Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

In thay weird state where you don't know who you are, what you're feeling, or understand anything happening around you.

I am confused and feeling alone. I worry about talking about my thoughts to anyone. People always want answers about why I feel the way I do, why I'm upset and I honestly done have any answers. There's several days that are great, or at least okay and then out of no where I feel miserable, lost, alone, and hopeless. I think it would be best to go to sleep, but my heart is racing as I lay in bed. I don't want to wake up this way tomorrow. I want to know how to fix this, what is wrong that i feel this way again?

I've had a terrible day. My parents are still assholes to me. the person i really wanna talk to still didnt talk to me today. so i guess im done trying to talk to them. I feel so stuck in life right now. like as if things are never gonna change. like as if im still gonna be hurting. i cry everyday and night for reasons i dont really understand. I think I'm depressed bc im always thinking negative and not really about the positive. just feels like theres nothing positive to think about anymore :/

I feel like I am in a nightmare I can't wake up from. I don't enjoy much anymore and I am still deeply in love with my ex after being apart for over a year now. I dream about her nightly. I closed my Facebook account today. I feel like I have a bunch of non existent friends. No one asks me to do things with them and I am tired of trying. I don't want to date and I know if I did it wouldn't be fair to the person I'd be seeing because I still love my ex

Hello new to site not to depression Know enough about it that behaviors of mine are telling me my coping is dwindling and i need a hug and a shake Thank you for being available Today i feel like if i don't get a little help ill go over the rdge and never get back So here I am hoping someone can say something to help me kerp my resolve I am pushing mydrlf NOT to let any more chores go but its a struggle even tho my rational self says yhis is key in getying well part of me os tired of the struggle snd part of me says you cant let them eim

Same as always: like the carrot of happiness only exists so that I can be hit with the stick repeatedly.

I don't know why I keep trying.

This whole weekend I have just been sick in a rut but today is the worst. I have not been able to get myself out of bed for almost 3 hours. I lied to a study group and said I wasn't feeling well enough to work in a project with them. I feel really bad about that but I just can't get up. And to make me feel worse my roommates boyfriend is here this weekend as he is every weekend and I miss my bf and my roommate and hers keep hogging every room. I slept on the couch lady night because of them. And last night all of my friends left me so I was just sitting alone and decided to paint but I didn't like it so I thrwe it out and this morning I took it out of the trash but I still don't like it so I broke it and then I've been lying in bed since then

Alone. Nobody understands me. Pissed. Very pissed.

I feel empty..

He's gone and I don't know what's going on with him.. Is he gonna come back? Are he and I ever gonna get to be an actual couple? Is he ok?! I don't know..

I guess this is what I get for merely attempting to be happy. I can have him... But I can't always.. Or ever see him. I just.. I miss him so much. Sometimes I'll be doing something that I actually enjoy and I'll just randomly think of him.. I always expect him to text me.. Or miraculously show up at school again.. But everyday I'm disappointed.. I can't text him cause I've literally sent 4 texts since he last said "hello" nothing since..and I don't wanna bombard him with my nonsense..

There are so many emotions covered up inside me that its just a mix of unsettled feelings that swarm my mind and clog my lungs so that I can not breathe.