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Fluffysheep8 August 19th, 2022

Hello! For those of you who don't know me, you can call me Everett. I'm a 14-year-old omnisexual enby from Minnesota. My pronouns are they/them.

I decided to make a diary entry forum to share updates about my life. If you'd like to follow this thread, go ahead! It would be much appreciated.

Anyone can add supportive comments at any time. I don't mind if you'd like to relate by sharing similar experiences. Although I created this forum with the intent of it being a space for me to share, I'd love to keep this an ongoing conversation where anyone can chime in.

I don't really have much else to say in this introductory post, so take care, my amazing friends, and I look forward to getting this diary entry forum going.

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Heartsandrosesandpaws May 19th, 2023

Keep shining your light bright and you are not alone.

Heartsandrosesandpaws May 29th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

maybe I will see you in teenie town soon just summited mr atl form

Fluffysheep8 OP June 9th, 2023

Oh. My. Goodness. Holy banana pants. It has been a hot minute.

There will be lots of updates in this post. You have been warned. /lh

I turned 15 two days ago on June 6th. I feel excited! Iโ€™m one year closer to getting my driver's license, one year closer to top surgery, one year closer to university, one year closer to getting my favorite breeds of dog, and one year closer to visiting a resort Iโ€™d like to go to.

My last day of school was today. I have a lot of mixed feelings. I'm incredibly proud of myself for surviving freshman year, if any of you guys remember, I was absolutely terrified going into high school. I've made some close friends and have some more friendly acquaintances. I passed all of my classes with A's and B's (except for gym, I don't even know how that works), and that was one of my big goals and things I was most nervous about. My mental health has had its ups and downs throughout the year for sure, and although I haven't been completely stable, I feel okay about how things have been overall.

I went to a tacos and talent show with my mentor through a mentorship program called Big Brothers Big Sisters. I recited a poem, and Maria (my mentor) showed us some of her pottery.

I went to my high school's improv show and it was hilarious. It was so funny, I laughed really hard. There are such talented people and it was great to laugh like that. One of the people in the improv show was a sophomore girl who I'll call R (I'm trying to be a bit more careful about what I share with people publicly online in case someone from my in-person life finds my diary forum). R is close friends with my friend Jocelyn. Her personality is so genuine and passionate and it's really fun and cute. She's literally the most animated person I've ever seen in my entire life. She was a leading role (Rumpleteaser) in my school's production of Cats the Musical. She's an incredibly talented actor, singer, and dancer. We've talked about six times in real life now. Jocelyn introduced me to her, I complimented her on her performance in Cats, congratulated her on the improv show, and her birthday was one day after mine (yesterday) so I made her a card and wished her a happy birthday. She's so animated and enthusiastic about everything and I find it adorable, hehe. I invited her and some other friends to a Taylor Swift pool party at the community center and I hope she and the others can come.

My friend Jocelyn came over to my house to hang out. She really values and appreciates me and it's really nice to be treated so well, honestly :') We made a blueberry dessert, played a game, and walked to and around a nearby park. I'm so grateful for her. She's funny and kind and cares about me. She's also the reason I can hang out with certain groups without feeling like an outcast. She always makes sure that I get included and that makes me feel a lot better. She and our friendship are precious and I'm really glad it turned out this way.

Some things I've cooked recently are butternut gnocchi (would not recommend it, took me six hours and tastes similar to the normal kind that only takes one and a half hours), lemon butter fish (almost started a fire on accident because I thought that hot oil steamed like water did but that was actually smoke - oops), and blueberry muffins.

I went to tour a university near me and I was super impressed. It was even better than the previous university I toured, which I didn't think was even possible. I think college will be really fun and it's another thing I'm looking forward to.

My dog's breeder/groomer lives on a hobby farm and because my mom was interested we got to borrow an incubator and hatch chicks!!

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We also went to Bichon Nationals. Bichon Frise is the breed of dog I have and every year they have a national dog show. This year, it just happened to be in Minnesota at a hotel not too far from us!

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And possibly the most exciting part of this entire post is that I got to see my 8th-grade friends at their 8th-grade graduation. I love them so much from the bottom of my heart and I can't wait for us to all be together again next year. I am so proud of them for getting through 8th grade. It made me happy beyond words to see them all again and they mean so much to me. Although I've made some new friends at high school, they have a special place in my heart that nothing could ever replace. They are all so wonderful and I'm beyond grateful that we've stuck together despite being separated for a year. We were separated for a whole year and only one of them left me. And even though Rosalie did leave me, I didn't die, I didn't explode, I'm still here because I was able to cope because I was strong and I used my skills. I'm proud of myself and I'm proud of all of us. It's been a long school year without them, but we'll be together again in the fall and I think that maybe this distance made us closer than ever. I've had plenty of adventures at high school and maybe it was God's plan for us to be separated so I could work on being less dependent on them. I think He wanted me to prove to myself that I could survive without them, and not only survive but have a good time. I'm so grateful for everything that this school year has brought and even though it's been difficult at times, I'm truly very glad I went to high school this year even though it did mean I had to be apart from them for a year.

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Thank you all for reading and have a wonderful weekend.

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Bunnylovesyou June 9th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

who gave you the right to be so gorgeous i cantttttt

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Fluffysheep8 OP June 9th, 2023

@Bunnylovesyou

Awwwww hehehehe you're the besttt!! Love you so muchhh

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AnnaSilverberg June 9th, 2023
๐Ÿ‘ @Fluffysheep8 ๐Ÿ‘

๐ŸŒธ How wonderful! ๐ŸŒธ
๐ŸŽ‰ Congratulations on finishing 8th grade Fluffy! ๐ŸŽ‰

๐Ÿ’ I'm so happy to see all the wonderful photos ๐Ÿ’
๐Ÿฐ And to hear about your baking experiments, I am glad that you gave them a try ๐Ÿฐ
๐ŸŒŸ You are so brave and amazing! ๐ŸŒŸ

๐Ÿ’• Thank you for all the updates! ๐Ÿ’•
๐ŸŒบ It's wonderful to know that you've been taking a peek at schools for the future! ๐ŸŒบ
๐Ÿพ I look forwards to see your future entries ๐Ÿพ
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Fluffysheep8 OP June 9th, 2023

@AnnaSilverberg

Thank you so much for your undying support, I appreciate you beyond words ๐Ÿ˜Š you always make me smile and I'm so grateful to have you in my support system โค๏ธ

AnnaSilverberg June 9th, 2023
@AnnaSilverberg

Ooops!
9th grade*
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Heartsandrosesandpaws June 9th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

good job on finishing up first year of high school.charlie-brown-dance.gif



I can. Relate on how hard the first year of high school is since thatโ€™s my hardest year in high school.

might see you on teen side soon since summit my atl form

TabbyCat97 June 9th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

Awweee Sheepp โ™ก these photos are so so lovely :') A masssive happy birthday my sweet friend :3 I hope you had a lovely day and enjoyed yourself, and I am sending tonnnz of huugss ! :)

I loves the baking ๐Ÿคญ๐Ÿ’œ and a tacos and talent show ~ wooohooo ! ๐Ÿพ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

Keep being your awesome self sheep, tabs always here for youuu โ™ก

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Fluffysheep8 OP June 9th, 2023

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Heartsandrosesandpaws June 9th, 2023

Happy birthday by the way.

I hope u have good year with good times and growth.

The1NOnlyVenus June 13th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8


this is โœจ n o i c e โœจ


if you ever wanna talk Iโ€™ll be here for you :D

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Fluffysheep8 OP June 14th, 2023

@The1NOnlyVenus

Thanks, friend ๐Ÿ˜Šโค๏ธ

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The1NOnlyVenus June 14th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8


ofc! Youโ€™re very welcome!

have some cookies and cake


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Fluffysheep8 OP June 14th, 2023
Fluffysheep8 OP July 27th, 2023

My mom got an email from Spotify saying that Ava Max was having a concert in Minnesota because I frequently use Alexa to play her songs and thatโ€™s through my momโ€™s Spotify account. My mom told me about a month and a half ago and said that we canโ€™t afford tickets but she just wanted to let me know. Ava Max is my favorite music artist. I love listening to her songs and singing them in my singing lessons. In case you donโ€™t know her, she sings โ€œSaltโ€, โ€œMy Head and My Heartโ€, โ€œSweet but Psychoโ€, โ€œThe Mottoโ€, and โ€œKings & Queensโ€. Those are some of her most well-known songs. I really wanted to go but the tickets were expensive and I wasnโ€™t sure I wanted to spend my money that way. I love Ava Max, but I didnโ€™t know what a concert was like or if it would be worth it. I thought about it some more and still really wanted to go so I asked my mom if I could get a ticket to the show as a birthday gift. She said she couldnโ€™t afford it but we could ask my grandparents. They helped my mom pay for the ticket for me and I was super excited. I sent a video to thank them. Then the day of the concert came and it was so unreal and exciting to see her name up on the side of the building. Sheโ€™s my favorite by far and probably the only person whose concert I would pay (or ask someone else to pay) that much for. I like other artists (Dua Lipa, Olivia Rodrigo, Tate McRae) but wouldnโ€™t have the same excitement about seeing them because I donโ€™t idolize them as much. We were waiting in line for a very long time and then when I got in through security and into the theater we still were waiting for a while. Eventually, the intro performers came in. I started to realize that there were no seats and it was going to be a standing concert. I panicked because there were so many people crammed in front of me and they were all so tall and there was no way I could get into the front to see. I asked the people around me if there were going to be seats or if it was going to be standing and they said I have to pay $70 if I want a seat on the second floor. I told my mom and she said she would pay for it because otherwise I wouldnโ€™t be able to see. I got settled in one of the seats and a guy and his son sat next to me. We talked about the venue and what are favorite Ava Max songs were and wondered what she would be wearing and what color her hair would be. There were two bands and they were pretty impressive. That took about an hour. We were waiting for a bit and I asked some questions about how it would work and explained that it was my first concert. He answered my questions and gave me a high five for it being my first concert. He asked if I was with anyone and I said no and explained that my friends donโ€™t like Ava Max enough to pay for a ticket to her concert. He jokingly said he thought I needed new friends. When she finally entered the stage, the crowd went wild and so did I. It was incredible to see her actually there in front of me! She sang a bunch of songs and her performance was amazing. She had four backup dancers and a decent amount of props. It was clear she had practiced her performance hundreds of times and it was so cool. I recorded the whole thing. In between acts, the guy and I talked some more and he introduced himself as Tobin. He had a meet and greet pass and I was in awe at the idea of being able to meet Ava Max. We talked about it a bit and I asked him how much it cost. It was $200. After the show, I told him that I hope he had a great time at the meet and greet and that he got to say hi to her and all that. He asked me how old I was and I said 15. He took the meet and greet pass off (it was a thing you put around your neck like a lanyard) and put it on me and said โ€œThere you go.โ€ I was speechless. I was like, โ€œNo no no no no, you donโ€™t have to do this, oh my god, this was expensive, I donโ€™t want to take this from youโ€ and he said something like โ€œYouโ€™re more into this than I ever will be, so it means the world to me that Iโ€™m giving you this opportunity.โ€ I said, โ€œThank you so so much, oh my god, this is amazing, I canโ€™t believe this is happening, you are so wonderful! You just made my life.โ€ He said, โ€œI want you to know that there are good people in this world and I hope you enjoy it.โ€ I asked if I could hug him and we hugged and I was so extremely excited. I texted my mom and told her what happened and she was astonished just like I was. His son and I waited in line and I rehearsed what I was going to say in my head. It was, โ€œOh my god hi, Iโ€™m such a huge fan, you are so amazing, I sing your songs in singing lessons and this is the best thing thatโ€™s ever happened to me, this guy was extremely kind and gave me his meet and greet pass and I am so grateful. Youโ€™re my favorite and the only person whose concert I would see.โ€ As the line got shorter, I saw that the other people werenโ€™t spending much time talking to her, just taking their photos and leaving. I was trying to prioritize what I wanted to say and when it was my turn I was almost shaking with excitement. I set my bag down and gave the person my phone and I said: โ€œHi! Iโ€™m such a huge fan, this is the best thing thatโ€™s ever happened to me!โ€ She said โ€œAwwโ€ and posed with me, putting her arm around me. I said, โ€œI sing your songs in voice lessons! This guy was extremely kind and gave me this pass and Iโ€™m so grateful.โ€ She said โ€œThatโ€™s so sweetโ€ and hugged me. My soul left my body because I was so happy. Ava Max hugged me! Omg! The person whose face I see on my favorite albums and playlists and in YouTube videos through a screen, sheโ€™s real, she was right next to me, not even a foot away from me and she touched me! Not only touched, hugged! It was so insane. Too soon, my time with her was over and I had to go back to the other part of the venue. I saw Tobin and thanked him again and got his phone number so that my mom could thank him too. It was so amazing. I felt so lucky. My mom came to pick me up and she met Tobin and thanked him a lot. She and her fiance were so amazed and blown away at what had happened in my world that night and they kept asking me questions about it because it was just so crazy.

TLDR I went to an Ava Max concert and got to meet her and she hugged me and was the most incredible experience of my life.

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mariainfj July 29th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8 Oh my goshhhh Fluffyyy. I also like Ava Max a lotttt. Fun fact but my favorite artist, who's from Norway - TIX, wrote her song "Sweet but psycho". What happened to you is just incredible like omg it was your first concert and this all happened? And you met Ava Max?! I've had a lot of similar experiences with famous people but not someone THIS famous, lol. Sadly, I live in Greece lol, and famous people barely come here. I wish I could also go to an Ava Max concert onceee! And wow I still can't believe what happened with that person, he probably was way too kind, I've never talked like this with someone at a concert tbh ๐Ÿ˜ญ. And I can relate to being alone at a concert, I'm basically like this to almost every event. I also got to see a very famous band recently! I saw Arctic Monkeys, idk if you know them but they sing "I wanna be yours" "505"... Anywayss, I'm very happy for you bestiee โค๏ธ

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amiableBunny4016 July 27th, 2023

Fluffy I was so worried about you because I haven't seen you in a long time buddy ๐Ÿ’•omg I miss you so much and then I realised I forgot about your forum and omg I'm so happy your still here. ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ Miss you so so so so much

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Fluffysheep8 OP July 27th, 2023

@amiableBunny4016

Oh my goodness lovely :') this means the world to me, friend :') I got locked out of my account due to technical difficulties and I'm sorry I didn't post to your forum I kept expecting to see you in group chats but I don't think I did and just oh goshness you mean so much to me :') I missed you so so much lovely friend, beyond words, and I'm so grateful you posted here. I'm so so happy to see you, missed you so so so so much and I heard about how your account got deactivated and no one checked in, oh my goodness lovely I am so sorry. I was still locked out of my account then but I just want you to know that I care about you beyond words and I would do anything for my amazing friend :') Love you so much bestie

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amiableBunny4016 July 27th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

Oh my gosh. Lovely, I'm so sorry to hear and I haven't seen you in chatrooms in almost forever ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบyou have been in my thoughts alot and I can understand account difficulties ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•me very proud of you. I hope things going okay recently ๐Ÿ’•teenie community room isn't the same without you ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•tysm I love you buddy ๐Ÿ’•omg I missed you so so so so much but I'm so glad your back. ๐Ÿฅบ You so sweet. ๐Ÿฅบ*Hugs and love if okay*

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Fluffysheep8 OP July 27th, 2023

@amiableBunny4016

Itโ€™s okay, Iโ€™m here now. I missed you so much and youโ€™ve been in my thoughts too, truly, Iโ€™ve been thinking of you a lot and hoping youโ€™re okay ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ Iโ€™m so so proud of you too, like beyond proud of you, oh my goodness. You are so incredible and beautiful and Iโ€™m so grateful for you and lucky to have you. I love you so much buddy and I missed you so so so so so so so so so so so much, Iโ€™ve been thinking of you always and constantly and Iโ€™m so glad to talk to you again ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ my wonderful beautiful brave honeybunny I love you more than I can express and you are definitely one of the sweetest people I know. *tight huggles and so much love*

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amiableBunny4016 July 27th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

I love you more fluffy. All the same goes to you bestie ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’•*hugs if okay* you were always so sweet and lovely to talk to and you are just amazing! I love you so much bestie ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•I hope you looking after yourself. You mean alot to me and you are just fantastic to be around ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•I literally cried after I found your forum . Love you so much and I've missed you more than anything ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐ŸฅบI'm so so happy that I found this forum sooner ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

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amiableBunny4016 July 27th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

You don't need to be sorry about anything bestie. ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐ŸฅบIm just so so happy to see you. My forum is always open to you any time ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

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Fluffysheep8 OP July 27th, 2023

@amiableBunny4016

Iโ€™m so happy to see you too ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ howโ€™ve you been, bestie?

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Fluffysheep8 OP July 27th, 2023

Some July updates:

We went hiking with our mentor (my mentor and I were matched through a program called Big Brothers Big Sisters) and we had a great time. The trails were beautiful and we talked about all sorts of things - pets, hobbies, friends, and more. On the car ride back, I told her that I'm an OSDD system because Sara (one of my alters) was coming close to front and she was telling me I should tell her in case we switch so that she knows what's going on. She was very supportive and had a lot of questions that we answered to help educate her.

We had a sleepover with our friend Cameron and we walked around a park and our high school (we live really close to each other and these places). We talked a lot, mostly about our experiences with gender and sexuality. Cam and a really similar conversation last summer when we had a sleepover then, and it makes me happy that we're still close friends a year later and we feel comfortable having deep conversations like that.

I went with my friend Jocelyn to see our city's production of The Music Man (a musical theater play). Her best friend/my crush was a leading role in the play. I'm going to call her R because I'm trying to be a bit more confidential about the people in my IRL life and how I feel about them in case anyone from my IRL life finds my account, which I really hope they don't. The musical was amazing. It was almost three hours of acting, singing, and dancing, and everyone was so talented. The boy who played R's love interest in the play was literally so lucky, haha! He got to hold her hand and play with her hair and if I remember correctly I think he even got to carry her briefly in one scene. While she was waiting to go onstage, she waved at me! And then, after the play was done, she was greeting and hugging all of her friends and she saw me and asked if she could hug me!! I obviously said yes and she hugged me and I had to physically stop myself from cupping my hands over my mouth. She was excited, obviously not because of me but because of the play and her friends, but it felt like it was partially because of me even though it probably wasn't or at least not much and it was literally so cute and sweet.

My mom (Mom) will be gone on a work trip in Korea on Labor Day weekend and the first week of school, and the original plan was for me to stay home alone that week and ask the next-door neighbors if I needed help with anything. My mom was going to leave me food and I would be fine by myself. But then my other mom (Mama, the one I don't live with because she's a bad parent) found out more information and now I need to stay with adults overnight. I'm staying with Mom's fiance during Labor Day weekend and at my friend Cameron's house the first week of school. I'm feeling a little overwhelmed and intimidated because the first week of the new school year is a lot and I was gearing up to do it with no one else in the house but now I have to stay with people which is in some ways good because Cam is a great friend and I'd love to be with him that first week of school and I know he'd be able to listen and support me when I tell him about my first days of school but at the same time it's really going to be a lot for me because not only am I having my first week of school and won't have Mom with me but also I will need to stay somewhere else and that's just kind of a lot to process. But we'll be okay, and we're really glad that we'll be staying with Cam out of all friends, he is so wonderful and his family is so kindhearted.

My friend Jocelyn came over yesterday and we had so much fun! I'm super grateful for her, she's my closest friend from high school who I can hang out with (my best friend from high school can't hang out with friends outside of school because her parents don't allow it because of cultural reasons). She values and appreciates me for who I am which is really special to me because I don't always get that sort of genuine interest. We baked strawberry cake, which was super fun and turned out delicious. I did her hair and taught her how to braid mine. We also watched funny videos and they were hilarious.

That's all I have for now, thank you so much for reading and have a wonderful day!

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AvyIsKing July 27th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

all by yourself my sheeple people?


also im so proud of uuuuu

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Fluffysheep8 OP July 27th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

All by ourself what? ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

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mariainfj July 29th, 2023

@Fluffysheep8

Fluffyyy I missed you so much bestie <3

I was wondering how you were doing and I'm glad you tagged me in this. I'm glad to read all the good news about you, it seems like you have a lot going on in your life and I'm glad these sound like exciting things! I'm so proud of you, and it's so amazing that you have close friends that you can trust, and I'm sure you're a very special person and your friends see that :)

I hope to see you soon in the chatrooms!

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