In the Corner

@unassumingEyes

awwe hehe puts crown on😛👑✨✨✨💕💕

_{I feel like I kinda do in a different way. I feel like I’ve gotten so attached to our friend they don’t even like me anymore and now I’m fighting my own mind cos they genuinely meant a lot to me :') I have no idea why they kinda..switched..tho. I really loved them :') (platonically💜like the way I love @justmeeva lmao nothing weird :P🩷)(and all of you ofc hehe I just thought of eva randomly as sumone I love xD)I’m sorry if it seems like others don’t understand tho💜}

_{nu I love it too and agree so much XD✨✨✨essence✨✨✨}

_{hehe that’s funny lol xD potatoes and people🧍🏻‍♀️🤝🥔✨}

_{oouu cool aunt hehe😛I’d have to explain that a bunch of times before my aunt understood it lol :P💙}

_{(fr xD I love everything poetry🖤✨)}

_{nah I love that idea💖/gen :D okay :D get ready😭😛imma try and not be annoying :3 today I went to the pool which I guess wasn’t as scary as I thought. but my hairs so fricking messed up😭everyone that’s seen my natural hair before always says that millions would do literally anything for my hair and I have it natural. but I hate it so much. my natural hair is curly and poofy and thick. it probably doesn’t even suit me cos people say they can’t imagine what I’d look like with curly hair since I always have it straight. this is the dumbest thing to talk about but I’ve always been so concerned about how I look since I was like 6😭I get a hair treatment every 6 months and get it done in between- so that it’s always straight ofc. and no I’m not like spoiled} :') my aunts older than my dad so she forces him to let me and she’s the one that takes me each time- my aunts just like the rest of my family which like whatever I guess :') but she’s actually kinda nice. all the females in my family- istg and I’m not even joking- every time they see literally anyone they say one of these "they lost so much weight" "they gained so much weight" "they’re so fat omg" "they’re so skinny omg" "they need to lose weight" "they need to gain weight" "they’re so ugly" actually no I’d go on but you get it. eating disorders run in my family and I’m not even joking. my family fights every. single. time. we eat. not to get the food. but to not. "you haven’t eaten anything in weeks" "I swear I ate no stop I’m so full I swear on the quran I’m not eating" "now you eat" "tell you what? sit down and eat before I do something I don’t want to" etc. it goes on but. o well :') I developed anorexia when I was really young. I genuinely didn’t eat for months and I’m not over exaggerating- my ribs popped out but yk what even when my bones popped out I still looked in the mirror and broke down. I’d go on the weight scale every 5 minutes and I’d excercise so much I’d feel my heartbeat in my legs and my body would go numb and all that- at some point I woke up to my heart beating- *so* loud. not too fast. but loud.  ended up in hospital. where my dad fought with the nurse. yk why? cos :') see I don’t like this part cos no one ever beleives it. my dad hates it when someone compliments me. but yeah I went far off sorry. then there’s the males in my family. I.. don’t even know what to say bout them :') rapi.sts. when I was 7 years old I was playing on my male cousins ipad. and I know this part will sound bad but basically on my grandmas phone there were *so* many photos of that cousin and his sister, my other cousin, literally in so many places and traveling all over the world, and I know it’s stupid but I swear as a 7 year old my one and only intention was to look at those again cos I swear I found it so cool and always liked going through those and searching in an ipad is prolly dumb but it genuinely was my only intention :') to admire all those places and cool edits and all that- and ofc :') I opened the photos app- and. we’re just gonna say inappropriate photos. I didn’t even know. stuff. as a 7year old. so. :'D when I realized what it was I closed it right away and every single night for idk how long I’d remember it. not picture it. that’s just *** gross. but I’d remember and i had this horrible feeling in my stomach- and since then every time I’d be doing something random or fun or smth I’d get that feeling and everything would be ruined. it’s nothing tho :') now that we’re in a hotel my dad has to sleep with me. not- like that- ew. like next to me. cos we have 2 beds and everything else was fully booked tho my dad argued with the lady- she kept telling him it was fully booked but yk my dad. so now the second I fall asleep he. idek dud :') "touches me inappropriately" I guess. you prolly know about my mom- or maybe I didn’t say it in this forum- my mom ran away from my dad when I was 3(years old). ever since then my dads…..I don’t like saying this word😭 ever since then my dads R’d me and abused me. I was 3. and now I’m. well I’ve stopped saying my age on here cos it reminds me of smth but I’m between 13 and 18 obv :P. he still does but whatever. :') I’m so scared eyes. well atp I’m just talking to myself. but imma still say eyes. eyeslovely.. in my country- if I were to report my dad for everything- not just R/SA there’s more. if I were to go to police and stuff. my dad would either go through life sentence- or death sentence. I know I won’t I never will but that’s so big eyes you don’t get it it’s so unimaginable. I can’t do anything here anymore. I found a gun in my dads drawer and *** he’s not a police btw☠️i feel like I’m taken over eyes. I’m so small compared to people. I’m everyone’s puppet. I shut up and I do what I’m told. and yk what *** me who cares about me right? it’s just my dad not stopping when I bleed or scream and him being dangerous and yk other stuff I won’t go on about. but I’ve seen him abuse a cat eyes. my cat. *** I call him my baby. louis. you know louis. you’ve seen him. he didn’t like hurt him bad he just..does stuff like pretend to just be walking and purposely kick the cat hard, press on its tail. I take it away ofc. he has no empathy. I don’t get people eyes. louis so innocent and she meows so cutely when she’s sad but- it’s so sad. and that cups friend. I say I’ll forget about it but it’s almost always on my mind with a bunch of other stuff. like the fact we have to swim for those 6 weeks every Wednesday. I don’t know how ill get out of it. you don’t get it no one gets it/lh/nm. what am I really expected to do-. I have Ms o’hara this term for all my pe classes for some damn reason and ofc she has to be that one teacher that couldn’t give two *** bout you :') I swear I’m praying that i break a bone or some *** so I don’t have to swim. I know it sounds extra. but people in my set are so nasty eyes- not in a health way just personality- so judgy and cruel and just. evil. they don’t care. I thought they cared about looks but yk in my school I used to get complimented almost everyday and no that’s not common. at all. o yay look my dads back and he just threatened me. he went on his phone and I guess I can stay abit but I’m sorry eyeslove I can’t risk anything- I love you🩷

you don’t have to read or reply- just have your turn to dump on me hehe :P🩷and I’ll read when I can- I love this idea btw- I needed it- thankyou💖really💕💕/vvgen💖

_{love you moreee💕💕}