The only thing left is memories (Ape's diary, no peaking)
Tw; domestic, sexual abuse, PTSD, (possible Schizophrenia, DID) social anxiety, family stress.
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Hi buddies. Hugs for you all. This is my diary. No reply please. Love you.
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"When I stand before thee at the end of the day'thou shalt see my scars and know that I had my wounds and also my healings."
—Tagore's 《Stray Birds》
ahhhh, and now kate is saying that I'm overreacting, that I'm ungrateful, that I 'm acting like a freak
(Kate frouting rn)
Ten reasons why I hate myself (ape; rlly fr? All you do is making everything harder for yourself)
1, I am weak.
2, I am trash.
3, I am worthless.
4, I am unstable.
5, I violental.
6, I am ungrateful.
7, I am overreacting.
8, I am depressed.
9, I am disobedient to my parents(which in chinese culture is a sin)
10, I am dishonest.
it's 11 pm, should get some zz , since I have to be up by 6...but tomorrow is gonna be Wednesday...st u pid therapy...
I soooo wanna relapse . my life seems meaningless. I hate it, I don't want to do it anymore, I can't try it anymore. Ppl hates me. Even alex -kate
Trying only made everything worse
Why the f is the point to be on this blue planet? -Kate
Mom insisted that I'm suffering from depression, really? I can feel the pain burning inside me, engulfed me. Feel the laughter threw the ice. Hiw dare anyone tell me I can't feel?
Dad keeps saying he 's trying his best, he said he wants us to bewhat he called "princesses" , never having to work, being taken care of by servant. Like I don't fear enough of him. Lmao
Jester keeps crying, no idea why, my arms hurts. I been holding her alll day.
Since when do therapist talked abt the birds and bees? Now , ha' another pretty good reason for thestatement. I dont wanna be in therapy anymore. I'm done, I'm so done.
Why do someone pm you and tell you that you are crazy, why that one have to be one of your best friends?
Lmao, guess its my job to make my life miserable, isn't content till done just that, I made everything the way it is rn. It is definitely my own fault that I'm in pain
Why bother to try, my life doesn't even matters
K me now
Stu pid headaches*
