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In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
@ThePizza Alittle better thank you :) How are you?
@mytwistedsoul
Yay Im glad you feel better
Idk I feel kinda sad rn. Dont know why
@ThePizza I'm sorry you're sad :(
Is it yucky outside? It's cold and wet here. I know I kind of need some sunshine or it makes me sad. Sometimes though - you're sad for no reason at all - sometimes it's too many things that you cant just pinpoint what it is
@mytwistedsoul
Actually been pretty warm and sunny for the most part. Hope it warms up for you soon. I guess Ive been thinking a lot about things that have been cancelled because of the virus, and people I miss— though at the same time I dont feel like talking to anyone so idk. My counselor said that now I have a lot more time with my thoughts, which is true and probably isnt helping matters. Trying to get by
@ThePizza I imagine it must be hard for you. This has totally messed up life as you knew it. Going to school and swim meets - being able to hang out with friends. It would make anyone sad - and you're right having that much time alone with your thoughts probably isn't helping. There's not much in the way of distractions when you're stuck in a house all the time. I can understand not wanting to talk to people too - I hope you remember though that people are there for you - if or when you need them
Be gentle with yourself M and your thoughts
Anxious - holy crap
HAd some trouble last night with pain - sometimes old memories hurt
HAving trouble with some urges the past few days
Thoughts want to scatter really easy
It's shi**y out - rain again and another freeze warning tonight. Maybe one day spring with find it's way here
So I'm anxious but IDk - there's some underlying sadness I think - maybe it's defeat - resignation. It wears on me sometimes - the messages . In a way she's like a dementor - feeds off the sorrow and discord and shame - slowly sucking out your soul
Idk - same bullshit - just a different day
@mytwistedsoul
A good one I saw one day was different liver, same eagles
Sam Tinnesz - Run with The Giants https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-fv4bQobpc
Sam Tinnesz - Leading The Pack https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjPbS4Mi_kQ
Citizen Soldier - Sacred https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=To2vGYoD8IQ
Solence - Blackout https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJOxB9e9jpU
Sam Tinnesz - Play with Fire https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=np02phdwrwk
Citizen Soldier - Devil Inside https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_9fg9PRKck
Ya dee da dum dum
Don't spit on the floor
Use a cuspador
That's what it's for
Alittle oper-rat-a lol
@mytwistedsoul
See we comunicate without words, we simply know....
My focus - sucks
It's a pain in the ass being pulled in so many different directions
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXDNMinUPXc
The Score - Best Part
Let's crank it up - shall we
@mytwistedsoul
I feel the same way. Dont know if youve already tried this but my counselor said to try white noise. It helped a little
@ThePizza Hey M :) I usually have a fan on in the living room. Maybe it needs to be at a higher setting. I'll have to see if it helps. Thank you
@NoneTheWiser Dobby needs a sock :)
The yorkie was cute too though. To hell with rules. They keep changing them anyway. We're not kindergartners. It's bad enough they tell us what words we can and can't use. Sorry - lol still feeling alittle pissy about the censors
No worries - ok?
@mytwistedsoul
I care about you, my loved ones, protection is something tailored, active and discerning, not a press button thing.
My M&M hearts ❤💙💚💛💜 and my gratitude to you all 😶😊😀
@mytwistedsoul
I am the last one to have seen good in unlikable persons like Dobby, like Smeagol/gollum, like the Beast, like Screck...
You need to see the good and embrace them, see beyond apperrances or accept appearances...
I am glad I have true loved ones whom I care about and want to be with and appreciate and value and admire them alll...
I need to share some cheese by now😶
@mytwistedsoul
I missunderstood, I shpukd have read the signs better😉, my bad, my appologies🤗😊
@GreenAndRedBoat No worries - you have Lego and M&M hearts. I brought the 🧀
Nothing to apologize for :)
@mytwistedsoul
🐶🐕I remember that woof gif happily chasing rodents🐭🐁🐀 to play🤗😊😀, you always knew how to make my day🤗cheeses come in colours too:
Blue cheese💙
Green cheese💚
Yellow cheese, duh😉💛
Red cheese (Red Leicester Cheese)❤
@GreenAndRedBoat
Gotta love the chesse doodles too!
@mytwistedsoul
A valliant rodent chosen by Aslan with a sense of humour is definitely my bestest of best friends...
@NoneTheWiser
Am so glad to see the grey out of you😉(was sad when the other days you went grey my heart sunk)
Lego hearts ❤💙💚💛💜
@NoneTheWiser
I thank you too, but once souls linked there is no need for protocol😉...
Drift compatibles ...(Pacific Rim movies...)
@mytwistedsoul
Much of what you wrote applies to me right now and I scream in the silence...
Weeping is left for us in our mental torment...
As I always said Soul, I wish I could take up your load so you can feel happy like you deserve to be...😔
@mytwistedsoul
* Hands you over a tissue with funny hamsters and rabbits *