Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I'm feeling anxious because I have mega butterflies in my stomach from thinking about the thing I really want to do this weekend. I really,really want to do that thing this weekend...

I feel sad and unloved. I feel like crying all the time. Dream of the days when I was a happy carefree person.

I feel so sad I think I might throw up. I'm so sick of telling everyone I'm "good" when what I really mean is I'm falling apart.

deep down by sadness

That I'm going to fail. That I really need to make that appointment with a counselor to meet with a psychiatrist that I've been looking up all week, but am afraid I'll chicken out and won't go thru with it.

i felt somagression but now m contented

I keep having mood swings. Two days ago I felt full of purpose and life, but now I feel so worthless. I don't want to kill myself anymore, but I feel like crap.

I haven't even been diagnosed with depression or anything. I feel so irrelevant, and I want to have real friends.

I'm drowning in my selfishness.

I hate everything about me.

My mood swings are freaking outrageous. I was literally so happy about life just 5 hours ago and now I don't see any point in even existing. I don't understand. My mood can change from "wow, I'm so awesome!" to "why does life suck so much?" in just a few hours.

Okay. Honestly it's been probably the best day of the month for me, so I should be grateful for that. My depression definitely isn't as bad now. I'm coping. Trying to get better and focus on the positive.

I feel like a failure at life. Like I shouldn't have hope. Like all my mistakes are going to hit me hard soon