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in the wonders of my mind💗.
iloveyouxx March 17th
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hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷

wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙

to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)

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iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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scared.

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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I don't really like to go there 'cause I don't know how to leave
And once I'm in, I'm in there deep, so it gets kinda hard to breathe
I'm all alone again, my so-called friends just left me here to bleed.
Now I'm laid out on the pavement hoping someone hears me scream.
Each incision represents a certain secret that I keep
Yeah, I make bad decisions and I don't know how to grieve
And though you behaved the cruelest, I'm the one that truly loses
So for me this feels so useless, why did you have to do this to me?
iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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So what are you supposed to do when you don't wanna wak.e up?
When you feel so *** hopeless that you just don't give a ***
Sick from being up all night, reminisce in twisted ***
Wishing I did something different, wondering why the *** I didn't

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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Hyperventilating 'til I have no breath left
But I'm just adding to the weight of the bricks left on my chest
The secrets eat up slowly 'til I bleed
And I hate everything I am
Because this wasn't how it's supposed to be

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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Now I'm lost all alone in a sea of sorrow
No one cares about me, so I don't care about tomorrow
When they say they wanna help me, it just feels like a trap
My mind is damaged, how the *** do you fix that?


iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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Somebody once tried to tell me
Don't depend on anybody
Yet I'm begging you for help
So, won't you save me from myself?
Somebody, come save me, please
I'm reaching for your hand to hold
To let me know I'm not alone
Please anybody, try to stop me.

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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So just back up and give me a second to breathe
See I just need a minute, I don't want you to leave
But this could have been avoided had you just *** warned me
Didn't scorn me and insist to make me out like a liar


iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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Leave me to burn in the fire as I sat there and scorched
Consuming everything around me like a human torch
'Cause only then when you feel like you can't take anymore pain
Will you gain some perspective and just admit you've gone insane?


iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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So what are you supposed to do when you don't wanna wak.e up?
When you feel so *** hopeless that you just don't give a ***
Sick from being up all night, reminisce in twisted ***
Wishing I did something different, wondering why the *** I didn't
Hyperventilating 'til I have no breath left
But I'm just adding to the weight of the bricks left on my chest
The secrets eat up slowly 'til I bleed
And I hate everything that I am because this wasn't how it's supposed to be
iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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I shoudn't take things so serious
I don't think they mean any harm
But it would sicken you too
If it happened to you
And you had to relive every part

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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here come the flashbacks

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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the panic attacks

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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how long does that *** last?

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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I’m losin myself by the day see

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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and I know you all think that I’m scary,

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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that the demons that show up

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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at the foot of my bed

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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are just figments from memories

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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that *** up my head

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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them night terrors ain’t nothin

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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but a real bad dream

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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so quit bein a god damn drama queen.

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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I seal myself

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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in a sound proof room 

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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so no one can hear how loud I scream.

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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but you don’t think it’s as bad as it seems

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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cause you’ve never delt

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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with PTSD

iloveyouxx OP April 10th
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…

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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I’m there TvT

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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I fell asleep :P

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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my brother woke me up at 9am-

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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I got 2 hours but o well.-

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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this is a.. weird :') feeling.

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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I’m so damn obsessed with this place TvT-

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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It’s so indescribable-

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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 the blankets remind me of waves-

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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theyre so soft omigoddd TvT~

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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I’m so obsessed with the hallway carpets too ;-; 

iloveyouxx OP April 11th
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they’re ac so gorgeous what T^T-

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