In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
@mytwistedsoul
@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you Moon Pie 💙
@mytwistedsoul
*sending hugs back* 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you 😊 You doing ok?
@mytwistedsoul
Mhm I’m just tired. you? 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's probably pretty late in your part of the world. You should try to rest 💙 Even if you can't sleep it's good to just relax
It's been a day. This is a hard day for memories but we survived. Thank you for asking 💙
@mytwistedsoul
yeah it’s 2:45 am. It’s okay Soul 💙 i’ll try to sleep soon i guess. last night i tried to sleep at like 3 am but my mind drove me nuts until like 6, i don’t wanna do that again… :/
I’m sorry it was hard Soul 😔 with the memories….. :( it can be painful. Im sorry. 😞 im proud of you all for making it through though. *sends love and hugs to you all if okay* 💜💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers I hate nights like that 😞 I'm sorry your thoughts have you so much trouble last night 😞💙 Do you try visualization or maybe write those thoughts out?
@mytwistedsoul
Idk 😔 it’s okay i just try to get through it and fall asleep :/
thanks friend, Moon Pie need those hugs and love right now
hehe *acepts sleepy dust* Thank you
Accepts* my dumb brain :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sends more hugs and love* 💙 Brain is tired too but doesn't know how to shut down 😞 Should I sing Hushabye Mountain 😄💙 I'll do it off key and all 💙
@mytwistedsoul
lol 💜💜 Sure soul :p
@LoveMyMoonflowers *clears throat* 😜
A gentle breeze from Hushabye Mountain
Softly blows o'er Lullaby Bay
It fills the sails of boats that are waiting
Waiting to sail your worries away
It isn't far to Hushabye Mountain
And your boat waits down by the quay
The winds of night so softly are sighing
Soon they will fly your troubles to sea
So close your eyes on Hushabye Mountain
Wave goodbye to cares of the day
And watch your boat from Hushabye Mountain
Sail far away from Lullaby Bay
So close your eyes on Hushabye Mountain
Wave goodbye to cares of the day
And watch your boat from Hushabye Mountain
Sail far away from Lullaby Bay 💙
Awwww...
...Twisty, has anyone ever told you that you're a sweet guy?
@slowdecline48 (looks around horrified) 😧 shhhh! Don't say that too loud. I got a bad a** reputation to uphold here! 🤪 😂
Seriously I plan on stealing the neighbor's wife later for a date 😁 kidding kidding 😂 sort of. She wants chinese and her husband doesn't like it so I told her I'd take her for lunch
Oh sh*t that probably doesn't help my reputation at all 😕 maybe I'll make her walk home afterwards
Thanks Slow
@mytwistedsoul 😂 That is almost something I could've posted. Great minds...
Don't make the poor woman walk home. If her husband isn't giving her the attention she needs, well... 🥒 😈
@slowdecline48 😂 You'll be pleased to know I didn't make her walk all the way home. Just part way 😜
@mytwistedsoul dont worry soul, I know your buttocks are bad 😎 I'll stick up for you😁
I had to mow the field again and I caught my supervisor sneaking around and checking up on me
Mental vomit *smh* my brain just puked 😜 not really. I managed to get in trouble again. That used to bother me. Now I just shrug and get slightly p*ssed because it feels like we have to conform here too much. There used to be more freedom with what we write. I get tired of always having to play nice. When it takes hours for someone to delete an offending post what's the point? The damage is already done
I wonder how many points I have. Demerits because we're all in kindergarten. But let's smile and pretend we're happy because positivity is the flavor of the week and there's cookies and milk 😉
Allow me to make it worse 😈
I could've posted that little rant two decades ago, about society in general... These days I'm not as much of a rebel but I see where you're coming from, yeah. Sites like this need rules for all the people with sensitizing conditions, but sometimes they are enforced to the point where they don't make sense.
It is also another consequence of population growth here. Adding more mentally ill people ➡️ exponentially more potential crossed wires in convos, ways to get upset, etc. ➡️ more enforcement of the rules by the slowly coagulating bureaucracy the staff & volunteers are becoming.
@slowdecline48 I understand the need for rules. I try to follow them. I don't like is how certain words get thrown around and used inappropriately to tell someone that's what they did. I don't like being accused of something when I know d*mn well that's not what was being done. I can't even really talk about it here on this page which I made or they'll accuse me of it again. But I can email and plead my case. I'm not sure if it's even worth wasting my time to do so
You could always wear your "demerits" as a badge of honor... When I was on ***.gram (back when I had an account!), I eventually got tired of the rules being enforced arbitrarily. When I caught a warning for a comment I posted, I was rather proud to have received it. Later I got a 2nd one...a fine achievement. 😎 (At that point I didn't give a d**n if my account was banned. Eventually I shut it down in any case)
Built a new thing
Saw cool sunrises
@mytwistedsoul this is so pretty and I think that's the prettiest sunset I've ever seen
@hillsideblues Hey you ❤️ It's really nice to see you here 😊
@mytwistedsoul yes it was just from another dimension. I hope you've a nice and warm day like the sun ❤️
Very nice work. 👌🏻 You are multitalented, obviously. That can be a curse as much as a gift, though...the more your creative ability extends in different directions, the harder it is to focus on any one medium long enough to become great at it.
@slowdecline48 Thank you and omg yes you are absolutely right. It feels conceited to say I can do a lot of things but my interests do pull me in too many different directions 😕
Yep...I know how it is. Been grappling with the same issue for years now. It would only be conceited to say so if we thought being multitalented was an unmitigated benefit & joy. But you & I both know that's not true.
@mytwistedsoul Also, did you use a router in making any of the pieces for that diorama?
@slowdecline48 Yeah I have one that fits the Dremel I use
feelings fade when you live like a ghost
dream in colors that light up the night
but real life shows that it takes away
and nothing is ever right
how do we live
if nothing is real when we're awake
death plays with it's victim
through hide and seek
can feel its cold touch when we're weak
souls depart and the sky turns black
shows you in dreams
all that you lack
the light blinds when we walk through ***
a constant reminder
a ghost in the shell
know that nothing is real
the pain won't erase
wait for a miracle
maybe then we can escape 🐾
It's been hot
The lilies are blooming
Found a new friend
Really liked the strawberries
@mytwistedsoul
- I didn't know you were into flowers. You must be a skilled gardener.
- I knew you were a sweet guy... But seriously, that looks familiar. In the deep South we have a lot of turtles around, as you probably know. I've encountered a few & saved two from getting smashed by oncoming traffic, so far. Will post the stories in my journal if you or anyone else is interested (& if I remember to).
@slowdecline48 Skilled might be a stretch lol. I just like watching things grow. And most of them are pretty self sufficient once they're planted. I do have to protect them from the deer so most are in fenced areas
I think I figured out why I don't drink much water. I have rabies 😬🤪
@mytwistedsoul Drink some other clear liquids before you drink that glass of water. You know, stuff like wh1skey, v0dka, etc...imbibe enough in a short timespan & not only will you relax, the stuff will k1ll off the rabies germs! 😁
@slowdecline48 Oh now that I like! A prescription I can fill easy! 😁 Moonshine should do the trick. Grandpa always said it'll cure whatever ails you 😂
@mytwistedsoul You've had moonshine? Now that's country... Have tried it myself, twice. The first time was when I was out in the Midwest. One of our neighbors got it from a local source. It burned going down my gullet at first but it tasted good at the time. Thought I was doing okay...until I went to get up from the table after my 3rd sip. 😵💫 😆 Second time was years later...I was hanging out with a friend in Austin & he bought a jar of it from a local maker/dealer...yes, really.
The stuff had an apple slice in it for flavor. It certainly got us smashed but, would you believe, the guy who made it didn't use any barley or corn? Seriously!...he mixed in a lot of sugar into the water & added his yeast to that. *smh* That is no way to make shine. If I ever start fermenting stuff again & get into distillation, you can bet the initial feedstock will never be all sugar.
@slowdecline48 😂 That sounds about right. It hits hard and fast. They call that sugar 'shine here. Up here they mostly use corn. There was some really good blackberry a few years ago. Yeah that stuff will knock you on your *** 😁 You can buy it in the liquor stores now. Not as many people make it anymore
Not sure why but this song is in my head
@mytwistedsoul Now that takes me back!... Yeah, R.E.M. was big in the 1990's & early 00's. Time goes by so d**n fast, doesn't it?
