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In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
@Optimisticempath *hugs OptiBear back tightly* there's nothing to be sorry for ok? ❤️
The news - my father has stage 4 cancer. We've been trying to rebuild and repair a relationship that's complicated
@mytwistedsoul oh nu how come I miss this till now :( 😢 I'm vv sorry to hear that Soul :( me here if you feel like talking or sharing anything you want anytime ok ❤ you don't need to be alone in this difficult time 🥺 *hugs tight ❤ I will be really grateful to support you in any way you need and I'm able to, please don't hesitate ok? you're vv loved ❤
@Optimisticempath Aww no worries OptiBear ❤️ I think the notifications have been screwy for a while. I'm sorry I should have probably dropped a TW on that post first. Just you being here and being my friend and caring - I'm really grateful for all of those things. Thank you! * Big squeezy* Much love to you ❤️❤️
@mytwistedsoul How adorable awww!🥰❤
@mytwistedsoul ikr soul 😐😐 whyy😔🥴
*huggles
This feels scary ngl clicking everything to see what it is for ... all over again 😣
more hugging 🥺🤗🤗🤗
@Optimisticempath *hugs OptiBear tight* I hear you there! Pushing buttons hoping it doesn't yeet me some where I don't want to be. 😅 had to ask how to find my own threads 😕 *smh*
@mytwistedsoul oh it's in forums search? why do we have to keep unlearning and relearning here all the time smh 😅
*hugs soul hows you doing today?❤
@notalexbrady Hey nice to meet you 🙂 I'm glad you like it!
mirror mirror on the wall
we need some truth or nothing at all
its always been touch and go
the forgotten truths that no one knows
time it heals but hurts inside
it comes at us again and again
a storm that never ends
shows us we're not OK
trust is key but we wonder why
can't change the way we feel inside
no we're not the same
done playing games
we see who's to blame
what once was a temple
is now a tomb
now we're screaming
wondering why
we come back here
where nothing is the same
maybe we're all just a little insane
maybe it's me
I'm the one to blame
🐾
I'm f*cking terrified
I see the sunshine shining like a spit to the face
I'm hearing ***'s bells ringing and I think it's for me
It's almost like
I'm blind to the light
I'm seeing people all around me poppin' pills for the pain
Don't wanna try but I might cause I need an escape
I'm feeling like
There's nowhere to hide
Lying, shaking
Bones are breaking
Facing the mirror
Is too much, can't take it 'cause
I'm scared to look into my eyes
'Cause I'm afraid of what's inside
And it feels like
I've been pulled into the riptide
Going under
Don't try to tell me it's alright
I'm f*cking terrified
I tried to find a prescription for the ditches I've dug
I realize my condition can't be fixed with a drug
I'm out of time
Kiss me goodbye
Body pacing
Contemplating
Facing the mirror but
I just might break it 'cause
I'm scared to look into my eyes
'Cause I'm afraid of what's inside
And it feels like
I've been pulled into the riptide
Going under
Don't try to tell me it's alright
I'm f*cking terrified
I'm so f*cking terrified
I'm scared to look into my eyes
'Cause I'm afraid of what's inside
And it feels like
I've been pulled into the riptide
Going under
Don't try to tell me I'm alright
I'm f*cking terrified
Terrified
Don't try to tell
me I'm alright
I'm so *** terrified
I need a sign to let me know you're here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
'Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup
When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said
And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
And I won't give up if you don't give up
I won't give up if you don't give up
I won't give up if you don't give up
I won't give up if you don't give up
I need a sign to let me know you're here
'Cause my TV set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me
And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
When children have to play inside so they don't disappear
While private eyes solve marriage lies 'cause we don't talk for years
And football teams are kissing Queens and losing sight of having dreams
In a world that what we want is only what we want until it's ours
And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
And I'm (I won't give up if you don't give up)
Calling all angels (I won't give up if you don't give up)
And I'm (I won't give up if you don't give up)
Calling all you angels (I won't give up if you don't give up)
Calling all you angels (I won't give up if you don't give up)
Calling all you angels (I won't give up if you don't give up)
Calling all you angels (I won't give up if you don't give up)
Cause I'm alright, thanks for asking
There's a million things I'd love to say but you don't wanna hear
Yeah, it's alright, I don't need your blessings
I'd rather face the wrath of angels than the devil in the mirror
I don't think God is listening
She told us to follow, but left us behind
I've never seen an angel
But I know the devil, and he told me I'm fine
What doesn't k*ll you will only make you stronger
That's what everyone keeps tellin' me
I'd rather capsize than chase an old horizon
Throw me back into the deadest of seas
Well, I know that God is laughing
She gave us our wings, but never taught us to fly
They say the end is coming
And if that's true, well, I don't think I mind
I always knew it would come to this
Heaven or ***? I can't tell which is which
I always knew it would come to this
Heaven or ***? I can't tell which is which
Tell which is which
I don't think God is listening
She told us to follow, but left us behind
I've never seen an angel
But I know the devil, and he told me I'm fine
I know that God is laughing
She gave us our wings, but never taught us to fly
They say the end is coming
And if that's true, well, I don't think I mind
Roll, roll, roll, keep on moving ahead
Roll, roll, roll, guess I'll sleep when I'm d*ad
Just wanted to stop by and leave a hug if that’s ok with you. Been thinking of you ❤️
@crimsonLime6525 Lime! ❤️ Omgosh! Hugs are definitely ok! You've been in my thoughts too - how have you been? I can't tell you how nice it is to see you 😊❤️
we fall asleep and dream of home
with doors slamming and crashing all around
the only place we'd ever known.
the past is dead
that life is gone
haunted by sorrows
hope slips through our hands
as gravity takes hold.
are we brave enough?
crying out but barely breathing
tired wings slowly failing
the sound of angels
are we alive or just a bunch of ghosts?
we break and burn
and can't take it anymore
and return to the place
where the water covers over everything.
it all looks different now
swear it was in front of me
memories fall around.
of everything that used to be
you couldn't stay
still feel your echoes
where'd you go, all alone?
fall through wet shadows
caught inside another dream
🐾
@Angelx28 Hey :) I'm so sorry for my late reply. Thank you for the hug ❤️ Sending some back - How are you?
@mytwistedsoul. Just dropping a note to see how you are doing.
@adventurousBranch3786 Hey Branch ❤️ I'm hanging in there - thank you for asking ❤️ How are you?
@mytwistedsoul. Thanks I’m doing alright. You were in my thoughts.
@adventurousBranch3786 I'm glad you're doing alright ❤️ It's always nice to see you 🙂
@mytwistedsoul
hello soul 💕 I just wanted to check on you to see how you're doing 💜 you've been in my thoughts lately.
@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you little bird 💙
September is an important month. Do you know why?
Because you're alive and so am I. I know It might not feel like a big deal now but some day - one day it will. I hope that for you. I wish that for you. I'm grateful that you're still here
You are NOT alone.
You ARE loved.
You belong here ❤️
September is suic*de prevention month
@mytwistedsoul 🥺 me v happy you're here Soul ❤ you are luvvved lots too and make a big difference to the world 🤗
@Optimisticempath I'm happy you're here too OptiBear ❤️ You've got such a big heart and YOU make the world a better place for so many people ❤️😊 Thank you for being you. Thank you for being HERE ❤️
@mytwistedsoul *huggles best Soul 🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
how is soul doing today? me sorry for being such an absent friend ... your in my thoughts vv often Soul, just bad at communicating sometimes 😔 sends luvv ❤ hope you treating yourself with gentleness 🤗