in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{agguisfugyigysitfgtusyioyhouaojhoajguyshyitxviyftsghioyaiouhjoijhwhjwhu-}

_{I’ve had a realization :D/unrelated}

_{wait I zoned out ;-;}

_{o right. I forgot what wearing short sleeves/shorts felt like :') or well anything that wasn’t hoodies and leggings.}

_{I had to wear a short sleeved shirt today.} 

_{to see how it looks for when we travel-}

_{it actually felt kinda…free..}

🩷

_{160 ;-;}

. soooo now I can get it down to 1- which I won’t cos that’d be impossible to see- this is just 5. and now also 160 :D whoopwhoop✨✨😛

_{my brother threw something at my head.}

_{I don’t even think I know what happened.-}

_{I just asked to see something in an app on the device he was using.}

_{and he was ignoring me ofc-}

_{doing whatever *** he does.}

_{so I kept asking.}

_{i was saying please and everything it’s not like I was bein rude-}

_{but he just kept smiling down at his screen nd pretending he couldn’t hear me.}

_{fast forward to when he said no and I asked why. he said I was mean or r smth☠️and I just asked literally what I did :’)} 

_{how tf am I mean-}

_{but I was just asking nd still being really kind nd all I wasn’t being defensive or aggressive or anything-}

_{he called me this word. which I won’t mention. :’)}

_{but I was just like- what did I do.. I was just asking why he called me that cos I genuinely didn’t and never done anything to him- is my existence just a problem to everyone atp?} 

_{will someone just please *** kill me so no one has to put up with my presence for any longer?}

_{no cos see I’m clearly a problem.-}

_{my *existance*}

_{my *being*}

_{the fact that I’m unconsciously breathing right now-}

_{the fact my hearts still beating in my chest.-}

_{forget globalization let’s talk bout the amount of oxygen this *** is takin up}

as unfortunate as my being is I can’t km.s .

_{really I’ve tried.}

_{I’ve tried really *** hard.}

_{I can’t.}

_{clearly a lotta people want me dead.}

_{I want me dead.}

_{but obv life bein a ***.-}

_{I’m sorry.}

_{.. I’m sorry.}

……