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iloveyouxx March 17th

hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnā€™t look like mešŸ§makes sense doesnā€™t itšŸ˜›since there can only be one *me*āœØone of a kind now arent IšŸ˜/sar. one out of 8118835999āœØšŸŒ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youā€™re also one of a kindšŸ’– sorrysorry haha :PšŸ¤im just messing around xDšŸ’žalso itā€™s 2am- but shush no snitchingšŸ¤«Iā€™ll sleep in a whilešŸ˜when Iā€™m feeling a bit more sane :>šŸ˜›šŸ©·

wanted to have my own space.šŸ’œ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.šŸ’™

to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šŸ’œplease dont lurk here.šŸ©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šŸ’™but please be respectfulšŸ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :PšŸ’› yā€™all get crazy nosy haha- itā€™s alright.šŸ’›nothing too interesting will be here anywayšŸ’›if you would like to come in and be supportive itā€™s completely okiešŸ’›but please donā€™t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšŸ’›because Iā€™d still like this to be just my space ^-^šŸ’›)

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iloveyouxx OP August 12th

somewhere online a lot of people have been talking bad about cups and showing screenshots and memes etc

and one of my best friends was in one of the screenshots itā€™s so horrible.

and there are such horrible and disgusting Ā stuff happening

a girl was getting stalked and saā€™d she met her abuser on cups which isnā€™t the sites fault ofcourse but ugh ew

so many screenshots from the rooms with the craziest things said in themĀ 

someone made a whole series just about how horrible the environment is here

and Iā€™ve watched videos about why people left

one sort of mean meme targeted at someone on here

Iā€™m not agreeing itā€™s just, sad

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unassumingEyes August 12th

@iloveyouxx ive seen those šŸ˜¬ i dont think cups is perfect, but i feel like people give it way too little credit. Its definitely better than our irl society imo anyways-

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iloveyouxx OP August 12th

@unassumingEyes

i was caught up writing a long post in another tab sorry T^T no I agree and youā€™re right our society irl isā€¦amazing :>/sar wonderful.Ā 

some people come on here to hurt but a lot come to helpšŸ’–and sometimes I think about how everyone here is still everyone irl. itā€™s hopeful but most of the time I think about it when stuff is going on in rooms and it feels like something that would happen irl or at schoolĀ 

cups isnā€™t perfect but I think being here is worth it and there are still people helping and people being helped and new friends and people that care about you so, worth itā¤ļø

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unassumingEyes August 12th

@iloveyouxx Agreed ā¤ļø short answer, but you said what i think literally xD and yeah, irl society has...work to do. Alot of work. Tons of work. Just break everything down and start over atp-

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iloveyouxx OP August 14th

I had all the devices here hidden and no oneā€™s allowed to let me use theirs anymore. I didnā€™t do anything I guess itā€™s just that Iā€™ll somehow find a way to endanger myself?

sorry for all the late replies idk when Iā€™ll be able to come on again but Iā€™ve been tryingĀ 

my aunt sent my device over to my dad because she couldnā€™t fix itĀ 

my dad got fired from his second job in this area and apparently thereā€™s another situation with the case but no oneā€™s really gonna tell me about it. I donā€™t wanna know I guess. the case officially closes tomorrow

anyywhoo :p itā€™s okay. I just wanted to take the chance to come on here and say all this

iloveyouxx OP August 17th

I slept at (almost) 2pm yesterdayĀ 

and woke up at 1:03am today :ā€™)

thats 11 hours without being in pain. or being hungry or bothered or scared.Ā 

felt so surreal waking up then I didnā€™t know where I was

I wanna go back to sleep.ļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æļ»æ

iloveyouxx OP August 17th

ice died today.

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unassumingEyes August 17th

@iloveyouxx šŸ˜”šŸ©·

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iloveyouxx OP August 17th

@unassumingEyes

everytime I try typing I start cryingand I don't want to be sad or anything it's just a lot for me I guess. ice was really special.ā¤ļø

thank youšŸ©·šŸ’™for being here and :p I was gonna say I could really use having someone to talk to and then I can't really talk, but thank youšŸ¤you make me feel less alone šŸ¤

@mytwistedsoul

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mytwistedsoul August 19th

@iloveyouxx *offers safe hugs* šŸ’™ It's ok to be sad. I'm sorry that you are of course but it's understandable to feel upset. Animals are special. Tbh I like animals more than I do most people - which sounds kind of horrible I guessĀ 

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unassumingEyes August 19th

@mytwistedsoul i dont think that sounds horrible šŸ¤” people are, to put it nicely, very...complex, in many different ways. Animals are relatively easier i guess you could say.Ā 

@iloveyouxx *offers hugs and pancakes šŸ„žšŸ„ž*Ā 

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mytwistedsoul August 17th

@iloveyouxx Oh no! This is such sad news šŸ˜ž Ice was such a pretty cat. I bet Ice's buddy is feeling alittle lost too

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iloveyouxx OP August 17th

1:47am.

i thought it was later honestly

iloveyouxx OP August 17th

the girl I talked about before the one that was involved in all that dramaĀ 

Iā€™m switching lead classes with her

iloveyouxx OP August 17th

Iā€™ve been really really trying to avoid thinking about school

and everyone kept bringing it up or reminding me all summer break

and someone just reminded me to be annoying. itā€™s not funny whyā€™re you ruining my summer break when it was never even good in the first placeĀ :')

but um. apparently the girls been messaging me and every time she would my dad would delete the messages and I just genuinely kept convincing myself of well stuff and I mean sheā€™s not really a ā€œgoodā€ person and if she did make new friends sheā€™d leave with no second thoughts and she doesnā€™t actually care about you at all and she makes sure you know it but you canā€™t really not love her I mean I love her sheā€™s my friend and she didnā€™t deserve any of the things that happened to her so I like being there for her even if Iā€™m being used to temporarily make her feel less alone. I care about her. sheā€™s my friend :ā€™)Ā 

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iloveyouxx OP August 17th
we talked yesterday and today when everyone was asleep.Ā 
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iloveyouxx OP August 17th

i donā€™t know why but the way she talks is so funny to me :p everything I say sheā€™d just reply with (in caps) ā€œrightttā€ ā€œfrrrā€ ā€œstopppā€ ā€œreallllā€ and for some odd reason when people talk like that itā€™s just funny to me as in

not them but more like :p the fact they talk like that :pĀ 


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iloveyouxx OP August 17th

she makes me feel less alone too.

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iloveyouxx OP August 17th

it makes me sad thoĀ 

I donā€™t know.

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iloveyouxx OP August 17th

my grandfathers in the hospital.

iloveyouxx OP August 17th

feel like Iā€™m existing wrong.