in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{responses are..}

_{ngl. to be honest. they make me wanna k.ms. it sounds dramatic but "oh my god oh my god did he (I won’t put this here obv but basically asked if someone did something *really* inappropriate and gross to me. I was telling them about getting R’d. they just smiled wide and loved it cos it was great gossip.)}

_{my hairs gotten even worse now.}

_{no one at schools ever seen anything but my hands and face- some of my neck but that’s it. on picture day we have to take off our jumper.}

_{last picture day it was period 3. third lesson. after break}

_{I barely had any time to freak out-}

_TW

_{so I ended up cutting my arm *bad*. it bled everywhere- and it was less than 5 minutes before our picture.}

_{till now I still have a mark from that.}

_{I remember being so stressed out. cos we had to take off our jumpers before the pic and all the girls in my class were there.}

_{boys were outside but could still see through this glass wall kinda.}

_{I just hid at the back behind everyone else- got away with not taking it off at first.}

_{I ended up going completely last. but people were still there either way.}

_{only one girl noticed my arm and I just said I got injured badly.}

_{got called right after tho}

_{I was shaking so hard by the time I was infront of the camera-}

_{and teachers and camera dud kept telling me to relax-}

_{like I’m relaxing☠️/I wasn’t} 

_{my dad-}

 _{nvm nvm-}

 _{it’s okay it’s okay it’s okay it’s okay-}

_{he’s still calling his gf…}

_{I just got scared.}

_{but yeah like I was saying. I just pulled out the fakest most forced smile I had.} 

_then- 

_{ofc while I was taking the pic- since I was the last person- they decided to let all the boys in☠️}

_{and this one kid. he’s older than me but- let’s just call him- shadow.}

_{I hate him so much omg :')/(I dont)}

_{guys in my class are so damn chaotic. but he was just staring at me. I just-ugh-😭}

_{then I was in a rush to leave cos he was freaking me so I accidentally took the wrong jumper-}

_{and this girl which I literally asked if it was hers right after starting acting all 🥺 and being so fricking dramatic u *** calm down it’s really not that deep- then her fake *** best friend starting looking at me all like- her face is so indescribable like what do you want me to do😭I know I sound mean but they take every situation as a moment to- do whatever they do :') I dont wanna talk about this girl tho tbh cos that just brings back- memories :') and feelings. I dont want.}

_{then my voice was shaking and I begged the teacher to go change- ofc we had to have math☠️}

_{but she let me. and shadow was still staring at me while I was wearing my jumper the first time ofc☠️he had to look back at me and all his friends were trying to talk to him.} 

_{he’s not in my math class at least tho.} 

_{we have so much like unknown drama TvT well I have drama w him :P I literally have no idea what goes through his mind while he stares at me all the time-}

_{I forgot what happened this day but I remember we had geography and after we left that class I "accidentally" pushed him and walked right past him. I was mad but I genuinely forgot why-}

_{I hate him so much :')}

_{but at the same time I wouldn’t like him to leave. I dont want him to. he’ll be in a different school after summer break so that’s like 3 months left w him in our lead.} 

_{I still remember when we talked in music😭fml. :>}

_{(we’re gonna call the (evil popular cruel disgusting mean selfish bully) classmate- venom.)}