Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
she said that i “just spend all my days doing nothing by choice”. that i “just self sabotage”. mhm mom. mhm.
mom: “do you need help with the school work?”
me: *nods slightly*
mom: *lectures about how she’s so tired (lol.), would rather sleep (ah sleep, that funny thing.) than deal with me, that she had a hard day (yes me too except my reasons aren’t valid) and how i just do nothing all day and then complain once she’s home (as if it was just that)*
me: “nevermind, i don’t need help.”
mom: *offended* *sits by me and basically forces her help on me (xD) so i go nonresponsive mode because all my responses would’ve been “talking back”* *starts blaming me for additional stuff bc why not* *finally leaves after saying the things i poster above*
<3 <3 <3
i’m sorry for coping “like the rest of the world”. i’m sorry for struggling in the first place, “like the rest of the world”. or pretending to struggle, would that be more fair? i’m sorry for “just doing what the rest of the world does because it’s trendy“. i’m sorry for doing absolutely everything wrong. i’m really sorry.
i kinda wanted to say “you’re really bad at being a mom to a teenager btw, just saying” lmao. it’s true tho.
