Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel down today...I feel like every time I try and better myself it only ends up getting worst because something always messes it up... I feel like I am not worth being here and I am only the black sheep of my family. I feel like my roommates only see me as a maid to clean up after them and that no one cares about my feelings or how I think.. I have cried today and have only been down and having panic attacks all day.. my mind is confused and I don't know what to do..
@XxthelightxX I am so sorry that you are going through so much all at once. 
You are really brave to speak out about it. I want you to know that you are not as alone as your pain makes you feel. You are valid and you are worthy. 
Please PM me if you need to talk. Oh, and take a look at my profile picture (Life is tough, but so are you)
@beautifuldevil thank you so much for listening to me
@XxthelightxX Feeling isolated and alone is the most terrifying thing and I want to make sure that you don't feel that way. You are heard and you are valid. Keep the faith xx
Just completely done with it all. Yesterday I was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts and today I've learned that my uncle has had a massive relapse after being sober for six months.
@Mayzy I'm sorry that you're facing such a tough time You should know that you are not alone and you are stronger than your pain makes you feel. PM me if you ever need to talk xx
today I feel even more lonely and lost than usual . Today is the birthday of my husband . he had gone drinking with friends in the morning . when he came home drunk , I asked, " why do you not want to celebrate this day with the family ? " . he replied , " I did come celebrate . " always like this. he has things more important than being with me and our child . sometimes I think , " maybe I was not good enough for him ? " . birthday celebrated with the family and loved ones , right? I feel useless and stupid . and in all my fault again ( so he says )
Sorry for my English
@Katya88 it's not your fault! Your an amazing person! What he choose to do are his actions you can't change people all you can focus on is you and your choices. I am sorry he treats you like that... I will pray for you
It was been another roller coaster day. I am so exhausted of having been depressed for so long and not feeling much relief. I feel like I should learn to try to accept it, but I want to believe that happiness is really possible again. I keep trying day after day and failing. I am so scared that this state of being is permanent
@bestVase7265
This state isn't permanent. Please keep believing that happiness is there for you. Keep building your self up physically and mentally. Try to do things that makes you happy. Try something new. Leave people that try to bring you down as they would make the feeling worse. It is okay to backslide in the process of finding yourself, as long as you do not let that backslide bring you down. Pick yourself back up and continue. You have that state of happiness waiting for you.
For now, here's a hug for you. *hugs* 😃
The one good thing is that I don't have many people that bring me down, just circumstances and my fears for the future. I am doing better than I few days ago but live in constant fear of the next bad wave. @Chimmysmallz
@bestVase7265
Fear is good. Fear could be healthy. But fear shouldn't be allowed to control your situation. You should be the one controlling it not your situation controlling you. You should be happy. Really happy.You need to accept that you will or could backslide into depression and sadness but you should not let that bring you down. When you backslide, you pick yourself up and try again. Congratulate yourself when you make progress and try again when you backslide. You have only one life sweetheart, live it to the fullest.
you could get a journal. Write down the things you are scared of, write down the things you want to improve on and write down your goals. Try something new. A new exercise routine perhaps -dancing is excellent- or you could try doing things you used to like or a whole new set of activities. You can't fear something that you accept. Accept that you are human and can make mistakes. Accept that you are human and you have to be happy.
You could also talk to any listener here. They would be happy to listen. Here's a really tight hug for you. *hugs* 😃
Thanks. I am trying to do all of those things. My biggest problem is that I can't seem to accept. It makes me so down on myself that my mind won't seem to let me do that despite trying really hard. I know all that I can do is keep trying, but the depression spirals out of control way too easily.@Chimmysmallz
I'm hoping to mainting this feeling of positiveness that i am currently feeling right now. Just hope i won't burn and crash.
@imtiredofliving I am so proud of you for being optimistic. I hope you do real wonders. You are the best!
Today can be a good day. I just need to get out of my head.
When your finally to the point you can no longer take care of things because your illness although it be in your head, has crippled you . Then you realize you just handed over your right to feel your right to cry, your right to process what's going on the way you need to, to the one person who should care about u the most is the one who caused most of the damage to you in the first place.. The hope you thought you had, smeared in your face like a failure. To which u are now openly reminded every minute your awake.
Focus on finding more positive people. They are out there waiting to help you find a path to a better future.@Ckennedy04
Focus on finding more positive people. They are out there waiting to help you find a path to a better future.@Ckennedy04
Hi my name is jon i have autism i have had depression for 10 years cry everyday cry seeing guys with girls very lonely
That does sound lonely, but you can find the right person who understands you if you keep looking. It is obvious that you have a caring soul. Keep trying to share it with others. Here is a good place to start.@placidCity1574
My boyfriend broke up with me yesterday because he couldn't cope with my depression, he felt as if I was taking him down in this black hole with me so now I feel horrible
@Liendakaas aw! I am so sorry to hear that. I lend you all the support and strength to fight this. Just have a little faith and be optimistic about life. You ain't alone, okay? You have all of us to love and support you and help you move on in this real hard time. HUGS!
I can't get out of bed at all and its been days. I cry, i can't eat and i force myself to sleep so i can't think. I want to end it. I want to end everything there's nothing positive in my life right now. I relied on one person so much that when he left i crumbled and every bad incident that has ever happened to me it keeps coming back. I don't know how to keep going and I'm having my suicidal thoughts again.
@Seerat
Im so sorry your feeling this way. We are here for you. You can talk to us.
