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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP May 21st

i don’t really understand how nobody shows even a tiny bit of care or concern. if someone’s been having this kind of dead look to them for quite a long time now, like- what goes through their minds? i don’t understand. i would’ve noticed. 

justmeeva OP May 21st

and in case it sounds like i’m “seeking attention” or something, no. if you knew me, you’d know that i absolutely hate attention. it’s not seeking attention it’s seeking help. somewhat at least. silently. 

justmeeva OP May 21st

self hatred and self consciousness is just massive right now 

justmeeva OP May 21st

a random stranger joined me at the swings for a moment lol. luckily didn’t say anything. 

justmeeva OP May 21st

tw. 

they talked about s*****e. 

justmeeva OP May 21st

how they’re so tired of school. 

justmeeva OP May 21st

tw.

the most painful way to yk.

justmeeva OP May 21st

they have no idea. 

justmeeva OP May 21st

they just casually joked about su.

justmeeva OP May 21st

i don’t wanna be here i don’t wanna be here i don’t wanna be here