Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
ok so uh pe is supposed to start in 10min and i’m in the changing room in the building where we usually do pe but i don’t see anyone else and we’re supposed to do pe outside today but idk if we’re going there together or if they’re already there or what so uhmm
that one boy in my class, “the class clown”, who can be very reasonable if he wants to, we were in pe and he said “could you move faster” and seemed generally idk if tired, a little frustrated in pe specifically. guess what my silent reaction was. i wanted to say “is everything okay? like generally”. i wasn’t even mad. one thing about my school is that during lunch break, you either eat lunch or go outside. he has kind of protested against going outside lately, asking to stay in the classroom. i’m genuinely curious tho, is he okay? but me being me, i don’t know if i’ll ever actually talk to him, ask him. i don’t know.
i hate the heat. the summer. the sun. the light. hate.