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The only thing left is memories (Ape's diary, no peaking)

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Bearainy July 17th, 2024

Tw; domestic, sexual abuse, PTSD,  (possible Schizophrenia, DID) social anxiety, family stress.


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Hi buddies. Hugs for you all. This is my diary. No reply please. Love you.


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"When I stand before thee at the end of the day'thou shalt see my scars and know that I had my wounds and also my healings."

—Tagore's 《Stray Birds》


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Bearainy OP August 18th, 2024

i am determined.

I am faithful.

I can do this.

I havr to do this.

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Bearainy OP August 19th, 2024

@Apeatrice

Hey lovely.

Hugs vv tight.

You made it. Yeah I know, you almost relapsed but in the end, you choosed to fight. Fight like the little brave warrior I knew so well.

Thank you for keeping an effort to keep yourself safe. Please remember to treat yourself gentle, my love.

Apeatrice


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Bearainy OP August 19th, 2024

I am growing.

I accept the darkside of myself. 

I am supported and beloved. (By who tho?)

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Bearainy OP August 20th, 2024

@Apeatrice

Hey honey. 🫂

I know how harsh it must be to stand up after a relapse, and how fastruating it can be to have a chaotic mind that can no longer operate like normal.

But no matter what, please keeps moving, fighting your way out of this mass. It may seems impossible rn. But if you starts little by little, you will be there.

Love and strength.

Apeatrice

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Bearainy OP August 20th, 2024

@Apeatrice

I am reborn.

I am calm.

I am determined.

I am ready to start over fresh.

I can do it

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Bearainy OP August 21st, 2024

@Apeatrice

I love you, always and forever.

Thank you,Honey. For keep on going even though you felt defeated and hopeless. Your strong determination and strength is awesome.

I love your neverendling positivity and your little negative self. Yes all of you, all parts of you is beloved and accepted.

Congratulations on making your first day .

Apeatrice

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Bearainy OP August 21st, 2024

@Apeatrice

I am being cared for.

I am being supported.

I am being appreciated.


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Bearainy OP August 23rd, 2024
Apeatrice

I love you.
Thank you for taking care of your body after all that has happened.
I admire your passion, that commitment and your strong determination. They kept you never stoppingly to achieving your dreams.

Hugs 
23/8/24
Apeatrice

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Bearainy OP August 23rd, 2024
I am changing.
I am at peace.
I am achieving.
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Bearainy OP August 23rd, 2024

@Apeatrice

Hugs buddy.

I love you, and weather happens, I'm always going to be here for you.

Sending strength

Apeatrice

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Bearainy OP August 23rd, 2024

I am ready to start over again.

I am going to make it.

I am worthy