Ramblings 3
Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami yyy goodmorning sweetie ❤ I know it's not morning for you. It's natural to be scared going into surgery, but the doctors do it a million times a day, so you'll be just fine ❤ I think your tummy issues where just before you saw the last surgeon, but yeah mental illness can affect you physically too🙁 is your head still bad now??
@Iamwhoiamwhoami maybe the pain from your headache may be a good distraction in the taxi. Well not a good one, but it might help shift focus. Don't worry you won't be there long, then you can come home and relax ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I’m sure you’re right, you normally are. ❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
lol! Is not that a fine one; "You normally are!"
@Iamwhoiamwhoami well done for having a shower ❤ I know how hard it can be, so I'm proud of you ❤ what does your shower gel smell off??
@Tinywhisper11
I am not sure what it is. I think it is one of those scents for “men “ . I buy my shampoo in bulk and as cheap as possible.
My work, which I don’t want to describe here due to possible chance of someone identifying me from it, but my work involves getting pretty filthy with stuff that doesn’t come off easily. So , bulk and cheap because of the excessive amount I use to clean.
I would rather use the “feminine “ scented shampoo. And perfume. I actually think I still have a bottle or two of perfume left somewhere. I just don’t use them because of my work.
I like the smells better than the “manly “scents.
@Tinywhisper11
How are you doing? How are you feeling? ❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I'm ok ❤ what are your thoughts right now?? Sorry I'm gonna be on and off the site, but I'll keep checking in on you ❤❤
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@Tinywhisper11
I am trying hard to focus on you and Helga , Twist , Blue, Amiable, and Pieces, and any others that are with me in my heart, and by my side in spirit. ❤️❤️
No, worries. I am kind of that way anyway most of the time. I start a response right after I get a message from you or the others and it takes me ten minutes to write a simple response . Longer if I ramble.
❤️ Embracing you in a warm, comforting hug, I love you ❤️
I don’t normally stay on the site if I am not writing any of my ramblings. If I am awake I try and respond to messages as promptly as my mind allows. But if I am asleep in one of my old timer naps, then I unfortunately don’t get a prompt response out .
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I don't get anything on my tablet computer thingy. So I check my bell in the corner of the screen when I come here to see new messages ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I think I set up somewhere, my profile or settings. For the phone app. I would rather use my laptop, but that is too awkward for me to use right now. That doesn’t matter anyway.
If I miss a few messages, unfortunately the bell thingy on my phone, it doesn’t list them out individually. So it makes it difficult for me to find and respond to them. The upvotes? However get listed individually.
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@Iamwhoiamwhoami I have a candle lit, it has a picture of a owl on it. I'm gonna light it in a bit, it will be the light to guide your way safely back and forth the hospital ❤❤hugs you tightly ❤❤ I love you ❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami Good luck with your appointment Iam. We'll be with you in heart and spirit. Cheering you on. You've almost gotten to the point where you can have this pain fixed. That the goal. You've made it this far you've got this! ❤️ *sending calm peace* deep breaths ok?
@Iamwhoiamwhoami do you think you will be able to take a nap before you go??
@Tinywhisper11
I need to try and stay awake for another hour and a half or so to take my pain meds. That way I try and ensure that the medication stays in my system properly for tomorrow. After that I’m hoping to get to sleep for a bit. Which reminds me I better set an alarm for the morning just in case. I need to try and shower again in the morning.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami don't push yourself to shower, you did really well already having one ❤ I know you like to stay clean though ❤ yes set your alarm, hopefully you will get a good sleep ❤ gives you a giant hug ❤ I love you ❤
