In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

@amiableBunny4016 It is a really good line :) 💙 I'm glad you liked the poem

@mytwistedsoul

:') i love this 💜 it’s lovely, soul buddy. you write so beautifully 💕 

@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm glad you liked it 💙

@mytwistedsoul

💜💜💜

What we do in our free time :)

@mytwistedsoul

omg. those are so beautifully made 💙 i especially love the second one ^-^ they look so cosy and lovely. 💜 

@LoveMyMoonflowers Aww thank you! 💙 That's my favorite too 😄 It came together so nice 

@mytwistedsoul

it really did 💜

@mytwistedsoul

So cool!! I'm impressed 😸

@SleepyShyCat Thank you! 😊

Flavor of the day

New medicine - Control Freak

@mytwistedsoul I can so relate to some of those...

This evening's yoga pose is "Porcelain Throne Contemplation"...

@slowdecline48 Did you know that toilet yoga is a thing? Because I did not. Imagine my surprise 😂

😆 Actually I didn't either, until now!...

I'll bet the breathing pattern can be difficult to do. 🤓

@slowdecline48 😂😂

WTF is this? 

Alittle rain they said. Maybe a dusting they said. Liars! I hate winter

It does look pretty though doesn't it? 😬

You must be up north!...

@slowdecline48 I am lol! In PA close to the NY border :)

That's cool! I have family in the northeast, though not exactly where you are.

Do you go to New York often?...have heard the upstate region is beautiful at certain times of year & very different from the Big Apple.

@slowdecline48  It's been a while since I went up to NY but yeah it is beautiful. Especially in the fall when the leaves change. Spring is nice too with all the new growth. But you won't catch me anywhere close to Big Apple - especially now with all thats going on there

If you have allergies though you would hate spring time here. The pollen from the pine trees and poplar trees gives everything an ugly greenish yellow tinge it's that bad

@mytwistedsoul

So much snow D:

@SleepyShyCat  It was supposed to be a dusting lol. Somebody hit the 'nip before they did the forecast 😂

@mytwistedsoul

A dusting?? Lol

@SleepyShyCat 😂That's what it felt like! 

something's disconnected

the signal's lost

the circuits are twisted 

nothing functions anymore

the code's too intertwined 

with a virus taking over 

a flaw in our design

an error in the memory

OVERLOAD in the mind

what're your thoughts Doc

can anything be saved

can't feel anything anymore

error error

failed to load

maybe force a reset

systems crashing down

defective to the core

erased this connection, 

but can't seem to restore 🐾

"Mental Illness: the 21st Century Version"...

@slowdecline48 That's a good title for it :)

@mytwistedsoul

i like this soul 💜 this is beautiful and i do resonate with this tbh :') you express yourself through writing vvv well 💜

@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm glad you like it but I'm sorry it resonates with you :( It's not easy when your system is crashing and you don't know what to do to fix it :/

*Offers safe bear hugs* 

@mytwistedsoul

*hugs back* 💜

@mytwistedsoul

*waves to A*

@ThePizza hii 😊 🐾

it takes hold

there may not be enough time

for thoughts to take shape

there's no feeling left

deep within my chest

alone and abandoned 

pray these walls hold

taste the silence

a weakened condition 

built by design

never ending

keep close

and for a moment

thoughts take shape

don’t let them break you

save your breath

it's pointless

no feeling in these bones

there is nothing left

depression, anxiety

it's a virus

crippling

passively overtaking 

corrupting in essence

destroying your mind

dismantling your soul

leaves you broken

afraid

alone

always

promising 

I can send you home 🐾

@mytwistedsoul Man...that's too familiar for comfort....

Livingston - Shadow

Soooo.....  I'm gonna d*sappear for alittle. My head has been pretty f*cked up the past few months and I can't seem to get it straight. I haven't been myself for what feels like a very long time. Things have been pretty bad and with all the different emotions coming from different angles - I'm exhausted. Between the stress and depression and chaos - I'm floundering most days.  I'm - lost. And idk how to get me back. It's gotten hard to talk about it. Some of its just that I don't think I should feel this way. It's hard to explain the sh*t that goes on in my head and tbh I worry about the stigma attached to it lately and I really don't have the energy to explain

So to quote John Muir - into the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soul 

Be gentle with yourselves and your thoughts Love to you all 💙❤️💙❤️ 

Later - J

@mytwistedsoul *future reference - the censor doesn't like the word disappear in certain sentences. Placement I guess 🤪 this place *smh* I swear 😐

@mytwistedsoul 🥺 me will miss you Soul 🥺 you'll be in my thoughts and im a tag away for you always friend ❤

your always there for everyone and tbh ive been feeling things aren't the best on your end too so lowkey glad you taking time for yourself but Soul friend you never leave us alone when we are struggling and me wanna say that you don't need to be alone with your stuff also 🥺 me knows it's hard talking about certain things at times and yeah it's just scary and uncomfy to mention anything about our feelings or the truth about how we doing but your feelings are valid and idk what stigma but just that you'll always find Optibear in your corner ❤ i trust you and me believes in you 🥺 

sends lots of luvvv and squeeziee you tightly ❤ be gentle with you ok? we can try 🥺 

me sitting with you ... but you don't need to say anything or yeah do anything... im just here.... but you can take your time with everything ❤

sends more luvvvv