in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{not childhood.}

_{just.. moments from when I was a kid I guess.}

_{not necessarily negative.}

_{I was.- a weird kid T^T}

_{me and my friends were watching this ***. on my friends phone ofc. I never had a phone.}

_{social media vid** just scrolling-}

_{and I dunno if anyone remembers this but :')}

_{we were sitting after school then. we used to wait for our parents to pick us up- I used to go by car too :P}

_{"You taught a lesson to me that I had to learn
And I'm so sorry 'cause you let our bridges burn
I said, "I loved you" and I wish I never did
I swear to God, I swear to God, you stupid ***"}

_{the "video" basically said} 

_{"ex: I wanna get back together"}

_{then it showed each zodiac sign and how they’d reply and the audio went along with it}

_e.x:

_{"leo: you taught a lesson that I had to learn"}

_{etc :P}

_{i realize how cringy it is now btw😭just describing it lmao- (this was so weird to type ;-;)}

_{the song of that audios name is.."suicidal" by YNW melly :')}

_{so. my friends were singing that I guess. (we were 7 in 2nd grade dont judge :>)}

_{and yeah. 7 year olds had phones :') I got made fun of a bunch for not having one when I was 8.-}

_{I guess it’s just my country.}

_{so I went home and googled the little bit of lyrics I still remembered.}

_{well not googled- I was on utube- idk why I’m bein so specific- ;-;xD} 

_{but yeah. I found it. and the whole song was honestly really :') just a whole other thing I guess.}

_{I didn’t even know what suicidal meant.}

_{Idk why I remember so much about this.-}

_{I remember listening to it over and over again.}

_{and honestly. I had no idea what any of the lyrics meant. I didn’t even know what "lyrics" meant cos my brother told me it was like karaoke and till now idek what karaoke means-}

_{I remember that one day. when I was 8.}

_{I actually *realized* I never understood anything- any of it- and I still listened to it :')}

_{I searched up what suicidal meant.}

_{I should prolly put a} TW _;-;

_{I had to go support but}

_{wait is my face bleeding-}

_{hm brb.}

_{honestly I don’t feel like looking in the mirror :')}

_{It feels like so longs passed.}

_{tho it says one day ago.-}

_{o and my face wasnt bleeding.}

_{my whole face just turned dark red and got bumpy. my aunt says I have an allergy which idk. it’s calmed down now tho.}

_{but I accidentally kinda. TW. ripped  :')} _{my skin kinda.}

_{on the right side of my face-}

_{it’s not that clear}

_{I could care less rn.}

_{couldn’t* pparently that’s the right term-}

_{It hurts.}

_{it goes pretty deep ngl  :') idk how I did that to myself.}

_{but. o well.}