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mytwistedsoul November 7th, 2019

With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.

A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.

While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.

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@mytwistedsoul

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mytwistedsoul OP May 12th

@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you Moon Pie ๐Ÿ’™ย 

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@mytwistedsoul

*sending hugs back* ๐Ÿ’™

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mytwistedsoul OP May 12th

@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you ๐Ÿ˜Š You doing ok?ย 

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@mytwistedsoul

Mhm Iโ€™m just tired. you? ๐Ÿ’œ

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mytwistedsoul OP May 12th

@LoveMyMoonflowers It's probably pretty late in your part of the world. You should try to rest ๐Ÿ’™ Even if you can't sleep it's good to just relax

It's been a day.ย  This is a hard day for memories butย  we survived. Thank you for asking ๐Ÿ’™ย 

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@mytwistedsoul

yeah itโ€™s 2:45 am. Itโ€™s okay Soul ๐Ÿ’™ iโ€™ll try to sleep soon i guess. last night i tried to sleep at like 3 am but my mind drove me nuts until like 6, i donโ€™t wanna do that againโ€ฆ :/ย 

Iโ€™m sorry it was hard Soul ๐Ÿ˜” with the memoriesโ€ฆ.. :( it can be painful. Im sorry. ๐Ÿ˜ž im proud of you all for making it through though. *sends love and hugs to you all if okay* ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œย 

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mytwistedsoul OP May 12th

@LoveMyMoonflowers I hate nights like that ๐Ÿ˜ž I'm sorry your thoughts have you so much trouble last night ๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ’™ Do you try visualization or maybe write those thoughts out?ย 

Aww thank you Moon Pie ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’™ *sends love and hugs back*ย 

What we need is a little sleepy dust! Tinkerbell volunteered ๐Ÿ˜
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@mytwistedsoul

Idk ๐Ÿ˜” itโ€™s okay i just try to get through it and fall asleep :/ย 

thanks friend, Moon Pie need those hugs and love right nowย 

hehe *acepts sleepy dust* Thank youย 

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Accepts* my dumb brain :(ย 

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mytwistedsoul OP May 13th

@LoveMyMoonflowers *sends more hugs and love* ๐Ÿ’™ Brain is tired too but doesn't know how to shut down ๐Ÿ˜ž Should I sing Hushabye Mountain ๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ’™ I'll do it off key and all ๐Ÿ’™

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mytwistedsoul OP May 13th

@LoveMyMoonflowers *clears throat* ๐Ÿ˜œ

A gentle breeze from Hushabye Mountain

Softly blows o'er Lullaby Bay

It fills the sails of boats that are waiting

Waiting to sail your worries away

It isn't far to Hushabye Mountain

And your boat waits down by the quay

The winds of night so softly are sighing

Soon they will fly your troubles to sea

So close your eyes on Hushabye Mountain

Wave goodbye to cares of the day

And watch your boat from Hushabye Mountain

Sail far away from Lullaby Bay

So close your eyes on Hushabye Mountain

Wave goodbye to cares of the day

And watch your boat from Hushabye Mountain

Sail far away from Lullaby Bay ๐Ÿ’™ย 

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@mytwistedsoul

๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ Hugs youย 

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mytwistedsoul OP May 13th

@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs you back* ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’™ย 

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slowdecline48 May 13th

Awwww...

...Twisty, has anyone ever told you that you're a sweet guy?

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mytwistedsoul OP May 13th

@slowdecline48 (looks around horrified) ๐Ÿ˜ง shhhh! Don't say that too loud. I got a bad a** reputation to uphold here! ๐Ÿคช ๐Ÿ˜‚

Seriously I plan on stealing the neighbor's wife later for a date ๐Ÿ˜ kidding kidding ๐Ÿ˜‚ sort of. She wants chinese and her husband doesn't like it so I told her I'd take her for lunch

Oh sh*t that probably doesn't help my reputation at all ๐Ÿ˜• maybe I'll make her walk home afterwardsย 

Thanks Slow


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slowdecline48 May 13th

@mytwistedsoul ๐Ÿ˜‚ That is almost something I could've posted. Great minds...

Don't make the poor woman walk home. If her husband isn't giving her the attention she needs, well... ๐Ÿฅ’ ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

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mytwistedsoul OP May 14th

@slowdecline48 ๐Ÿ˜‚ You'll be pleased to know I didn't make her walk all the way home. Just part way ๐Ÿ˜œย 

Nah I wouldn't do that ๐Ÿ˜‚ I was the perfect gentleman ๐Ÿ˜‡
๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ Omg LMAO nope nope nope! She's pretty far up in years ๐Ÿ˜‚ So yeah I got noooo desires there. She's just really sweet and I help them out when they need itย 
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Tinywhisper11 June 13th

@mytwistedsoul dont worry soul, I know your buttocks are bad ๐Ÿ˜Ž I'll stick up for you๐Ÿ˜

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@mytwistedsoul

awww, this is so sweettttt <3 *sending hugs and happy vibes your way (if okay)*


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mytwistedsoul OP May 13th

@amiableBunny4016 Little Bunny Foo Foo! It's always nice to see you! (I'm a poet) ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‰


Of course! Hugs and happy vibes are welcome! ๐Ÿ˜ŠThank you! Sending hugs and good vibes back ๐Ÿ’™
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mytwistedsoul OP May 13th
mytwistedsoul OP May 14th

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I had to mow the field again and I caught my supervisor sneaking around and checking up on meย 

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slowdecline48 May 15th

You can always silently walk up behind him the next chance you get & say "Hi boss!"... Be sure to say it loudly & in a cheery tone of voice. With a smile.

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mytwistedsoul OP May 15th

@slowdecline48ย  Sounds like a hold my beer moment! ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ย 

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mytwistedsoul OP May 18th

Mental vomit *smh* my brain just puked ๐Ÿ˜œ not really. I managed to get in trouble again. That used to bother me. Now I just shrug and get slightly p*ssed because it feels like we have to conform here too much. There used to be more freedom with what we write. I get tired of always having to play nice. When it takes hours for someone to delete an offending post what's the point?ย  The damage is already done

I wonder how many points I have. Demerits because we're all in kindergarten. But let's smile and pretend we're happy because positivity is the flavor of the week and there's cookies and milk ๐Ÿ˜‰

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mytwistedsoul OP May 18th

Allow me to make it worse ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

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slowdecline48 May 18th

I could've posted that little rant two decades ago, about society in general... These days I'm not as much of a rebel but I see where you're coming from, yeah. Sites like this need rules for all the people with sensitizing conditions, but sometimes they are enforced to the point where they don't make sense.

It is also another consequence of population growth here. Adding more mentally ill people โžก๏ธ exponentially more potential crossed wires in convos, ways to get upset, etc. โžก๏ธ more enforcement of the rules by the slowly coagulating bureaucracy the staff & volunteers are becoming.

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mytwistedsoul OP May 18th

@slowdecline48 I understand the need for rules. I try to follow them. I don't like is how certain words get thrown around and used inappropriately to tell someone that's what they did. I don't like being accused of something when I know d*mn well that's not what was being done.ย  I can't even really talk about it here on this page which I made or they'll accuse me of it again. But I can email and plead my case. I'm not sure if it's even worth wasting my time to do soย 

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slowdecline48 May 19th

You could always wear your "demerits" as a badge of honor... When I was on ***.gram (back when I had an account!), I eventually got tired of the rules being enforced arbitrarily. When I caught a warning for a comment I posted, I was rather proud to have received it. Later I got a 2nd one...a fine achievement. ๐Ÿ˜Ž (At that point I didn't give a d**n if my account was banned. Eventually I shut it down in any case)

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mytwistedsoul OP June 2nd

@slowdecline48 I went that badge route. It's not worth the headache trying to give my side. And tbh I really don't care. I have the vaguest of memory of what was said anyway. So pfft. It is what it is or what it was lolย 

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mytwistedsoul OP June 2nd

Built a new thingย 

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Saw cool sunrises

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slowdecline48 June 3rd

Very nice work. ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿป You are multitalented, obviously. That can be a curse as much as a gift, though...the more your creative ability extends in different directions, the harder it is to focus on any one medium long enough to become great at it.

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mytwistedsoul OP June 3rd

@slowdecline48ย  Thank you and omg yes you are absolutely right. It feels conceited to say I can do a lot of things but my interests do pull me in too many different directions ๐Ÿ˜•

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slowdecline48 June 3rd

Yep...I know how it is. Been grappling with the same issue for years now. It would only be conceited to say so if we thought being multitalented was an unmitigated benefit & joy. But you & I both know that's not true.

slowdecline48 June 3rd

@mytwistedsoul Also, did you use a router in making any of the pieces for that diorama?

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mytwistedsoul OP June 4th

@slowdecline48 Yeah I have one that fits the Dremel I use

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slowdecline48 June 5th

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hillsideblues June 7th

@mytwistedsoul this is so pretty and I think that's the prettiest sunset I've ever seenย 

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mytwistedsoul OP June 7th

@hillsideblues Hey you โค๏ธ It's really nice to see you here ๐Ÿ˜Š


It is really pretty isn't it? The colors were just amazing
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hillsideblues June 7th

@mytwistedsoul yes it was just from another dimension. I hope you've a nice and warm day like the sun โค๏ธย 

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mytwistedsoul OP June 13th

@hillsideblues It has been nice and sunny here! I hope there's sunshine where you are too Hill โค๏ธ

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barncat June 8th

@mytwistedsoul- Great woodworking skills. And love the sunrises.

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mytwistedsoul OP June 13th

@barncat It's nice to see you! Thank you!

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Tinywhisper11 June 13th

@mytwistedsoul ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ theese are beautiful soul โคโค

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mytwistedsoul OP June 13th

@Tinywhisper11 Thank you โค๏ธ

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mytwistedsoul OP June 19th

feelings fade when you live like a ghost

dream in colors that light up the night

but real life shows that it takes awayย 

and nothing is ever right


how do we live

if nothing is real when we're awake


death plays with it's victimย 

through hide and seek

can feel its cold touch when we're weak

souls depart and the sky turns blackย 

shows you in dreams

all that you lack

the light blinds when we walk through ***

a constant reminder

a ghost in the shellย 

know that nothing is real

the pain won't erase

wait for a miracleย 

maybe then we can escape ๐Ÿพย 

mytwistedsoul OP June 22nd

It's been hotย 

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The lilies are blooming

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Found a new friendย 

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Really liked the strawberries

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slowdecline48 June 23rd

@mytwistedsoul


  1. I didn't know you were into flowers. You must be a skilled gardener.
  2. I knew you were a sweet guy... But seriously, that looks familiar. In the deep South we have a lot of turtles around, as you probably know. I've encountered a few & saved two from getting smashed by oncoming traffic, so far. Will post the stories in my journal if you or anyone else is interested (& if I remember to).
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mytwistedsoul OP June 24th

@slowdecline48 Skilled might be a stretch lol. I just like watching things grow. And most of them are pretty self sufficient once they're planted. I do have to protect them from the deer so most are in fenced areas

Duude my cover! ssshhhh ๐Ÿ˜Ž Nah I am a big softy when it comes to animals and I feed pretty much everything around here. That's how I ended up with a cat ๐Ÿคช Birds - squirrels - deer - chipmunks. Which I found a random sugar pea plant today growing father away then what I planted them ๐Ÿ˜ The squirrels and chipmunks take sunflower seeds and bury them in the woods. Kind of cool to be walking along and see a random sunflower growingย 
You're a softy too ๐Ÿ˜‰ It's awesome you rescued them. Most people don't seem to care
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mytwistedsoul OP June 24th

I think I figured out why I don't drink much water. I have rabies ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿคช

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slowdecline48 June 24th

@mytwistedsoul Drink some other clear liquids before you drink that glass of water. You know, stuff like wh1skey, v0dka, etc...imbibe enough in a short timespan & not only will you relax, the stuff will k1ll off the rabies germs!ย ๐Ÿ˜

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mytwistedsoul OP June 24th

@slowdecline48 Oh now that I like! A prescription I can fill easy! ๐Ÿ˜ Moonshine should do the trick. Grandpa always said it'll cure whatever ails you ๐Ÿ˜‚ย 

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slowdecline48 June 27th

@mytwistedsoul You've had moonshine? Now that's country... Have tried it myself, twice. The first time was when I was out in the Midwest. One of our neighbors got it from a local source. It burned going down my gullet at first but it tasted good at the time. Thought I was doing okay...until I went to get up from the table after my 3rd sip. ๐Ÿ˜ตโ€๐Ÿ’ซ ๐Ÿ˜† Second time was years later...I was hanging out with a friend in Austin & he bought a jar of it from a local maker/dealer...yes, really.

The stuff had an apple slice in it for flavor. It certainly got us smashed but, would you believe, the guy who made it didn't use any barley or corn? Seriously!...he mixed in a lot of sugar into the water & added his yeast to that. *smh* That is no way to make shine. If I ever start fermenting stuff again & get into distillation, you can bet the initial feedstock will never be all sugar.

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mytwistedsoul OP July 2nd

@slowdecline48 ๐Ÿ˜‚ That sounds about right. It hits hard and fast. They call that sugar 'shine here. Up here they mostly use corn. There was some really good blackberry a few years ago. Yeah that stuff will knock you on your *** ๐Ÿ˜ You can buy it in the liquor stores now. Not as many people make it anymoreย 

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mytwistedsoul OP June 26th

Not sure why but this song is in my headย 

Rem - Losing my religion

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slowdecline48 June 27th

@mytwistedsoul Now that takes me back!... Yeah, R.E.M. was big in the 1990's & early 00's. Time goes by so d**n fast, doesn't it?

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mytwistedsoul OP July 2nd

@slowdecline48 There was a lot of good music back then! I think every decade? had good music. YouTube has so many different rabbit holes to fall down when it comes to musicย 

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