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In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
@Optimisticempath I'll give it my best π May I ask the same of you? β€οΈ
Every time I see these little bears in gifs you pop into my thoughts π
I totally get that. Kind of a here but not here thing. The days pass. Idk - some days are harder then others ya know? *hugs* β€οΈβ€οΈ
@mytwistedsoul
ππ I'll remember to cover them next time π
awww that is really so sweet and kind of you Soul π₯Ί you always say such kind things and warm my heart π you're a vv special hooman and I'm grateful every day to be your friend π€
you're right. blanket forts are amazing hiding places ... vv comfy also π₯° and this one has lights?!!π we like colorful pretty lights!
@mytwistedsoul
oh no what did I get myself into π ... I'll try to try my best for you too Soul π₯Ί we will do ok, we got us β€
aw ikr some days are harder than others, we can hide under blankie fort and let it pass or as some people say, take it one moment at a time π€ me here for you always and me believes in you always β€sending the biggest hugs
@Optimisticempath Gotta cover the loopholes π
Thank you Opti for all your encouragement and support. And for believing in me. It mean alot to me β€
I wish so many good things for you. You're such an amazing person. With a good heart. Kind and gentle to everyone β€οΈ
I love forts! Wonderful places to tuck away and hide away from the world
TW
Yeah, I got voices in my head again, tread carefully
And I don't medicate, it helps me temporarily
I got problems, I got issues, yeah, apparently
Trauma that I'm burying, I think I need some therapy
I battle depression, I'm back with a message
I'm asking the question that if you hate me, why you acting obsessive?
I'm past the point of no return, *** being passive aggressive
I'll brandish a weapon, teach all you m**herf*ckers a lesson
I actually battle my demons and shadows
They swim in the deep and they creep in the shallows, I'm lost
I gotta admit that I'm living the life that I've always wanted
But it comes at a cost
They're licking their chops, they're fixing to rip me apart
I'm swimming with sharks
I'm lifting the bar, I'm lifting it into the stars
I'm like a shot of adrenaline mixed with some Ritalin
You started a battle, but b**ch, I'mma finish it
You think you can stop me? Not even a little bit
Nowadays everybody's so sensitive
Taking my words and you pick it apart
Tripping on nothing, just get in the car
Gripping and ripping, I'm sticking the mark
I'm tipping the ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-charts
'Cause I got enemies trying to get rid of me
Evil tendencies are f*cking with me mentally
I got people that don't like me in the industry
I can feel your energy, you are not a friend to me
'Cause I have been to places that you never wanna go, yeah
I got dirt on people, but they act like I don't know, yeah
I could do some damage, but I'll never rock the boat
All it takes is one post, watch 'em fall like dominoes
You'll never get rid of me, too many mini-mes ripping my imagery
You know my history, it ain't a mystery
I put every enemy outta they misery
Somebody, send me some positive energy
About to go Darth, about to go Disney
Into the darkness, into infinity and
Shut you m**herf*ckers up, you listening?
Stacking every little pretty penny that I'm getting
And I'm never giving in to anybody always winning
Never kidding when I die, I'm taking everybody with me
You're never gonna get me 'cause you'll never see it simply
I'm a m**herf*cking god, you're a light yawn, I'm a time bomb
And the vibes wrong, is this mic on?
I'm killing the syllables with a loaded refillable
I'm a lyrical, typical supervillain, I'm venomous
And I'm never gonna stop until they put me on top of the list
I can't control the monster any longer that's inside
The pain and sorrow left us hollow
No tomorrows hard to swallow
Death is calling so appalling
Tightrope walking, now I'm falling down
Like missiles falling from the sky
Come and save us
The pain and sorrow left us hollow
Here today, but gone tomorrow
The pain inside is the fuel that drives
This flesh and bone through blood red skies
The death defying, hypnotizing
One day you're gonna figure out that
Everything they taught you was a LIE
Watch the world burn
The fear is what keeps you alive
Break the f*cking chains, take back your life
The fear is what keeps you insane
Break the f*cking chains, take away the pain
@mytwistedsoul- glad to know these are lyrics to a song. They must resonate with a lot of people by the number of views and comments on youtube. Makes my domestic issues feel trivial.
@barncat Its an amazing song. Its been on repeat here for days
How are you barncat?
@mytwistedsoul- getting by day by day. Some better than others. Hope you are well. ππ΄π΄β€οΈ
@Angelx28 Omgosh! Hey! How are you? Haven't seen you in forever π
I'm - hanging in there. Thank you for asking β€οΈ
@mytwistedsoul I really like this!
@adventurousBranch3786 Branch! It's so nice to see you! β€οΈ I'm glad you like it! π It was fun to put together
I hope you're doing ok β€οΈ
@mytwistedsoul- what is the scale, looks detailed.
@mytwistedsoul This is super amazing, Soul, you're soooo talented! β€
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou ππ¦π
@selflessSpruce1515 awww Spruce β€οΈ this is so sweet! Thank you! π I've missed you
How are you?
@mytwistedsoul. They are beautiful π.
@adventurousBranch3786 aww thank you Branch π they're really soft
@sunshinegiraffe123 Hey stranger :) How are you?
@sunshinegiraffe123 Better sounds good :) I'm hanging in there - thank you for asking
bound by memories
that haunt all the rooms
the many ghosts of you
keep pushing through
violence in the way you speak
new scars
wounds that seep
dead dreams fill the air
restless nights add up
have you had enough?
Sorry not sorry the search features in the subscribed and my thread sucks! The dates are all wonky. It used to be easier to find things when it didn't work at all π€
thought i should say hi at least. no updates from me. other than life reaching beyond limits. sorry that things only deteriorate extremely. take care of yourself twistedsoul.
@mikenai Hey Mike :) it's nice to see you. I'm sorry that there hasn't been any improvement for you. Things are kind of rocky for me right now - Idk how to settle it down
@mytwistedsoul
Sorry, but meanwhile you too take care.
Easter bunny hugs to remind Soul I'm thinking of them and wishing a happy easter π sending love π€ @mytwistedsoul
Did Soul celebrate? How's Soul doing? π
@Optimisticempath
Opti! β€οΈ Happy belated Easter to you too! Was gonna color eggs lol but tbh - got some bad news Friday that caused some issues π
@mytwistedsoul smh only seeing this now π soul I'm sorry :( what news if you wanna share? Don't wanna bring up anything uncomfy so feel free to skip sharing if you don't want okiπ how are you doing lately? me here for youu *hugs tight* β€