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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP January 23rd

oh wait, i might have a solution, how bout sleep? it is 4am anyway… lol. i don’t wanna go to sleep tho. i don’t want to stop listening to music. but… i’m afraid i have to eventually. eugh why am i so complicated? sleep’s an escape, why am i not using it? ykw, i can try. goodnight and good luck… me. 

justmeeva OP January 23rd

not looking forward to waking up again tomorrow tho. but what other choice do i have. 

Themaninblackxxx January 23rd

Are you borderline? Sounds like it

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justmeeva OP January 23rd

@Themaninblackxxx

i’m not diagnosed with anything because i’ve never been to anyone who could diagnose me in the first place lol. i looked it up and gotta admit that many traits or “symptoms” sure are familiar. i’ve never even thought i could have anything that can be diagnosed, i always thought it’s just life lol- well that’s interesting to discover. 

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Themaninblackxxx January 23rd

@justmeeva

Yes I had/have it so thats why I said so because your posts sound familiar to me like thats how I think


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justmeeva OP January 23rd

haven’t even started and already overwhelmed by the amount of schoolwork i need to get done today lol. 

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justmeeva OP January 23rd

why.   can’t.   i.   focus. 

justmeeva OP January 23rd

oml eva you know what you have to do just start it already

justmeeva OP January 23rd

it shouldn’t be so hard. 

justmeeva OP January 23rd

i’m probably crazy. 

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justmeeva OP January 23rd

here we go again. my mind’s been set loose. oh boy. *sigh*

justmeeva OP January 23rd

what’s wrong with me. 

justmeeva OP January 23rd

i can’t do this i can’t i can’t i can’t 

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justmeeva OP January 23rd

but i can’t not do this either aghh

justmeeva OP January 23rd

stupid stupid stupid. 

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justmeeva OP January 23rd

no no no i can’t start crying over this.. it’s literally nothing complicated why is it overwhelming.. *** *** ***

justmeeva OP January 23rd

i’m just watching time pass lol. 

justmeeva OP January 23rd

so it has been about an hour of trying to convince myself to do at least  s o m e t h i n g… didn’t work out. 👍