In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
@justmeeva I gotta go study frnd
tc <3
@unassumingEyes
i’m off to school too, ttyl 🩷
U myt be thinking, eyes is really bad at breaks. Well, eyes is currently bad at everything, so no need to be surprised lol
@unassumingEyes
*sitting with you if okie* 🥺 i don’t think you’re bad at everything friend… :') but yeah tbh our brains can say such things …😔 make us believe that we can’t do anything right or we are doing everything bad … 😞 but nuuu brainie just being mean :') it’s hard to see the good in ourselves, it’s much easier to see the flaws and believe those are the only things there… 😞 *huggiie for you if okay*
your buddies love you vvv much. flowers loves you friend 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs* me loves you too frnd ❤️
i just…i keep getting expected to be as good as my sis…she’s in uni right now…im not that capable and it shld be okay but mom and dad dont get that…i got 91% in 9th grd exams and they were upset…ill probably get worse these exams and idk what ill do 😔 theyll prob take away any devices, internet and yell at me, maybe put me in summer camp and stuff… idk 😔
@unassumingEyes
*hugs tight* 91% is really good though, im vvv sorry friend… 😞 your parents are meaniies ):
@LoveMyMoonflowers idk my dads oki like i said. But even he said he was disappointed 🫥
@unassumingEyes
that would hurt, friend… 😞
@LoveMyMoonflowers my first reply didnt post so i wrote another one,
then both posted 🫡
@unassumingEyes
lol dw it happens
Tw when i grow up ill be hving an arranged marriage and everyone tells me its too early to worry bout that but its a *** arranged marriage man im gonna worry for the next 10ish years till it happens okay-
@unassumingEyes
awwe nuuuu friend… 🥺😞
@LoveMyMoonflowers
tw yea…is it weird that i hope itll be from any of my old friends-that-were-boys? I didnt hv a thing for em or anything but atleast ill know a lil about em then. Like the fact that they’re not one of those creepy dudes-
@unassumingEyes
im so sorry 😞 that shouldn’t be happening ): you should choose if/when/who you wanna marry… 😞 hopefully then things might change a bit…? you might have a say, then. 10 years from now, you might be on your own. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers yeah, maybe. Ill have say of sorts, yani they wont proceed without my consent, but ill hv to choose from random strangers ive never met on the basis of their background etc. that sounds more like choosing an employee… 🫥
@unassumingEyes
bruh what… :') that does sound like choosing an employee *smh.* 😞 maybe before then, you can try to leave and be on your own? ): maybe go to another country? :')
Imma shut up for now-
@LoveMyMoonflowers i asked the OP of the teen safety post if they knew why it was taken down, are they gonna do anything etc. and they said that it was taken down cause they thought it wld create more conflict and told OP to pm H or Obs so atleast we get sm explanation (altho we werent creating more conflict but whatever :/)
@unassumingEyes
oof… :/
the conflict in rooms is crazy. and :')
the ***… it’s extending to PMs… :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers Im sorry 🥺 it is crazy…had so many today…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
idk. That wld be leaving behind everyone. Including dad and sis and any frnds i can make here. Which is…idk
@unassumingEyes my parents marriage was arranged.
arranged doesnt mean bad it can work ive seen it work but theres no trial. Like when dating, if ur bf gets creepy and weird or u two just fall out u cn end it easily with some feels (unless theyre reallyy bad, i know there are situations where u cn still get stuck)
but theres no trial in arranged marriage. We hv the right to divorce (Khula) but its not an easy process and theres pressure not to so uk its scary. And noone tells me anything cuz im “just 15” but i wanna know and be prepared
( i wanna know if its trash and if i shld run-)
@unassumingEyes
im vvv sorry friend all that must be scary and it must be a lot of pressure. 😔 i just… hope you’ll keep your well-being first ok? and your safety. you need to be safe 💜 and comfortable. :') and… if being in your own someday means safety and comfort then it’s good.
idk - i don’t wanna say too much bc i know it’s not my place but i just… don’t want something like… yk ): to happen. 😞 an arranged marriage… mmm. 😞 marriage is supposed to be a good thing but so many people out there do this kind of thing to their kids and that ain’t good or safe. 😞
i know you’re not sure about it all because… tbh, even when people hurt us, especially family… we still have that loyalty towards them. somehow. idk why but we do… even when they ain’t loyal to us we tend to be loyal to them :/
uh forget everything i said my brain isn’t braining and idk what i’m talking about.
im sorry 😞
@LoveMyMoonflowers i didnt see this yesterday :0 probably cuz of my net but anyway-
i think what u said was right. Like, right right. Esp the loyalty thing. And hving one parent thats 👎🏻 and one thats 👍🏻…its really confusing. And in my culture, everyone has an arranged marriages, not just in my family. But um uk its still scary cuz idk the guys personality.
nd there’s always mmm tw intima- not even gonna say it-
@unassumingEyes
true… but your dad, mom and sister aren’t the greatest people in the world. :') idk.
@LoveMyMoonflowers mom and sis yeah
(please dont say anything bout dad. I know he’s not a 100% great but he tries the most nd without him, well i was falling into a really bad mental place back when i was 12 nd he helped me ^-^ so i dont think i cn stand when ppl disagree with him => even tho he cn be wrong on things cuz i know he’s actually good. Idk if its cuz he loves mom so he listens to her or cuz culture pressure or what. But he does believe we shld do arranged marriages. But i also feel like he myt be oki if i say no to marrying at all. Disappointed but oki. I shld stoo ranting. Lol)
@unassumingEyes
oh i’m sorry friend me wasn’t thinking i’m vvv sorry 😞
i’m glad your dad cares :') 💜
Here’s a thingy i wrote bout 2 years ago
Start Over Again
I am in my room. The world is quiet and empty. I feel dull and sad and lonely, even when I’m not alone, even when there’s people who understand. An owl hoots. Traffic. It gets so loud this time of the morning. Sleep. With all this noise?
I breath. The world is quiet and empty. I close my eyes, and when I open them I see something new.
I see nothing.
Beautiful, loud and empty nothingness, like the world ran out of ideas and just drew a blank.
I looked at it. And I looked at it again. And I looked at it again. Then I got bored, and longed for something. Something nice and pretty to just look at, like the flower on my desk.
I blink, and the flower appears.
Ok, I say. Let's start again.
The world is large and overwhelming. It has wonders in the sea and wonders in the land and wonders in the sky. It has adults and children and flowers and clouds and it has rain and sunshine, snow and storms. Its filled with smiles. With tears. And it can hold so much more.
@unassumingEyes
im sorry eyes friend i think i might have upset you… ☹️ i hope you’ll forgive me friend…
@LoveMyMoonflowers frnd :0 no issok :0 it wasnt ur fault ❤️❤️ and even if it was i wld hv forgiven u in seconds ❤️ cuz i know u dont mean any harm ❤️ issok frnd it happens <3
@unassumingEyes
okay…
