in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{you lied.}

_{that was- :')}

. jump

_{my head-}

_{there’re so many things- that I could talk about-}

I just can’t.

_{what’s the point}

_{it’s- dark.}

_{surprisingly it does tend to be dark at 3am.}

_/sar☠️.

_{I’m sorry. I meant me tho.}

_{It’s dark.} 

_{Im dark.}

_{I feel like I’m my own bully.}

_{I’ve never been called "ugly" but I feel like I have.}

_{now that I think of it- I’ve never been called anything negative- well a couple like hold on..-}

_{I’ve been called an idiot. by this dyslexic girl-}

_{dyslexia doesn’t define your abilities or knowledge or any of that}

_{but her personality☠️there are so many stories I have with this girl thatre just unexplainable. she’s horrible.-}

_{so yuh I’m fine and okay w saying she was one of the biggest *** of my life and had no right to judge me. plus we were drawing like *** you fr- /sorry ;-;}

_{but dya really think you can judge someone’s knowledge on a drawing? this *** was *** at drawing herself she was *** at everything- okayokay no sorry I’m just being mean ;-; but that hurt-..and a lotta other things she’s said to me}

_{they hurt too.}

_{so that’s one.}

_{then there’s that autistic kid that told me I look like I’ve been in a fire.}

_{which boy☠️you just insecure-}

_{I know I’m not perfect but that like- :') no.}

then there’s all the "look at her" comments

_{like exactly- look at me. it’s better than looking at you.}

.IM SORRY-

_{I’m- I’m so aggressive rn TvT I was just like- in such a depressing mood what happened -}

_{but idk. some people just really desperately and necessarily need a slap of common sense.-}

_{my dads waking up-}

_{~*** iiiiimmmm screeewwwwweeeeeddddd :DDD~}

_{nvm(?) idk. I think he’s awake but won’t come out.}

_{ah and there’s the random stabbing pain :>}

_{I..I feel like if I close my eyes rn I’m not opening them again-/gen.}

_{I feel like I’m on my death bed-}

_{that pain. right in my heart. the on and off pain.} 

_{I never know how to describe it.} 

_{somehow an alarm feels fitting. but the feeling is something I can’t describe-}

_{but. I just feel like I’m dying.}