In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
Was having trouble getting pictures to post without triggering the stupid censor. Turns out it was an extension that allowed me to bypass the stupid reply limit
@mytwistedsoul- love the last image.
touch of fire catches an eye
shiver as it lights up the sky
unspoken secrets fill the air
they hold our attention and our fear
can't see the walls keeping us in
can you hear them, are you listening?
if it takes all to build the great divide
it takes all of us to make this right
if we're living in the darkness
can we listen to the light?
can you hear it calling?
can we make this right?
i hide in places you won't ever see
did you know the walls have eyes
watching the ones that lie
they close their eyes so they breathe
can’t help but lose your mind
wouldn't even know you died here
they say they’ll hold me
think they wanna own me
they open up all the doors I own
step out and try to breathe
you can't see what I see
what’s real to you isn't real to me
🐾
It's that time of the year again :)
Had that oh cr*p moment
Whipped out my phone to check the days
Popped out of hiding
Had to test some candy canes for quality control *needed a sugar rush*
Got my elf on 
Had a talk with the Big Guy
Checked on the reindeer
Picked out a tree
Decorated it and did the lights
Played some Christmas songs
Let's put on our ugly sweaters
And drink something warm
Maybe have alittle snack
While we wrap those gifts
Sneak a few peeks
And now we wait
From all of us to all of you
@mytwistedsoul#
Hi You've always responded with Love and care to my posts, I am here doing the safe for you
offering you some safe and gentle Love and hugs
I wish I could do more
if someone could is there anything you'd want ?
@Farrah17 Farrah ❤️ It's really nice to see you here! How are you? I haven't seen any of your threads lately. I've missed seeing you around
Thank you so much for the safe and gentle love and hugs - I'm sending some back to you ❤️
This is perfect tbh - you brought me a smile Thank you!
@mytwistedsoul
You are very welcome
I have been having bad times with the dizziness
and triggered with the abuse here I hardly post now its too much I can't go through that again
and just other things that aren't here have been triggering
trying hard to get well still
thanks so much
@Farrah17 ❤️ I'm sorry to hear you're still having problems with the dizziness. Is it anxiety related? Or caused by something else? I'm sorry if I asked and you told me before. My memory has been really faulty lately
Triggers are so hard to deal with. As a result we kind of try to avoid them. Which is a good thing - bad thing. The good thing is we avoid what triggers us - the bad thing is that it isn't healing. I'm finding this out myself
It seems that the bad things that happened here in the forums has been stopped. The security seems better. I know you've also been having some bad luck with listeners too. But there's still good people here. I hope with alittle more time this place can become a safe place for you again because you were doing good things here. Your hug thread was amazing. It was nice to see all those people just giving out hugs for no reason other than they cared. I know you're trying to keep things in your life positive and I have to agree - we need more positivity in our lives. It seems we need that now more than ever
Take good care of you ok? ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
thanks yes its anxiety all the dizziness is emotional
I am doing really well in my recovery so that is good
I appear to have lost friends and its really difficult to deal with that its extremely hurtful and upsetting I don't find many understand either
I hope it gets better here too
I noticed many accounts have been banned
I hope you have better times
thank you for caring
@Farrah17 Do you have grounding methods you could try? It takes some practice to get them to work and the same one won't allways work but they can be helpful
Yay you! I'm glad your doing well with your recovery!
I'm sorry you've lost friends. Unfortunately it does happen. It can be hard for people who don't have trauma to understand that it can't just be gotten over. You can't just let It go. You can't just go back to who you were. It adds insult to injury that the people you'd like to go to for support just aren't there 😞
It will get better here. It might just take alittle time but I hope you do start to feel comfortable here again
No thank you needed Farrah ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Haha love them! And the earlier ones too!😂❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou 😁😂 I love your new pfp! 😊
@mytwistedsoul Hehe thankyouu!🥰
Someone I've met here has been very very busy. This person has quite alot on their plate health wise but with much determination and perseverance they have created this beautiful dedication to the 7 Cups community. I'd like to ask you all to please check it out
@mytwistedsoul
I have tried somethings it doesn't always work really
yes some people don't understand
its not easy making friends people hardly make time or put in the effort I find
most people appear to accept my situation online I am thankful for that
@mytwistedsoul
also finding the right friends isn't easy
hopefully things will get better here soon
@Farrah17 It is easier to find people that understand - especially here. I guess it's because many of us have gone through similar things - they understand because they've been there
Tbh - those grounding methods can be hit or miss here too. And what worked the time before might not work the next
Is there anything I can do to help you feel safer here?
@mytwistedsoul
I don't personally find most people understand, but I found many people who are understanding that something is wrong, if you get what I mean ?
Its kind of you to ask, you have more than enough to deal with
please take care of yourself
and thank you for being kind
@Optimisticempath lol don't mind the giraffes orange hair 😁 we went with a fake tree. Couldn't see the point of cutting down a perfectly good little tree
@mytwistedsoul omg the orange is something 😂 very quirky xD
thanks for sharing Soul 🥺 I love these 💕💕 specially the tree with the lights on, so pretty 🥰 *hugs 🤗🤗
@Optimisticempath The color is pretty eye catching isn't it? Lol 😁
Aww Opti you're welcome I'm glad you like it 😊 ❤️
*hugs* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul It is!😁
lowkey wanna try wearing an orange wig now🤣
*more hugs* 😮🤗🤗
@Optimisticempath LOL! You can borrow this one 😂
@mytwistedsoul awiee thankyou for letting me borrow 🥺 luv it xD
@mytwistedsoul omgeee where did you find this HAHAHA 😂😂😭🥺 you read my mind! I tried looking for something like this but couldn't find lmao but this is so cute 🥰 love the hair xD thankyouu Soul 🤗🤗 *hugs tightly *