Hi my name is jon i have autism i have had depression for 10 years cry everyday cry seeing guys with girls very lonely
That does sound lonely, but you can find the right person who understands you if you keep looking. It is obvious that you have a caring soul. Keep trying to share it with others. Here is a good place to start.@placidCity1574
@bestVase7265 thank you for your support means alot
I have faith in you. You can find a path forward. Keep telling yourself that. @placidCity1574
I have faith in you. You can find a path forward. Keep telling yourself that. @placidCity1574
My boyfriend broke up with me yesterday because he couldn't cope with my depression, he felt as if I was taking him down in this black hole with me so now I feel horrible
@Liendakaas aw! I am so sorry to hear that. I lend you all the support and strength to fight this. Just have a little faith and be optimistic about life. You ain't alone, okay? You have all of us to love and support you and help you move on in this real hard time. HUGS! 
I can't get out of bed at all and its been days. I cry, i can't eat and i force myself to sleep so i can't think. I want to end it. I want to end everything there's nothing positive in my life right now. I relied on one person so much that when he left i crumbled and every bad incident that has ever happened to me it keeps coming back. I don't know how to keep going and I'm having my suicidal thoughts again.
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Im so sorry your feeling this way. We are here for you. You can talk to us.
I usually post in the anxiety threads because that's generally my biggest problem, but I'm feeling the depression more today, so I thought I'd post here right now.
For the past couple of months, I've been dealing with relationship anxiety (wondering if my boyfriend loves me, if he's losing interest, if he's going to leave me, etc). It was horrible and I felt needy and clingy and needed constant reassurance. This has been improving over the past couple of weeks, but now I'm starting to feel depressed. I have a mixture of anxiety/depression and the anxiety is usually the dominant emotion, but not for the past few days. The anxiety is getting better and I haven't been worrying about my relationship as much, so I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way. I've been crying for no reason and sleeping for about 12 hours everyday. I have no motivation for anything and my self-esteem is almost nonexistent. I'm not sure what to do.
Well I feel like my mental health has gone backwards. I am struggling to make choices, avoiding doing things that could cause stress or conflict, and lots of suicidal thoughts. I feel like I just want to hide away, but the world won't let me.
@RightSaidFred don't hide away and if you do it ok. Sometimes you need to shut the world out just so you can get back on track.
I played a game, that was nice, though I feel like crying again??? I don't know
depressed wishing i wasnt alive like crap anxious panicky exhausted in every way worthless sad self harm urges i feel like nothing i do is goood enough or right thats how im truly feeling today
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but hey im fine
@heartofgold2001 every day will not be like this. It may not be tomorrow but it does get better. Treasure the good days and survive the bad.
@aquaScarf6694 every day for the last 3 weeks has been like this
@heartofgold2001 I'm sorry it has lasted this long. Sometimes it feels like it will never end. Do what you have to to make it through. It will get better. I've been battling for years. I wish I could give you a magic formula. But there is none. You can get through it. I now it doesn't feel like it right now. But you can.
I have so much self loathing. I don't think I can ever get any better.
I still can feel the fear of meeting that difficult person. Dealing with difficult emotion, shes making everything difficult ! Oh thankGod I will not meeting her again after graduation party. Not again.
@pinkTea don't worry, I've been in that situation before.
