in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{I went off topic.}

_{but…yeah. tbh. I care a lot more about my hair getting messed up than about the blood.}

_TW

_{it’s not a lotta blood.} 

_{but either way}

_{how I look matters a lot more than how I feel.-}

_…

_{I’m so alone.-} 

_{do you ever just. look over everyone else’s space/corner/solace and just realize how really *** alone you are.}

_{"you said that you would be there but you’re there when you wanna be-"}

_{skydxddy lyrics are just a whole other thing :')-}

_{I went through each page}

_{of their space. each one had someone. three+ people for that matter-}

_{back from breaking down in the bathroom :D✨}

I remember someone saying

_{that crying in the bathroom was disliked in Islam-}  

_..

_{I was- forced to take a shower today.-}

_{my whole body’s red.-}

_{or bleeding.}

except my.. right? arm-it’s just blue-

_{when the red calmed down a bit I felt like I’ve gotten a different skin color ;-;-}

_{It got even paler-}

you’d think my skin couldn’t get any paler-

_{🧛🏻‍♀️rar vampire vibes whisbsjsjaj ;-;-}

_{I’ve been called whitewashed before. which- even I think is a lil too far-☠️}

_{I finished all my hw-}

_{using chatgpt-}

_:D/sar

_{I just needa study for english and history}

_{and math… ;-;}

_{but- English and history are hard enough as they are so cross the math for now T^T}

_{I need an essay for history}

_{and I needa write a sinister story for English-}

_{my dad locked himself in his room.}

_{Hopelessly devoted to the ones who have fallen
Socially disconnected, so we never use our callin's
Projectin' all our feelings
Yet, neglect to try to change
And don't do a thing, but try to take away the pain}

And, watch the world, as it burns
And, we're the ones settin' matches
Never actually learn, just casually walkin' past it
Never think to mention, and nothin' catches our attention
'Til they take our sons and daughters, far away in a casket

We're taught how to slaughter
We're not born out of hate
We're just forced to serve another, in a calculated way
Why do we go against nature?
Why do we trust what man made?
Praise it, as goes up, then run away as it caves
And if it's plastered on the news
Everybody's here to stay

I guess we’re complicated humans 

Who were raised that way

***
That must be it

_{Yeah, this life that i'm livin', it ain't the best
If it's all about perspective
I've gotta change it, I guess
And if I'm being honest
Sometimes, I wish I was de.ad
I've got a bunch of people that live inside of my head}

_{And I don't know if this is real, or if it's fake or not
But every night I go to sleep, I pray that it would stop
Sometimes, I wish that I was different, just so that I'm not
The person that I am inside, but it'll never stop}