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Eva’s Crazy Mind
justmeeva January 21st
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i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP April 12th
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but maybe it’s okay. maybe it doesn’t matter. maybe it’ll just be easier that way. maybe. 

justmeeva OP April 12th
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i know exactly what i’m gonna say before i leave. i have it all planned. not yet, but soon. 

justmeeva OP April 12th
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away. 

LoveMyMoonflowers April 12th
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@justmeeva

*sits here quietly*

justmeeva OP April 12th
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@LoveMyMoonflowers 

glad you’re back, glad you’re here 🩷

LoveMyMoonflowers April 12th
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@justmeeva

💜

justmeeva OP April 13th
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still pretty much “away”. still. 

justmeeva OP April 13th
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tw.

aww how lovely to see that even online tests tell me i’m highly ******** 😊❤️

justmeeva OP April 13th
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but who cares. 

justmeeva OP April 13th
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i’ll use the oncoming break to prepare. 

justmeeva OP April 13th
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i’m not real. 

justmeeva OP April 13th
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two questions. how, and when. 

justmeeva OP April 13th
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wow it’s terrifying isn’t it.

justmeeva OP April 13th
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“you’re like a mother to me”. 

how am i supposed to let go of someone like that?

justmeeva OP April 13th
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those words haunt me. 

justmeeva OP April 14th
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***..

justmeeva OP April 14th
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i can’t even *** sleep because-

justmeeva OP April 14th
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they came to my dreams.. my classmates.. and it was fun and awesome and the feeling of belonging - all the *** feelings i can’t have are you *** kidding me

justmeeva OP April 14th
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i wanna go..

justmeeva OP April 14th
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i need to get this dream out of my head i need to

justmeeva OP April 14th
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tears

justmeeva OP April 14th
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i was.. happy in the dream. or okay at least

justmeeva OP April 14th
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why do you have to do this to me life

justmeeva OP April 14th
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why are you so desperately trying to get rid of me

justmeeva OP April 14th
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well, it’s working anyway..

justmeeva OP April 14th
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i really, really wanna go..

justmeeva OP April 14th
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tw. 

“i’ll stay 14 forever”

justmeeva OP April 14th
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ironically, “eva” means life.

justmeeva OP April 14th
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rain. one of the few good things in this world. 

justmeeva OP April 14th
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oh cool. 

justmeeva OP April 14th
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you’d think the school break would be nice and you could finally be alone and do your *** but no, you gotta clean the whole house and for company, you can have some men who are gonna switch and redo the floor of the whole *** house. 

justmeeva OP April 14th
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seriously can’t delay it just a few *** weeks?

justmeeva OP April 14th
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i’m telling you every time i have anything nice in my life it gets taken or ruined ***- 

justmeeva OP April 14th
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i’m so *** done why am i even hoping anything will work out the way i want it to 

justmeeva OP April 14th
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it never *** does

justmeeva OP April 14th
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my mom might’ve been really close to finding my notebook.

justmeeva OP April 14th
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but she didn’t. i’d know if she did. 

justmeeva OP April 14th
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also, i’m staying home monday and tuesday, wednesday is the first day of the break. i’m pretending to be sick. started today. refused a snack, saying i don’t feel very good. it’s going well. i think. 

justmeeva OP April 15th
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i *** saw him in my dream again

justmeeva OP April 15th
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why

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