My daily ramblings
I am finally going to follow the lead and try and avoid posting in multiple different places. I am going to try and do most of my rambling in this thread.
My cognitive issues are making it harder and harder for me to focus on multiple things. That combined with my laundry list of other issues, makes functioning at all near impossible.
Having to go through medication experimentation again is going to make it even harder.
Whenever I have to refocus because I literally can’t remember blocks of time or where I am and why I’m here kinds of things , I’m usually able to come here and figure out through my posts and profile etc.
That has proven to not work very well at times. I wondered if I centralized my thoughts here that maybe that might work better.
That also keeps me from being a distraction from those who are more deserving than I.
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy My grandmother used to sing some of those songs. There used to be a small radio in the kitchen and she would listen to gospel music. She would sing along with the songs. It was always nice to hear her ❤️ thank you for helping me remember that today 😊
@Mytwistedsoul
Twist.
Your words: "It must have been frustrating to have to give things up with your illness."
"Give things up" - grieving.
@Helgafy There is a lot of grieving for alot of things isn't there? In life. Good things are there too but there's a lot of grieving
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy I've always liked that song but it makes me cry. I've actually read 7cups book. It was - eh lol
I hope there's healing after all the grieving. I'm afraid it's going to take time
I thought of you and @Iamwhoiamwhoami today. The blue birds are here and they've built nests in the bird boxes. The sparrow is still here - she sings in the mornings
I hope you're both doing ok ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy Thank you ❤️ That's a very sweet thing to say. Tbh I often feel more like the mud than anything a nice as a lotus flower
A picture of my friend Ms Sparrow
The bluebird is too busy to sit still so I can take her picture. She's been feeding her babies :)
@Iamwhoiamwhoami @Helgafy Thinking of you both and sending good vibes ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
and the desert becomes a fertile field,
and the fertile field seems like a forest.
@Helgafy I'm sorry your energy is so low right now. I hope you take care of yourself. ❤️ Sending you strength, energy and good vibes! ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Friend.
I heard a speech from Joyce Meyer yesterday. She was mention this Bibleverse that I like so much. Here it comes to you. I give you 2 versions because they are so fine. Why don't you memorize them?
Zephaniah 3:17.
New living trans:
For the LORD your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”
English Standard Version
The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.
@mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami Hello, It’s like you wrote this for me. I have the same problems with my cognitive memory. I also have a long list of other issues. Reading your post was like reading something I had written myself. You’re welcome to chat me up if you’d like.🤨
I don't think it's a question of anyone being more deserving. Some people like to talk about life, some prefer to listen
@DaninUK
Hi DaninUK.
Welcome to 7Cups! I hope you'll have many fine moments here. All the best from Helga from Norway. Maybe you're from the UK.
@Helgafy Hey :) Your friend brought you a nice treat! The little bird lives in a house at the porch. She sings all the time. Do you have a lot of birds visit near your house? There's so many different ones here so there's always something singing lol
You were in my thoughts last night as I looked at pictures of Lofoten Norway :)
Thank you for the verses - I'll have to try and memorize them ❤️
How are you? Is it warm there now?
@Iamwhoiamwhoami How are you?
@mytwistedsoul
Friend twist.
An so - Donald Trump is in the storm again.
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy There's puffins on that island! It looks like a beautiful place. You're often in my thoughts. Iam is too ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Friend. Thank you for writing. I'm glad your garden is doing well. You have cherries! When I was living in Oslo there were cherry trees where I was living. I had a party where I invited my cousins living in Oslo. My parents were also visiting. I made a pie with a lot of cherries. But I didn't remove the stone inside so everybody had to spit a lot and had a heap of cherrystones on their plate when they finished eating.
@Helgafy Hey ❤️ I imagine that must have come as a surprise to everyone eating pie but it would still be delicious
@mytwistedsoul
Good morning to you wonderful young man.
The other night I dreamt of a bird, turquoise at its back and yellow on the chest.
These days I drink my morning coffee from a mug with a cat printed on in black and white. It has stripes on the body and tail, so it looks like it is in prison. lol.
Raspberries: Yes I sometimes eat vanilla ice cream covered with jello from raspberries and chocolate on the top.
Because Haugesund is a town by the sea, cruise ships come to visit. Some of the tourists wanted to see a Norwegian home. My parents opened theirs for tourists both from Germany and the USA. A small meal should be served. My mother made a cake; at the bottom mareng, then whipped cream and on the top fresh strawberries. They simply loved it.
Can I also tell - at our summer house outside Haugesund - by a fjord - we picked a lot of wild strawberries.
@mytwistedsoul
Soul.
I want to tell you. At the post above I told of the bird I dreamt about. I went to watch TV, a show called "Love in Paradise" - the Caribbean. At the openingscene there was a bird; turquoise at the back and yellow at the front. Amazing.
@Helgafy That must have been an amazing experience having tourists into your parents home. Maybe a little weird too since they were strangers? The summer house sounds like it was a nice place to visit especially with the fjords. You live in a very beautiful country
@mytwistedsoul
Hi.
You wrote: Tbh I wish God would make things a little more plain and dumb it down some because there are things I just can't seem to grasp and understand and I question everything.
Are there things we can talk about?
@mytwistedsoul
So friend "soul" - can I boast a little bit today: Jens Stoltenberg, Norwegian, is the Secretary General of NATO since October 2014. Then he was for 2 periods which is unusual. Then - because of the war in Ukraine - he was asked to sit one more year. Now he's been asked to sit one more year because they can't find an appropriate person at this time.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Hi, I hope you are doing well as you can. I know things are tuff. Just keep trying to hang in there❤️🙏🏽
@WorkingitThrough2
Thank you. I’m really struggling with getting thoughts to paper right now . So I will just leave it as a very appreciative thank you to all of you who care enough to think about me.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
We really care about you my friend. Always not to far away if you want or need to reach out for a listening ear or just to vent❤️
@WorkingitThrough2
I appreciate your kindness and I would reach out but I’m just too stubborn and won’t because I don’t want to add my negativity on to anyone else’s plate. That is something so deeply ingrained in me that it actually pains me to not be able to do so.
I know I shouldn’t be this way and people like you are genuine and true in your desire to listen. I have listened to thousands of people throughout my life tell me their stories of struggle and hardship. I never prodded or suggested that I wanted to hear them , I just happened to be at the right time and place for them. I have been in the public eye in customer service most of my life and this has helped shut down my openness and willingness to dump my problems on others who are dealing with their own issues and struggles.
Even though their opening up to me may have helped them, I felt like I was always getting everyone else’s burdens dumped onto me. The light slowly getting dimmer and dimmer until I was completely invisible in the darkness of my own misery.
I really do appreciate the kindness you show me, Thank you for being you.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
No words are necessary. Just drop me an emoji that lets me know you are ok😊
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Hello, I hope you are doing ok 👍send me emoji
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
😄good to hear from you. Just getting back from out of state visit. I am ok too. Not a lot of changes going on here😊business as usual😂. Keep pushing forward as much as you can. Your friend❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Hi.
I think you have found your way of living at the peaceful place at your farm together with your animals. Maybe this is good for you to read: Psalm 23
23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
@Helgafy Hello friend Helgafy ❤️ How are you? Oh my questions are the usual I suppose. Why we suffer (which is supposed to make me a better person). Why people can hurt others and often go unpunished (agency?) Anyway they're questions I've asked before. I just get frustrated some times probably because those aren't the answers I want. Maybe?
@mytwistedsoul
My feet have closely followed his steps;
I have kept to his way without turning aside."
@Helgafy I wasn't sure how to reply to this tbh. I'm sorry you suffer too 😞 I hope that it isn't too bad for you right now - I hope that you have many good days coming
These are the fawns I was telling you about. The picture isn't the best - they wouldn't stand still lol!
@mytwistedsoul
Soul.
@mytwistedsoul
Friend soul.
@Helgafy Your red deer are larger than the white tail deer we have here. They're beautiful animals. Majestic and regal
@Iamwhoiamwhoami Hey you :) You've been in my thoughts for quite a while now. There was a place mentioned in something I was looking at and I mean it's probably kind of stupid but it will drive me nuts if I don't at least give you a link to check it out. It's in my state and idk where you live but maybe they have an affiliate or something close to you? I guess I hope too that you don't mind me sending it too
https://lancasterbrainandspine.com/
*Sending you good vibes* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Thank you for the information and for being in your thoughts. I am nowhere near them but maybe if I get the ambition built up I could email them and try and get some information or something.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Got you on my mind❤️🙏🏽You are worthy, You are Loveable, You are a Friend, Stay Strong.
No reply Needed
@seashell145
Hi friend.
We met at GlenM's site "The problem is the path" and I wanted to write some more to you, so I try to connect with you at "Iam"'s site here since Glen's site is gone.
@Helgafy
Helga, you're so nice. I'm really sorry you have been hurting for the past 18 years, I feel guilty hearing that. I have mostly been hurting for the past 6 years. But I understand or can imagine how it's like to be in pain. And I'm really sorry you're suffering so much.
You are so kind, you sent that beautiful song to me. I'm going to hear it. You're so nice Helga. Sending you lots of love and warmth. I will try to make a blog post where we can talk, but right now I'm a bit tired. I've also seen the post you made in Glen's blog and written the same response there. So much love for you Helga <3 <3
@seashell145
Hi friend.
Thank you so much for responding. This site belongs to "Iam". "Mytwistedsoul" and I wrote a bit comments to "Iam" and started to write here. "Iam" has said he doesn't mind. So I guess he will not mind if you and I write a bit in between also. Hah. You got tired, I got tired too and ate strawberry ice cream and drank coffee. I hope calories are good for me.
All the best from Helga.
@Helgafy
Helga, I'm glad you ate ice cream and took coffee. Hope you get some rest. Of course I can write to you here if you're interested. Sending you lots of love <3
@seashell145
@Helgafy
Thanks for the invitation to the summer party in soul's farm! The arrangement sounds lovely and the food items sound really delicious! Did you guys talk and organize this arrangement or you just imagined it based on previous conversations with them, like maybe they mentioned they enjoy carrot cake and summer parties? Either way, it's wonderful to be a part of it.
It's nice to know about you all. Soul commented on my posts before and I thought he was a female, glad to know he's a man. I think he is a kind person. Haven't interacted with IamwhoIam before, as far as I can remember.
I'm 31, a female from Bangladesh. Seeing your age Helga, I guess when I'm your age I will have many years of pain stored in my collection, that being said I make it to 70 haha. I saw a movie made in Norway the other day, it's called "The Worst Person in the World". There were some beautiful scenery in Oslo, I felt really attracted to the place. It looked rather peaceful.
Do you ever feel like no one cares about you?
@seashell145
So nice to hear from you. And no - the party was all in my imagination. But the carrot cake was for real. Soul earlier told that he made a carrot cake and ate it.
So you're from Bangladesh. Do you know something about your situation why you're tired?
The movie you saw won many prizes. I lived in Oslo for 25 years, working. Then - when I could not work anymore (52) because of health-problems I moved across the country to Bergen to live nearer to my youngest brother and his family and my mother who was living in the town I was born and lived until a became 18 years old (Haugesund). But by moving I experienced what you also wrote about: I could not find friends here. Well - I was a big tree in Oslo with all my roots and leaves (friends, loving Oslo etc.) - so very many hard moments I have had since moving here. Because of health-issues it was impossible for me to move back.
Friend, you ask: "Do you ever feel like no one cares about you?" I am very fortunate. I know I have people who care for me. And I also focus very much on the fact that Jesus Christ loves me and was willing to die for me and me not being perfect so that I could be in contact with God, the Father in heaven.
@Helgafy
First of all, I'm glad you have people who care about you. And the fact that you have faith in God is wonderful too.
It's nice to know you imagined the summer party, and including Soul's carrot cake was a nice touch. I will bring a blanket for all of us to lie down and relax, looking at clouds in the sky, while listening to a relaxing yet fun music. Your imagination is beautiful.
I actually don't know why I feel so tired. It could be iron deficiency, some vitamins deficiency, being overweight and sleep deprivation. So far this is all I know, I don't know if there's something lying underneath.
I'm glad the movie won many prizes. It's so wonderful to know you lived in Oslo. That place looks so lovely. I'm sorry when you went back to Bergen you lost friends and couldn't make any more. I too moved back home from another city and couldn't make friends. But I hope to move again and find friends. It's wonderful how our story matches, it makes me feel like I'm not alone.
I was kidding about having more pain in the store as I age. It might be, but it might also not be, maybe I would have better health in the future. I joked because at first when you said you are in pain for 18 years, I felt guilty, as I mentioned before. But after hearing your age, I was relieved a bit, and felt like, when I age like that, I too will have been gone through some years of pain, so I didn't feel like I had less pain than you and didn't feel guilty anymore haha. But we don't know the future so I don't know how much pain I will go through haha. Sending you lots of love and warmth.<3
(I'm sleepy, will reply to others tomorrow)
