In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
Head's alittle screwy - theres no focus and things look funny. Allmost feels like my eyes should be spinning around.
Idk - sometimes - wonder if maybe I'm having a stroke lol - that's not funny
Idk - I don't think these are my eyes - can't explain that thought
Would fish like hats?
There's alot I can't explain
Alot of typing and deleting
Some thoughts make me nervous
It's all fun and games until the Queen shows up
Random - I'm lost - you'll never find me
Just a pawn in a kings disguise
Come on in and take off your skin
Eh - f**k it - ya know? It is what it is. It's all - Idk - something - I just can't remember what
Headache
Just realized how exhausted I feel - I don't think there's enough coffee in the world for this feeling of exhaustion
Words seem to be in short supply - sort of. Maybe I'm just not handling them right
I have tbh - the Queen has been driving me nuts - just the constant - BS
The Score - Fight The Fear
Knock me down, all the demons creepin' in, oh
Another round tradin' shots with my ego
Runnin', can't help me now
Your chains only drag me down
I've battled hard with the face in the mirror
Every scar makes me dig down deeper
Push it till there's nothin' more
'Cause I'm stronger than I was before
Feel the pulse in my veins like a fighter
I'm the rush like the heat from the fire
Nothing can stop me now
I'll scream it till my lungs give out, oh
It's time to stand up, stand up
Show me what you're made of
Hands up, hands up
Fight the fear
tw - lyrics
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIEc_11Aydc
F**k your method to my sadness, I will bury you
Dig
When is an urge that's not an urge - still an urge? Did you ever want to do something but you don't really feel like you want to do something? Influence? Idk it's not like the usual. This is - demanding. But I dont feel - distressed? Just a sense of urgency - hurry hurry - type - hurry. Pictures in my head - cutting - - tje voice not the same - I wanna see aome blood - male - spit flies from his mouth when he yells it
Quiet - now watching maybe
sorry
mmm dissconecting
Aggressive - bordering on hostile - frustrated
Finding the right words seems to be an issue
Probably not too safe for others - trying to tamp it down
Trying to be gentle - but in all honesty - I don't want to
Maybe they're right - we are violent
Feel the pull to be silent - secretive - and you know what?
It pisses me off
Not to sound like an a**hole - but I think in someways they put way too many expectations on listeners here. Especially considering these are just volunteers doing this on their free time
Tunes - yeah?
Missio - The Darker the Weather https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G2IIppdumOE
Silent Hearts - Stranger https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTC4iwRNYNw
Shinesdown - Monsters https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J6sIK2KnhH8
Silent Theory - Lost Forever https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rX59OO4CFzc
@mytwistedsoul Wage War - Me against myself https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Smjad5Jyv8