Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Worthless. Like I don't matter, like nothing I do will ever matter. Also broken, but broken to the core, not just upset, as if there's something deep inside me that needs fixed but I can't fix it.
Today i felt happy because of the people i talked with in the chat rooms, because i knew they wished me well and i knew i could at least hel them myself a bit. I feel like even if im afraid or drowning that if i say at least one nice thing to someone i can make someones day, someone will be happy for at least a moment because of me and maybe id me funny for them but im happy i can make others happy. Even if im lonely i can become a part of this circle by just saying that someone look pretty in a dress. There are 70+ pages of how peole feel, and if every one of them is sad, i just want to tell you guys you dont have to be that way, it sometimes feel bitterly good, but its better to feel a genuine happines. I know how hard ot is, i am here as well.
Dead
Invisible
Suicidal
Mad
Alexmythia ridden
Lost.
I should be happy. I hung out with a friend, went out after work. And now I just don't want to function. Why am I crying? Honestly I don't know. I want to give up. I don't want to be here anymore.
Numb, I guess.
I just broke up with my boyfriend...after nearly 20 days..we hardly talked...and he hasn't come to school in so long. Its best to just let it go early instead of continuing to let myself hurt. I had dreams..plans.. Noe I gotta throw it all away..
Lovingpine! Warm hugs to u. I have been through same situation like you. U was saying its 20days since no contact. But mine its was 2months. I did everything for him. I loved him what the way he is. He used to say me as his world, nd am amazing nd beautiful n so on. But suddenly stopped chating with me, without reason. When ever i try to contact him, he says silly reasons to avoid me. We are miles apart but ours was true love i believed. I feeling like insult to me, he ignored me. I gave him time n space nd i was waiting for him for the day he may realise my feelings. But no. He is being so rude. He not even says reason for his change. I begged him sorry for even if its not my fault. He didnt have soft corner for me. I cried for him..looking at mobile all the time tht he would call me. But no. I cried day n night, i spoiled my life, i hardly cant focus on anything. But i was reading positive quotes after that it says if someone ditches you, its not your fault but real losers are they. I was in deep depression state but gradually getting out. I came here in 7cups met people with beautiful heart. Makes smile on face for while. Today i feel am lucky am positive energy and im special person. Because he lost me lol.
Yes you have bright future dear. Never let anyone makes you down. U hav power in you. You have to many more good things in life. He is not much important anymore. I wish you would definitely get loving and caring affectionate man in your life. Who appreciates u, makes u smile , respects u, who is there for u in your happiness n sad. More over who knows how sweet you at heart nd worthable, special person in this earth.
I feel like i must reply to your post. Hope all goes well for u. Happy days ahead to you my friend. We all here for you to share your feelings any time. Really amazing people here to support.
Love you
@ivoryGlobe5931 yes, im slowing moving on. its going to hurt a bit because i actually thought he loved me like he said. i had so many plans for us, i was going to ask him to the winter formal at my school, which we both attend. But i can just throw all those thoughts out. if he really loved me, he would've done everything in his power to tell me what's going on with him. I still don't know if it was him who actually called me a c*nt, or a complete dumba**. i did nothing to deserve it. it is pretty suspicious that it happened so suddenly, but that's always the same story with me and anyone who claims they are even remotely attracted to me. one girl gave me multiple excuses as to why she couldn't date me...but soon after was dating someone else. one guy would cheat on me, lie to me about it, ignore me, and just expect me to be ok with it. another...i don't think i can trust him honestly, i haven't told him that but i feel like he was dating another girl at the time we were together. But i can't be completely sure.
really angry and sad even though nothing bad happened today. only what i did to myself by being grumpy. i hate myself and death sounds cool
I hate my self. Soo much. I which i would did. I don't have the balls to kill myslef or else i would. I eant to cry and run away. Or die. Which ever comes first. Ill just wait
@WasteWanderer I know that depression is very hard. It always is. You mentioned wanting to kill yourself, which makes me very concerned. But it seems like you don't want to go through with it just yet, which is very relieving.
I am not referring you to these hotlines, text-lines and online hotlines because I don't care. It's just that 7cups isn't a crisis resource. But feel free to vent to a listener about what's making you feel this way!! :D
Hotline (in the US): 1-800-273-TALK(8255)
Text-line: Text "GO" to 741-741
Online crisis centers: imalive.org, iowacrisischat.org, crisischat.org
I'm so empty, I don't care if I live another day I just can't take this world anymore. Society is killing me. I have no one to talk to without being judged. I'm just done.
@kennaaa31 Just remember that even though I'm not a listener, you can talk to me anytime you want. I care. I will never judge because I'm going through depression myself. I know that deep down inside, you want to get help because why else would you be here? So, I just want to say that no one on 7cups will judge you. <3
Kenna, same feeling i have like yours. Really society is killing me too. I just avoided them. I dont go to parties get to gathers...family functions etc...they always have a comment which hurts me. Some times we have to live around such a society. I almost alone nd happy. Nd more over i recently got here and got positive energy.
Kenna, i can feel your pain dear, i think always there is a solution for everything. You can find a way which makes you happy. I feel happy when chat with good friend online here.
I feel removed from my own body, like I don't belong inside my head.
For some reason I feel better today. Being on 7 cups reminded me that trying to find things to be positive is the best form of healing. I'm doing my best to be grateful for the things I have. It's an effective strategy- thanks 7 cups! <3
@BeingStrong1 I want to give you a huge hug <3 You're so strong, and I'm so glad you feel better today. I hope you can enjoy it for a while!