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In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
@amiableBunny4016 It is a really good line :) ๐ I'm glad you liked the poem
@mytwistedsoul
:') i love this ๐ itโs lovely, soul buddy. you write so beautifully ๐ย
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm glad you liked it ๐
@mytwistedsoul
omg. those are so beautifully made ๐ i especially love the second one ^-^ they look so cosy and lovely. ๐ย
@LoveMyMoonflowers Aww thank you! ๐ That's my favorite too ๐ It came together so niceย
@mytwistedsoul I can so relate to some of those...
This evening's yoga pose is "Porcelain Throne Contemplation"...
@slowdecline48 Did you know that toilet yoga is a thing? Because I did not. Imagine my surprise ๐
๐ Actually I didn't either, until now!...
I'll bet the breathing pattern can be difficult to do. ๐ค
WTF is this?ย
Alittle rain they said. Maybe a dusting they said. Liars! I hate winter
It does look pretty though doesn't it? ๐ฌ
@slowdecline48 I am lol! In PA close to the NY border :)
That's cool! I have family in the northeast, though not exactly where you are.
Do you go to New York often?...have heard the upstate region is beautiful at certain times of year & very different from the Big Apple.
@slowdecline48ย It's been a while since I went up to NY but yeah it is beautiful. Especially in the fall when the leaves change. Spring is nice too with all the new growth. But you won't catch me anywhere close to Big Apple - especially now with all thats going on there
If you have allergies though you would hate spring time here. The pollen from the pine trees and poplar trees gives everything an ugly greenish yellow tinge it's that bad
@SleepyShyCatย It was supposed to be a dusting lol. Somebody hit the 'nip before they did the forecast ๐
![playing-snow-snow.gif](https://media.tenor.com/SHK48p-xMtwAAAAC/playing-snow-snow.gif)
@SleepyShyCat ๐That's what it felt like!ย
something's disconnected
the signal's lost
the circuits are twistedย
nothing functions anymore
the code's too intertwinedย
with a virus taking overย
a flaw in our design
an error in the memory
OVERLOAD in the mind
what're your thoughts Doc
can anything be saved
can't feel anything anymore
error error
failed to load
maybe force a reset
systems crashing down
defective to the core
erased this connection,ย
but can't seem to restore ๐พ
@slowdecline48 That's a good title for it :)
@mytwistedsoul
i like this soul ๐ this is beautiful and i do resonate with this tbh :') you express yourself through writing vvv well ๐
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm glad you like it but I'm sorry it resonates with you :( It's not easy when your system is crashing and you don't know what to do to fix it :/
*Offers safe bear hugs*ย
it takes hold
there may not be enough time
for thoughts to take shape
there's no feeling left
deep within my chest
alone and abandonedย
pray these walls hold
taste the silence
a weakened conditionย
built by design
never ending
keep close
and for a moment
thoughts take shape
donโt let them break you
save your breath
it's pointless
no feeling in these bones
there is nothing left
depression, anxiety
it's a virus
crippling
passively overtakingย
corrupting in essence
destroying your mind
dismantling your soul
leaves you broken
afraid
alone
always
promisingย
I can send you home ๐พ
@mytwistedsoul Man...that's too familiar for comfort....
Soooo.....ย I'm gonna d*sappear for alittle. My head has been pretty f*cked up the past few months and I can't seem to get it straight. I haven't been myself for what feels like a very long time. Things have been pretty bad and with all the different emotions coming from different angles - I'm exhausted. Between the stress and depression and chaos - I'm floundering most days.ย I'm - lost. And idk how to get me back. It's gotten hard to talk about it. Some of its just that I don't think I should feel this way. It's hard to explain the sh*t that goes on in my head and tbh I worry about the stigma attached to it lately and I really don't have the energy to explain
So to quote John Muir - into the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soulย
Be gentle with yourselves and your thoughts Love to you all ๐โค๏ธ๐โค๏ธย
Later - J
@mytwistedsoul *future reference - the censor doesn't like the word disappear in certain sentences. Placement I guess ๐คช this place *smh* I swear ๐
@mytwistedsoul ๐ฅบ me will miss you Soul ๐ฅบ you'll be in my thoughts and im a tag away for you always friend โค
your always there for everyone and tbh ive been feeling things aren't the best on your end too so lowkey glad you taking time for yourself but Soul friend you never leave us alone when we are struggling and me wanna say that you don't need to be alone with your stuff also ๐ฅบ me knows it's hard talking about certain things at times and yeah it's just scary and uncomfy to mention anything about our feelings or the truth about how we doing but your feelings are valid and idk what stigma but just that you'll always find Optibear in your corner โค i trust you and me believes in you ๐ฅบย
sends lots of luvvv and squeeziee you tightly โค be gentle with you ok? we can try ๐ฅบย
me sitting with you ... but you don't need to say anything or yeah do anything... im just here.... but you can take your time with everything โค
sends more luvvvv