In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
sleep with 1 eye open
watching the shadow
lurk behind the door
waiting for it to tippy toe and creep
it's way across the floor
cartoons in the evening
milk and cookies
just before bed
lullabies we sing
to the monsters
living in our head
too old to be this stupid
too young to feel this old
count in even numbers
the lies that we've been told
think you have all the pieces
don't even know where to start
blown to *** and back again
a million worlds apart 🐾
@mytwistedsoul
beautifully written soul 💙 this is such a touching little poem .
I love this bit! <3 eloquently written by such a lovely person!
"lullabies we sing
to the monsters
living in our head"
Bunny <3
@amiableBunny4016
i agree, bunny friend! 💜
@mytwistedsoul
:') i love this 💜 it’s lovely, soul buddy. you write so beautifully 💕
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm glad you liked it 💙
@mytwistedsoul
💜💜💜
What we do in our free time :)
@mytwistedsoul
omg. those are so beautifully made 💙 i especially love the second one ^-^ they look so cosy and lovely. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers Aww thank you! 💙 That's my favorite too 😄 It came together so nice
@mytwistedsoul
it really did 💜
@mytwistedsoul I can so relate to some of those...
This evening's yoga pose is "Porcelain Throne Contemplation"...
@slowdecline48 Did you know that toilet yoga is a thing? Because I did not. Imagine my surprise 😂
WTF is this?
Alittle rain they said. Maybe a dusting they said. Liars! I hate winter
It does look pretty though doesn't it? 😬
You must be up north!...
@slowdecline48 I am lol! In PA close to the NY border :)
That's cool! I have family in the northeast, though not exactly where you are.
Do you go to New York often?...have heard the upstate region is beautiful at certain times of year & very different from the Big Apple.
@slowdecline48 It's been a while since I went up to NY but yeah it is beautiful. Especially in the fall when the leaves change. Spring is nice too with all the new growth. But you won't catch me anywhere close to Big Apple - especially now with all thats going on there
If you have allergies though you would hate spring time here. The pollen from the pine trees and poplar trees gives everything an ugly greenish yellow tinge it's that bad
@mytwistedsoul
So much snow D:
@SleepyShyCat It was supposed to be a dusting lol. Somebody hit the 'nip before they did the forecast 😂
something's disconnected
the signal's lost
the circuits are twisted
nothing functions anymore
the code's too intertwined
with a virus taking over
a flaw in our design
an error in the memory
OVERLOAD in the mind
what're your thoughts Doc
can anything be saved
can't feel anything anymore
error error
failed to load
maybe force a reset
systems crashing down
defective to the core
erased this connection,
but can't seem to restore 🐾
@mytwistedsoul
i like this soul 💜 this is beautiful and i do resonate with this tbh :') you express yourself through writing vvv well 💜
it takes hold
there may not be enough time
for thoughts to take shape
there's no feeling left
deep within my chest
alone and abandoned
pray these walls hold
taste the silence
a weakened condition
built by design
never ending
keep close
and for a moment
thoughts take shape
don’t let them break you
save your breath
it's pointless
no feeling in these bones
there is nothing left
depression, anxiety
it's a virus
crippling
passively overtaking
corrupting in essence
destroying your mind
dismantling your soul
leaves you broken
afraid
alone
always
promising
I can send you home 🐾
@mytwistedsoul Man...that's too familiar for comfort....
Soooo..... I'm gonna d*sappear for alittle. My head has been pretty f*cked up the past few months and I can't seem to get it straight. I haven't been myself for what feels like a very long time. Things have been pretty bad and with all the different emotions coming from different angles - I'm exhausted. Between the stress and depression and chaos - I'm floundering most days. I'm - lost. And idk how to get me back. It's gotten hard to talk about it. Some of its just that I don't think I should feel this way. It's hard to explain the sh*t that goes on in my head and tbh I worry about the stigma attached to it lately and I really don't have the energy to explain
So to quote John Muir - into the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soul
Be gentle with yourselves and your thoughts Love to you all 💙❤️💙❤️
Later - J
@mytwistedsoul *future reference - the censor doesn't like the word disappear in certain sentences. Placement I guess 🤪 this place *smh* I swear 😐
@mytwistedsoul 🥺 me will miss you Soul 🥺 you'll be in my thoughts and im a tag away for you always friend ❤
your always there for everyone and tbh ive been feeling things aren't the best on your end too so lowkey glad you taking time for yourself but Soul friend you never leave us alone when we are struggling and me wanna say that you don't need to be alone with your stuff also 🥺 me knows it's hard talking about certain things at times and yeah it's just scary and uncomfy to mention anything about our feelings or the truth about how we doing but your feelings are valid and idk what stigma but just that you'll always find Optibear in your corner ❤ i trust you and me believes in you 🥺
sends lots of luvvv and squeeziee you tightly ❤ be gentle with you ok? we can try 🥺
me sitting with you ... but you don't need to say anything or yeah do anything... im just here.... but you can take your time with everything ❤
sends more luvvvv
@Optimisticempath OptiBear Idk what to say 🥹 I missed you ❤️ you're always so sweet and kind ❤️ Not just to me but to everyone. You truly are a beautiful person with such a great big heart. I wonder if you have any idea just how many lives you touch here. This is such a sweet message. Thank you - for everything. For being here - for being my friend and for being your wonderful self ❤️ Lots and lots of love to you and many many squeezies ❤️❤️
@mytwistedsoul Good luck, man. Fix your head as well as you can... If you plan on coming back, I look forward to it. If not, then may you have fair winds & following seas.
Hey twistedsoul, not sure if you read this in the near future. But it is good to hear that you noticed it and needed the break.
Please take as much time as you need. Recover and come back stronger. Take care.