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I am finally going to follow the lead and try and avoid posting in multiple different places. I am going to try and do most of my rambling in this thread.
My cognitive issues are making it harder and harder for me to focus on multiple things. That combined with my laundry list of other issues, makes functioning at all near impossible.
Having to go through medication experimentation again is going to make it even harder.
Whenever I have to refocus because I literally can’t remember blocks of time or where I am and why I’m here kinds of things , I’m usually able to come here and figure out through my posts and profile etc.
That has proven to not work very well at times. I wondered if I centralized my thoughts here that maybe that might work better.
That also keeps me from being a distraction from those who are more deserving than I.
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy Please don't stop. Please don't be afraid to share that part of yourself 😞 You being the kind person that you are - I can't imagine a better person to show that God is good. My relationship with god IS difficult because of past experiences. You're helping me gain new experiences that are good and kind and come from a good heart ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Friend.
Yes - I have been baking cakes, bread, making dinners - all kinds of good stuff also. But 2 years ago I had to stop - not enough energy to do that.
I'm glad your therapist can help you. And of course I hope all your scars will become your stars. (Easy for me to say).
Wow - you've matured not to drink to solve your things! And not SH for months. Congrats!!! (I guess that is hurting yourself). When I grew up we never heard of SH.
I lift you up to our Father in Heaven's knees and ask him to take good care of you.
@Helgafy It must have been frustrating to have to give things up with your illness. I'm sorry it affects you so badly. I wish there was something I could do to help
@Helgafy
please continue to be you. Talking about God with the sincerity and purity that you do is what religion should be about. Speaking of God and all the wonderful things you do is a big part of what this thread has become. You, Twist and all the others that periodically chime in.
Both of you have built a friendship that transcends everything. You both are amazing people. So please continue to be you, you are wonderful.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Thank you so much Iam. That was such a wonderful message from you.
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy My grandmother used to sing some of those songs. There used to be a small radio in the kitchen and she would listen to gospel music. She would sing along with the songs. It was always nice to hear her ❤️ thank you for helping me remember that today 😊
@Mytwistedsoul
Twist.
Your words: "It must have been frustrating to have to give things up with your illness."
"Give things up" - grieving.
@Helgafy There is a lot of grieving for alot of things isn't there? In life. Good things are there too but there's a lot of grieving
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy I've always liked that song but it makes me cry. I've actually read 7cups book. It was - eh lol
I hope there's healing after all the grieving. I'm afraid it's going to take time
I thought of you and @Iamwhoiamwhoami today. The blue birds are here and they've built nests in the bird boxes. The sparrow is still here - she sings in the mornings
I hope you're both doing ok ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy Thank you ❤️ That's a very sweet thing to say. Tbh I often feel more like the mud than anything a nice as a lotus flower
A picture of my friend Ms Sparrow
The bluebird is too busy to sit still so I can take her picture. She's been feeding her babies :)
@Iamwhoiamwhoami @Helgafy Thinking of you both and sending good vibes ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
and the desert becomes a fertile field,
and the fertile field seems like a forest.
@Helgafy I'm sorry your energy is so low right now. I hope you take care of yourself. ❤️ Sending you strength, energy and good vibes! ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Friend.
I heard a speech from Joyce Meyer yesterday. She was mention this Bibleverse that I like so much. Here it comes to you. I give you 2 versions because they are so fine. Why don't you memorize them?
Zephaniah 3:17.
New living trans:
For the LORD your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”
English Standard Version
The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.
@mytwistedsoul
@Iamwhoiamwhoami Hello, It’s like you wrote this for me. I have the same problems with my cognitive memory. I also have a long list of other issues. Reading your post was like reading something I had written myself. You’re welcome to chat me up if you’d like.🤨
I don't think it's a question of anyone being more deserving. Some people like to talk about life, some prefer to listen
@DaninUK
Hi DaninUK.
Welcome to 7Cups! I hope you'll have many fine moments here. All the best from Helga from Norway. Maybe you're from the UK.
@Helgafy Hey :) Your friend brought you a nice treat! The little bird lives in a house at the porch. She sings all the time. Do you have a lot of birds visit near your house? There's so many different ones here so there's always something singing lol
You were in my thoughts last night as I looked at pictures of Lofoten Norway :)
Thank you for the verses - I'll have to try and memorize them ❤️
How are you? Is it warm there now?
@Iamwhoiamwhoami How are you?
@mytwistedsoul
Friend twist.
An so - Donald Trump is in the storm again.
@mytwistedsoul
@Helgafy There's puffins on that island! It looks like a beautiful place. You're often in my thoughts. Iam is too ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Friend. Thank you for writing. I'm glad your garden is doing well. You have cherries! When I was living in Oslo there were cherry trees where I was living. I had a party where I invited my cousins living in Oslo. My parents were also visiting. I made a pie with a lot of cherries. But I didn't remove the stone inside so everybody had to spit a lot and had a heap of cherrystones on their plate when they finished eating.
@Helgafy Hey ❤️ I imagine that must have come as a surprise to everyone eating pie but it would still be delicious
@mytwistedsoul
Good morning to you wonderful young man.
The other night I dreamt of a bird, turquoise at its back and yellow on the chest.
These days I drink my morning coffee from a mug with a cat printed on in black and white. It has stripes on the body and tail, so it looks like it is in prison. lol.
Raspberries: Yes I sometimes eat vanilla ice cream covered with jello from raspberries and chocolate on the top.
Because Haugesund is a town by the sea, cruise ships come to visit. Some of the tourists wanted to see a Norwegian home. My parents opened theirs for tourists both from Germany and the USA. A small meal should be served. My mother made a cake; at the bottom mareng, then whipped cream and on the top fresh strawberries. They simply loved it.
Can I also tell - at our summer house outside Haugesund - by a fjord - we picked a lot of wild strawberries.
@mytwistedsoul
Soul.
I want to tell you. At the post above I told of the bird I dreamt about. I went to watch TV, a show called "Love in Paradise" - the Caribbean. At the openingscene there was a bird; turquoise at the back and yellow at the front. Amazing.
@Helgafy That must have been an amazing experience having tourists into your parents home. Maybe a little weird too since they were strangers? The summer house sounds like it was a nice place to visit especially with the fjords. You live in a very beautiful country
@mytwistedsoul
Hi.
You wrote: Tbh I wish God would make things a little more plain and dumb it down some because there are things I just can't seem to grasp and understand and I question everything.
Are there things we can talk about?
@mytwistedsoul
So friend "soul" - can I boast a little bit today: Jens Stoltenberg, Norwegian, is the Secretary General of NATO since October 2014. Then he was for 2 periods which is unusual. Then - because of the war in Ukraine - he was asked to sit one more year. Now he's been asked to sit one more year because they can't find an appropriate person at this time.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Hi, I hope you are doing well as you can. I know things are tuff. Just keep trying to hang in there❤️🙏🏽
@WorkingitThrough2
Thank you. I’m really struggling with getting thoughts to paper right now . So I will just leave it as a very appreciative thank you to all of you who care enough to think about me.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
We really care about you my friend. Always not to far away if you want or need to reach out for a listening ear or just to vent❤️
@WorkingitThrough2
I appreciate your kindness and I would reach out but I’m just too stubborn and won’t because I don’t want to add my negativity on to anyone else’s plate. That is something so deeply ingrained in me that it actually pains me to not be able to do so.
I know I shouldn’t be this way and people like you are genuine and true in your desire to listen. I have listened to thousands of people throughout my life tell me their stories of struggle and hardship. I never prodded or suggested that I wanted to hear them , I just happened to be at the right time and place for them. I have been in the public eye in customer service most of my life and this has helped shut down my openness and willingness to dump my problems on others who are dealing with their own issues and struggles.
Even though their opening up to me may have helped them, I felt like I was always getting everyone else’s burdens dumped onto me. The light slowly getting dimmer and dimmer until I was completely invisible in the darkness of my own misery.
I really do appreciate the kindness you show me, Thank you for being you.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
No words are necessary. Just drop me an emoji that lets me know you are ok😊
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
Hello, I hope you are doing ok 👍send me emoji
@WorkingitThrough2
same old thing here, how about you?