@amiableBunny4016 space
Hi everyone,
Im gonna be posting here every week. So.. you may or may not have seen my poems across 7cups or my writing. Anyways, if you have not then thats okay.
Let me introduce myself. You can call me Bunny/Violet/Bun Bun. I am from the UK and I am 13 years old. So I came here to inspire, to love, to show kindness and to be respected. The biggest power on this planet is love and kindness. Humanity is in a state of disaster. Panic. Hatred. But hate never beats love. Because love has more power than hate.
I was bullied for over 6 years. I learnt alot across the years. I learnt to overcome. Learnt to love. Learnt to forgive. I am human. I am not a robot. I am not a stranger anymore. I am me. And if people wanna judge me for who I am then I say.... I forgive them. And I know that they can change.
Like Martin Luther King once said, “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”
Humanity is changing. The world is awakening. And more and more people are realising the reality. The reality of social media. The reality of trauma. The reality of life. This is who we are. And together we form as 1.
We live in a big world. Scary. Isn't it? But its to beautiful. Its so beautiful how the sun rises. How then stars glimmer every night. How the wind howls. Isn't it? and we dont realise how beautiful it really is until..... we think about it. Think deeply about it and you will find how beautiful it is.
If your feeling alone right now. just know that.....
Your strong. Even if you dont believe it.
Your worthy. Even if you dont believe it.
You can get through this.
I am here for you.
We are here for you.
Thanks for reading, This is me, Bunny and this is my world.
Take care,
Bunny
@AvyIsKing
your in my thoughts buddy. Its been a very very long time. 💛oh yeah, and before you apologise for being gone for so long because i know that will be your response. its okay. its all okay. don't worry about it. *sits with you* i miss you so so so so so much and i know you were going through so much *** that you don't/didn't deserve. You were are still are the most beautiful and loving and caring person I've known. My first friend. My first family. My first buddy on 7cups. I will never ever ever forget you. 💛 You are awesome! hope your safe friend.
Bunny :)
yk what... i'm so *** tired of giving a damn about people bullying me and tell me to go to ***. my whole life is ***. my *** childhood is *** man. the messages i get and ***...the messages i have to send.. i read them day and night and think like bro was i bad friend or what to deserve all this... now everyone is talking *** about me... now they must be happy.... i have no time to think about anything man.....
nice. i will go when i want to go to ***. not now.
so am i.
i do know what its like. i'm sorry but you don't know my life story.
she just repeats the same things over and over again...this is what she told me ages ago too.
the same story.
5 days to go.... and i'm already stressing myself out.
@amiableBunny4016 5 days? Is break almost over? Did you block that "friend"? Not that I would consider that person a friend though. You don't have to answer any of these questions of course
💙
@mytwistedsoul
No. The break is far from over. One of my exam results come out on the 22nd so I'm counting down. Basically we do 1 of our GCSE exams this year and the rest next year and that defines where we go next in life lol. It's a bit complicated. And no I don't bother blocking. I like to read the messages when I'm bored. It's entertaining 😀
@amiableBunny4016 Oh! Cool! It sounds kind of complicated tbh. I bet you did great 💙 I can kind of understand not blocking. I reread some messages too sometimes - not so much because I find them entertaining but because they help remind me where I stand with some people
@mytwistedsoul
Most likely she is doing me a favour. she is just indirectly telling me she is nowhere near worth my time and basically just telling me that i can turn around and talk to the people that actually respect me. oh well... i wish her well.
i've missed you. i really hope your doing okay, or at least surviving friend. *sends love*
Bunny :)
@amiableBunny4016 You're right. It's her way of showing who she really is. I've come to this conclusion myself about some people. The pettiness and all that - the unnecessary meanness. I look at it now as - ok message received - you won't hear from me again
@mytwistedsoul
*sits with you* i'm glad your still here, i'm glad your surviving and that you have got through the last few days. And yes, sometimes surviving is painful. Sometimes it all breaks down and falls apart. Sometimes you hit rock bottom and your just tired of it all. I know its hard. I guess... its just life. Its just the ways we have to go through. In the meantime, I hope you remember that you mean so much to me and to so many people on here and I can't empathise how much you mean to me. I hope that we can get through this together somehow. Always here if you just wanna sit quietly together or you want to talk about something small or you just want to have fun.
I'm always there for a bit of fun or deep conversations, or just sitting with you. And yes, it might not help, but i hope and i pray that you find someone. just someone. that can understand you better and someone you can just have fun with or talk to about life. I know it doesn't take away all your pain and all your struggles. I wish there was more we could do. But its okay to express yourself sometimes and talk when you need it. If you need quiet time then thats equally okay.
I'm fine. I've just been going through stuff, but yk it is what it is. i'm just over it all.
*sitting with you* :)
@amiableBunny4016 You're always so sweet and kind to everyone. I wish that everyone that came into your life treated you with the same sweetness and kindness that you give to so many
@mytwistedsoul
I have a little sibling. You see.... i never like to complain because he is a part of my life after all. I love him. But i always craved for someone older, someone who would understand and hear me out. I always wished i wasn't the eldest to carry so much on my back and not have anyone to depend on. There was no one.
It seems like my wishes have come true. You are the big brother I never had. your so kind and loving and everything i could ever ask for. Thank you soul. for always being there through everything.
I hear you. Putting things into words are difficult especially feelings and emotions or things about our life. Its hard to make sense of how we are feeling and whats going on around us. I know sometimes we are in such a desolate, lonely place in our life, and we just feel empty. Like there is nothing to give or let go of, nothing to feel or understand, or put together. Its just all blank. Grieving so many things at once sounds like so much to deal with, i'm so so sorry soul. Your carrying so much pain and burden on you. I know grief is almost like the lights went out, and your trying to find your way through the dark.
Your trying to keep yourself safe in the midst of all this chaos in your mind and i'm so so proud of you. I know it sounds cringy and unhelpful but its okay to not quiet have the words for how your feeling. Its okay to not be ready to talk. Its okay to take a moment, and just be alone and quiet. Its okay to talk when your ready, and me or someone else will try to be there with open arms to sit by you.
haha. don't worry about how long it gets. honestly, i like reading what other people got to say otherwise my life gets boring not talking to people.
i'm all good. My life is pretty much the same as its always been. Screamind and yelling and hiding away. Oh well.. it is what it is after all.
take care of yourself too.
Love,
Bunny
@amiableBunny4016
hi bun, i know this isn't my place and i typically don't reply here but i just wanted you to know that being the older sibling and longing for someone older isn't uncommon. i really deeply feel exactly that longing and i know how hard it can be sometimes (': i'm so sorry that you feel like this and i know you care so so much for your little sibling, but remember to take some time to care for yourself too okay?
@amiableBunny4016 I used to wish for that too when I was a kid. Just to have someone to talk to - to go to. It sucked being the only kid. But you - you do carry alot of responsibility being big sister. I know it's not the same - I mean realistically it can't be the same because we're so far apart but I'm here - if you ever need an ear
Your reply made me smile. You'd be a pretty cool little sister 💙
Thank you. For being so open and understanding. It is alot like being in the dark. Other than you and a few others here there not many people in my life. Some days it feels like I'm the only person left alive in the world. And I know alot of it is my own fault because I keep to myself but it's just so dang hard to trust people to let them in. Even though I'm all grown up now - people still very much scare me at times. They're loud and obnoxious and aggressive and I just freeze. lol TMI 😅
Hiding is probably best. I used to do that alot. Try to stay out of sight so I didn't cross her mind. I'm so sorry you have to live in a house like that 💙 Just hang in there. Do the best you can to keep yourself safe and as soon as you can get the flock out
@mytwistedsoul
(sorry if i waffle by the way, i talk way tooo much)
*sends hugs* its okay. sometimes, we find ourselves stuck in the darkness and i get how you feel about people and being scared. the world is a scary place and there is alot of loud and strange people out there. its okay to be scared. 💙
and you would be the coolest older brother haha 💙
yeah.... lol. I try to deal with her in different ways. Now the only thing i've learnt is silence. just silence. it solves everything. lol.
Bunny :)
the stress and panic of it has already overcome me... idk man. i'm not ready for the result tommorow.. what if i did badly? paper 2 was good but paper 1 was terrible so what is it going to look like combined together? i'm gonna look like such an idiot in front of my friends. i got one of the best marks on the mocks but... idk. the real exam was like.... bad.
