@amiableBunny4016 space
Hi everyone,
Im gonna be posting here every week. So.. you may or may not have seen my poems across 7cups or my writing. Anyways, if you have not then thats okay.
Let me introduce myself. You can call me Bunny/Violet/Bun Bun. I am from the UK and I am 13 years old. So I came here to inspire, to love, to show kindness and to be respected. The biggest power on this planet is love and kindness. Humanity is in a state of disaster. Panic. Hatred. But hate never beats love. Because love has more power than hate.
I was bullied for over 6 years. I learnt alot across the years. I learnt to overcome. Learnt to love. Learnt to forgive. I am human. I am not a robot. I am not a stranger anymore. I am me. And if people wanna judge me for who I am then I say.... I forgive them. And I know that they can change.
Like Martin Luther King once said, “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”
Humanity is changing. The world is awakening. And more and more people are realising the reality. The reality of social media. The reality of trauma. The reality of life. This is who we are. And together we form as 1.
We live in a big world. Scary. Isn't it? But its to beautiful. Its so beautiful how the sun rises. How then stars glimmer every night. How the wind howls. Isn't it? and we dont realise how beautiful it really is until..... we think about it. Think deeply about it and you will find how beautiful it is.
If your feeling alone right now. just know that.....
Your strong. Even if you dont believe it.
Your worthy. Even if you dont believe it.
You can get through this.
I am here for you.
We are here for you.
Thanks for reading, This is me, Bunny and this is my world.
Take care,
Bunny
people step over me, because they see something inside of me, they see something in my suffering, that makes it easier for me to feel small. they see, that i'm broken and small. so they do it. :') sometimes flowers grow to be beautiful, but some flowers grow thorns. my thorns were just the way to protect myself. the panic attacks, the snappy bunny, the angry bunny, the emotional bunny... it was just a way to keep my gaurd up and protect myself.
i dont think i'm meant to understand any of this *** anymore
@amiableBunny4016
what's happened bun? :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
nothing... just stuff. a bit stressed out.
@amiableBunny4016
*sending hugs if okay* does bunny friend wanna talk about it, if comfy? 💜 *no pressure*
@amiableBunny4016 Hope it's ok to put this down here. The messages are shifting too far to the side 😕
Sorry I didn't mean to take so long to reply. Thank you for such a thoughtful and sweet message 💙
This reminds me of a poem. Reason Season Lifetime. How people come into our lives. On some level I DO know this. I guess I just wish I knew where they fit in the beginning because then it might not be so painful when they have to leave. That would make it too easy though I guess 😕
I think sometimes we get so caught up in the fake it to make it that on days when reality hits it hits like a ton of bricks
My father dying hit harder than I thought it would. I hated him but loved him too. When we reconnected I thought - no - I hoped to get to know him better that we'd get closer and I would have at least one member of my family in my life. Realistically I know it wasn't his idea to die but in many ways it feels like abandonment all over again
I've often end up putting trust in the wrong people. So I hesitate to share anything lately. The listener I have gives me fluff. I think she means well but I usually just end up agreeing - smile and nod and say thank you
There are days when it's hard to be kind and understanding. Those are days I usually keep to myself. Because under the surface there's a lot of anger and I know all too well the effect words can have. Idk I think maybe my blooming days are done. Some days I'm ok with that
@mytwistedsoul
Hey friend 💗 always okay to move messages, 7cups forum functions are weird. they go left, right, up and down hehe. Don't worry about late reply friend, me is kind of late too so take your time💗
Ohh! Sounds interesting, i might have a look at that poem later (: have never heard of it! yeah, i hear your feelings friend. Yeah, especially with friendships/relationships or talking to people we eventually fall into that trap of "fake it till you make it" and suddenly the wave hits you, the realization that this life is neither a dream nor a nightmare. Its just constant reality looming over us 💙
It sounds like things with your father have been up and down - it sounds like when you both reconnected you hoped for something better, for someone to lean on and trust again, because of course he is your father after all. You want to feel like you can get close to him again, and again these are totally valid feelings 💙 I'm sorry to hear you feel abandoned friend, its horrible when we don't really have much people to lean on and get close to. *sends hugs if okay*
Yeah, trusting the wrong people can be a bit... eeeeeee. so difficult to describe, its so hard to find the right people that can help and support us the way we are comfortable with. I understand that especially with listeners, and they give us alot of fluff and we don't really know how to react other than show grattitude and move on 💙
And you know? there is something okay about not being able to be kind and caring all the time friend. we are all not so perfect, and some days we have bad days and we feel upset and angry, or we feel we can't give support. its just part of being human friend💙 i'm proud of you for being able to realise that, and to be able to understand that.
I hear you friend. Some days, its like our blooming days are done. Like we are just slowly just.... moving along somehow. I hope you keep shining that beautiful light and that warmth because it makes the world such a lovely place to be in. And I hope you share that warmth with yourself. Realise the small things you achieved such as doing a difficult task or getting up and out of bed, or doing something creative.💙 *sits with you* i know how difficult it is, snapping back into our sad reality, i know how hard emotions are and dealing with trauma and so much *** the world has thrown at you. I might not be able to know your full story, but if it helps i am here to offer my kind words and comfort. 💙
i know it sounds strange, but I hope your being kind to yourself friend. I hope your surviving, because even that is an achievement in itself. i'm always here if you need a hand to hold or a shoulder to lean on. 💙
Bunny :)
Notice: My life has become very busy, so I will not be very active today, tommorow, and possibily the day after. please bare with me whilst i reply. thank you <3
anyone here?
@amiableBunny4016
late but I am <3
@amiableBunny4016
hi bunny
i'm so over it all.
i dont give *** anymore.
@amiableBunny4016 Sorry 😞 I've been mia - how are things with you?
@mytwistedsoul
eh, its fine. at this point, im not really bothered about 7cups not going to lie. i've been alive i guess. struggling but somehow surviving. how are you?
no one. just no one.
i feel like i barely exist anymore.
i just.... linger somehow, in places i dont belong.
it hurts every time you put your life together to fit in with other people, yet the puzzle never fits together. you never seem to belong anywhere.
