@amiableBunny4016 space
Hi everyone,
Im gonna be posting here every week. So.. you may or may not have seen my poems across 7cups or my writing. Anyways, if you have not then thats okay.
Let me introduce myself. You can call me Bunny/Violet/Bun Bun. I am from the UK and I am 13 years old. So I came here to inspire, to love, to show kindness and to be respected. The biggest power on this planet is love and kindness. Humanity is in a state of disaster. Panic. Hatred. But hate never beats love. Because love has more power than hate.
I was bullied for over 6 years. I learnt alot across the years. I learnt to overcome. Learnt to love. Learnt to forgive. I am human. I am not a robot. I am not a stranger anymore. I am me. And if people wanna judge me for who I am then I say.... I forgive them. And I know that they can change.
Like Martin Luther King once said, “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”
Humanity is changing. The world is awakening. And more and more people are realising the reality. The reality of social media. The reality of trauma. The reality of life. This is who we are. And together we form as 1.
We live in a big world. Scary. Isn't it? But its to beautiful. Its so beautiful how the sun rises. How then stars glimmer every night. How the wind howls. Isn't it? and we dont realise how beautiful it really is until..... we think about it. Think deeply about it and you will find how beautiful it is.
If your feeling alone right now. just know that.....
Your strong. Even if you dont believe it.
Your worthy. Even if you dont believe it.
You can get through this.
I am here for you.
We are here for you.
Thanks for reading, This is me, Bunny and this is my world.
Take care,
Bunny
Makes me think that a leopard doesn't change its spots. I know they're your family. But you know what? F*vk them. You don't need that crap. You ARE a good daughter. She's just to sh*tty of a parent to see it 💙
@mytwistedsoul
i'm sorry. but is she feeling pity for herself? what has god written in my fate? i hope no other child has to live the fate i have to. all these tears, all these yells and screams, all this love i poured out, i poured out everything i could even when dad was here. man, i cant help but.... long for somewhere to call home.
@amiableBunny4016 She could be. Let her feel sorry for herself. Narcissistic self centered. You take care of you. You just worry about you ok? You e gone through h3ll these past months. A lot of it was because of her. So let her wallow in her self pity. Take care of you. God only knows what BS she was filling your brother's head with while you were in the hospital. Do what you need to do to survive the now. Until you can get the h3ll out of that house and away from them all
@mytwistedsoul
i won't last long anyways. just a few years to go. and then i can be gone somewhere. dang man, i didn't expect this. i didnt even expect an apology, i just thought she might treat me better yk. she might calm down and all that. but noo. *** no. lol. oh well.... guess just another night to cry myself to sleep and mourn whatever is left of this house.
i don't feel pity.
i don't feel sad.
i don't feel frustrated.
i don't feel depressed.
i'm fine.
i'm a great liar <3
@amiableBunny4016 Just wanted to check in with you 💙 How are things?
@mytwistedsoul
just the same old. got beaten last night... she decided to strangle me because apperantly everything was my fault. lol. <3
@amiableBunny4016 that's absolutely horrible Bunny. ☹️ You don’t deserve any of that sh*t.
F**k her.
@amiableBunny4016 Jesus she didn't waste any time. She couldn't even go 24 hours with out laying her hands on you
@mytwistedsoul Leopards really don’t change their spots do they…..
@LoveMyMoonflowers No they really don't. I fool myself allowing alittle hope thinking that this time it might be different but it never is 😔
@mytwistedsoul exactly… yk no matter how many times they say sorry or cry about it in front of us.. they don’t actually change anything. :') ugh….. 😞
@LoveMyMoonflowers @mytwistedsoul
dont stress about it guys. i'm fine. i just had to hold my breath for a few seconds whilst she strangled me... i lived. you can mourn it when i die. i'm all good!
now i hate to force you to smile! but come on.. smileee! you guys are da best!
@amiableBunny4016 🥺 and you’re the best too bunny… we love you and we are worrying about you because we care about you. Your our dear, dear, sweet precious friend. :')
I do mourn. i'm glad you survived that *** of hers - your a smart girl. But i mourn the fact that the house isn't the safe home it should be. because that is what you deserve, safety. and i mourn the fact that life keeps throwing *** at you you don't deserve. It hurts to know things happen to you bunny…. your my bestest friend here. it really kills me.
:') Hugs if okay… 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sometimes i mourn my own safety too. sometimes, i pray (if there is a god out there) that god takes me away from this world quicker, its a sin to even breathe in this house. i just want to go see my dad. i just want to go to my dad Ni. No matter how bad he was, he was never this bad.
He loved me. Yes, he will crazy and violent but he would never do such horrible things like handing me over to another person and ruining my life.
i just want to go to him.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
just pray i can go to my dad quicker.
@amiableBunny4016 i don't know if there is a god out there but if there is he kind of needs to get his priorities straight…
i'd rather pray that you and your brother can leave that house and find safety somehow. :')
@mytwistedsoul
corpses dont feel pain.
i kind of am one at this point. and i do not have any link, relationship or identity in this house.
@amiableBunny4016 One day - I hope she gets what's coming to her. I know it doesn't help - I didn't have any of that where I grew up either. If you can just avoid her
@mytwistedsoul
eh, its not possible to avoid her. once you live under the same roof, always going to be around her.
but eh, its not a big deal. i can live. its not the first time someone's done this to me.
@amiableBunny4016 That's kind of what i thought too. if you tried to avoid her there's no telling how she'd react tbh…… ☹️
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its not that easy... if it was that easy, i would have done that method a long time ago.
@amiableBunny4016 That is true.
i got through my whole childhood without her. i dressed myself. i fed myself. i helped myself. i got through school without her. i got good grades without her. she wasn't there. she wasn't there to celebrate or hold my hand, or help me. and you know... some day if i live, i will get a house without her, i'll get my own life and a job and she will be here *** her life up and she will sit here and she will sob and she will cry because it would have hit her hard the most.
that her *** daughter was successful.
did she ever think what it would be like when her children leave this house? of course not. she will probably find another broken man, who is just as broken as we are. and somehow *** herself up already, because i would have already left and got my *** together, and she would just be here putting another *** into her life.
and you know.... the men she put in my life, the *** she put me through, whatever trauma happend with me. the *** she put my brother through. i can forgive her for what she did to me because what the *** am i anyways? she can put me through all the tests she likes, but i'm fine with it. but i will never forgive for what she does to that little boy.
I'm hungry. I'm tired. I feel sick.
Yet I have no choice around her.
my awkwardness cannot get any worse than it already has
@amiableBunny4016 it's okie bun ❤️
i'm contemplating something that just feels wrong in my head.
@amiableBunny4016 (*no pressure at all* but Ni friend here if you want to talk about it friend) ❤️
@amiableBunny4016 What's on your mind Bunny?
